Music VS Reality

Chapter Eight "Where I Stand"

Chatper Eight
"Where I Stand"

"People haven't always been there for me but music always has."
-Taylor Swift

After hearing our duet with Alisa, Gennie's opts for surgery, so that she can perform with me one more time.

"This surgery is for Jay, I must overcome it so that I can stand once again on stage with Jay." Says Gennie in whispers voice..

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Even as she verbally exhorts me, who's begun practicing for my next competition, to work harder, she herself is undergoing rehabilitation so that she can once again take the stage.

I was a little bit worried about Gennie, and I can't fucos on my practices.

Gennie is in the hospital and she does not have much time left, but because of me, her hope is renewed and she agrees to go through an operation for her condition, giving her a chance to sing along with me.

She expresses that rather than being unhappy, she is living her life to the fullest and doing what she desired. As I also brightened up her world, she wanted to return the favor to sing together with my plays one last time.

I'm on my way to see Gennie in the hospital as usual, but when I realize that Jetro is already there, I back out and went off head home.

Seeing this, Ciarah finds herself irritated by my inability to admit to my own feelings.

The shock of seeing Gennie's condition suddenly take a turn for the worse causes me to once again turn away from the guitar.

"Music takes away everyone I care about..."

I hid on my room, and Myk was coming. And said, we're going to practice! Get on your feet now!

But I this moment because of what happened to Gennie, I've lost my strenght and I don't wanna play the guitar anymore.

I can't do this.... "I said to Myk in a low voice." I can't do this.. anymore.. Uncle Myk.. why does it have to end up this ways? "I asked my Uncle Myke."
All I.... all I ever wanted was... to play guitar, and make my Uncle get well... that's all... All I did... was fall in love...
Why.... does it have to end up this ways? I can't... go on. I can't try anymore..

My past trauma flashing through my mind, I find myself all alone again.

Once I visited Gennie at the hospital because I receive a letter from her. I met her, then she asked me, "are you playing the guitar?

No, I'm not... I can't do it anymore "I replied" then she said, I knew it. You're feeling sorry for yourself.

The people I care about keep leaving me.
The people I care about... music takes them away from me. I'm going to be left all alone. "I answered back to her."

"But you have me", a sudden answer from her and I was suprised from it.

I'm going to have surgery, see. I'm going to struggle and suffer. It your fault, cause the reason I'm putting up such an unseemly struggle, why I'm si fixated on living... it's your fault. You gave me this desire to hang on to the time that I spend with you. "She said"

But I haven't played guitar this couole weeks ago, how can I paly again? "I siad to her," then she replied, a miracle can happen, I want to know so many things about you. I'm so scared,.... "I'm scared... she said this while crying" so don't leave me all alone!

"I am such an idiot, she's a singir. Her personality blows, she leaves the worst impression but she' beautiful." I'm talking to myself and decided to play guitar for her.