PHILINDA STUFF - And A Lot Of Other Random Stuff I Wanna Publish

Perhaps (poem)

We had to write a free-verse poem and they said to make it angsty, so.....

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PERHAPS

The "what if" game is always played

Maybe if I were more creatively made

More properly taught

At this or that

I'd be where I want to be

Satisfied

If only I had

What I think I needed

What I think I deserved

Seen what should have been shown

I'd be somewhere better

What about Mr. and Mrs.?

What about my past?

Has it only come to this?

My work; My hours;

My sweat; My tears;

My pain;

Has it only come to this?

Perhaps if only I could look back and see

To pin-point where it all went wrong

Expose the reasons for shame

Find the person to blame

Perhaps if I could make a few changes

Right a few wrongs

Let the light peirce the dark corners in life's path

I'd see why Fate is such a cruel path to walk

Perhaps if that one mistake

Could be reversed

I'd find a better land

I'd live without the curse

Perhaps If I could visit the old me

I'd spark the candle and let old me see

To find the wrongs and fix the past

Maybe I'd find a life to last

I don't want to only walk in night

For once I want to see the light

Or Perhaps It's my own fault

I've come so far

I've fought so hard

But is it I who is blameless?

Perhaps it is my own choices that dug me my hole

I had been warned

I had been told

That choosing a life without my own self-reserve

Would end with nothing but hurt

Perhaps.