The secrets of Joanne

Chapter 15~ Finding out

Dianne's POV:
Today we have rehearsals for The Foxtrot. I woke up with Joe next to me. "Morning babe!" I said awake. "Morning love!" Joe said still half asleep. I stood up and my wrist was hurting. I looked down and then I remembered that I cut myself last night and passed out on the bed. I looked at the bedsheets and they were completely covered in blood. I told Joe to get ready. He did and we left.

4 hours later
We were dancing and Joe touched my wrists.
D: OWW!
J: I'm so sorry what did I do?
D: Oh, it's just my wrists.
J: What did you do?
D: When you went out, I fell over and hit my wrist on the table.
J: Is it bruised?
D: No it's cut.
J: Can I ask you a question?
D: Go ahead.
J: When I was getting ready this morning, I found blood on my razor and I haven't used it in the past three or so days. Why's that?
D: Ok you got me. I tried to kill myself.
Tears came down my face.
J: Babe! Why?!
D: I keep getting these messages and they are telling me that I'm not worth it and everyone will be happy once I've gone and dead. In the past couple days I've realised it's true. I'm not worth it and everyone will just laugh and be happy once I'm gone.
J: No they won't babe. No one will be happy if you go. I met you and you immediately brightened up my life. Also, you are worth it. How many friends do you have Di?
D: I don't know.
J: See, you have too many to count. Now I want you to stop doing this. How long have you been doing this for?
D: A couple of days.
J: Ok babe. Now you need to stop doing this and tell me if they send you another message. Ok.
D: Okay.

3 hours later
Joe's POV:
Dianne went to the bathroom and when she was in there I was practising. I heard a PING from the corner of the room. It was Dianne's phone. I checked just in case of horrid messages going through to her phone and sure enough it was. 'You're a gold digger, you are just together with Joe for the money and the fame, aren't you!'
'Money is all you think about!'
'Your birth certificate is an apology letter from the condom factory. Admit it, you were a mistake. No one would want you in your family or even in them. I'm surprised that your mum didn't get an abortion.'   'I know something that would make everyone happy. Go find a bridge and jump off of it.'
Dianne came through the doors and asked me, "Why are you on my phone Joe?!"
J: Some hate messages came through babe. I was looking at them.
D: Are they still coming through?
J: Sadly to say, yeah.
D: I've just had enough.
J: I know you have had enough babe but you have me and I have you. If you leave me then I'll go to. I love you and you know that. Just please babe, don't listen to them. They are just jealous of you because you are beautiful, talented, generous and an absolutely amazing girlfriend or just friend in general.
D: Thanks gorgeous. I'll try not to do it again.
J: Um!
D: What?
J: Try? No, you won't. You will never do it again.
D: Ok babe.
J: Anyway we need to go home. We've been here for 7 hours now. I'm so tired.
D: Yeah same. I'm not a night person surprisingly.
J: Really?
D: Yeah. I'm like Zoe, just fall asleep at like 8pm and wake up at 7am.
J: And, how do you know my sister?
D: When I heard you were a youtuber, I literally watched all your videos. I enjoyed them so much.
J: Thanks. Anyway we still need to call an Uber. We need to get home.

At home
Dianne's POV: I was upstairs scrolling through my Instagram feed. I got called downstairs for dinner. Joe had made a couple of omelettes for us. Decorated astonishingly. He gave my dinner to me and I just poked it for a couple minutes and stared at it.
J: Babe, come on, why aren't you eating it?
D: I'm not hungry.
J: Babe? Are you not eating because of those hate messages?
I nodded my head.
J: Don't listen to them babe. They aren't true, not one bit.
D: THEY ARE TRUE AND YOU KNOW THAT!

I stormed upstairs and threw myself on the bed. I cried my eyes out.

10 minutes later
I heard footsteps coming up the stairs. I immediately thought it was Joe but it wasn't. It was Amy and Chloe.

C: Oh Dianne. Come on it's alright. It's only us.
A: Babe, Joe texted us and told us about everything that is happening and how you feel about it.
D: Yeah, but he should have told me.
C: Listen Di, he told told us how you said that you've had enough and you've realised that everyone would be happy when it's your time to go. Now listen, that's not true. Okay?
A: Okay Di?
D: Ok.
A: I'm going to make sure I'm in the same studio as you when you next practice okay?
D: Yeah, I would love that.

They walked out the room since everything was better than earlier.

Amy's POV:
A: Chloe?
C: Yeah?
A: Did you see Dianne's wrist?
C: No? What's wrong with it?
A: It has a scar on it. It looks like he could have self-harmed.
C: Really?
A: Yeah. I think we should ask Joe and see if he knows anything about it.
C: Jooooeeee!
J: Yes?
A: When I was talking to Dianne, I realised that she had a scar on her wrist and I think that she may have self-harmed. Do you know anything?
J: Yeah. When I was out she took my razor and dragged it down her wrist.
C: OMG! I can't believe that she would do something like that.
A: Did this all spark from the hate messages she's getting.
J: Yep. Exactly. She's just had enough.