NEVER MINE

CONFESSIONS-2♾

When we reached mason opened the car door for me , such a cutie I pondered as he took my hand and helped me out of the car.
As we enter jennas house it is shaking because of the speakers and you can barely hear anything except the loud edm music .
Mason tries to say something to me but i cant hear it he comes closer and whispers in my ear " am gonna go get us drinks" he says and i stick out my thumb in agreement .
I wasn't planning on waiting for him and i went ahead and looked for karen, i didnt had to look around much as i found her in jennas massive hall dancing .
" ruthhhhhh you are heree yayy" she pulls me in a hug and starts dancing.
" yes karen let go now" i say but my voice lacks breath
We dance around and i loosen up and feel comfortable to the atmosphere, i was having a good time now. Soon mason came with drinks.
" sorry i had to find you" he said and winked
" no problem atleast you found me" i say taking the glass he handed me .
We clink our glasses and continue dancing.
I lost myself to the rhythm and i felt nice , i felt alive and happy .
" hey come with me to kitchen please i need water" karen whispers as we dance
Our eyes meet in agreement and she grabs my hand making our way out of the hall and to the kitchen.
I sit down on the kitchen platform as karen gets herself water from the fridge.
" are you having fun ruth?" She asks me and smiles
" I guess so" i say and smile back.
" you want someone to drink ?" She asks
" yea sure I wouldn't mind" i tell her
She pours me a glass of wine and hands me when i feel something around my waist and jump down of the kitchen platform in amusement. What the hell .
A guy and some dudes with him were here.
" hey sexy" he says
I am too surprised to respond so i keep mum
" go away lanny" karen says and grabs my hand to walk out of here.
" not yet senorita" he says and gets hold of me pulling me from karen .
" let go of me" i yell in soft tone
" hey i wont do anything bad , lets just chill and have fun together?" He smirks
" no i am alright" i say . His grip on me tightened as i made an attempt to let go.
" you are breaking my heart babe" he says looking me in the eye
" let her go you ass" karen says and comes forward to free me but one of lannys friend grabs her .
" looks like we are having a foursome" the guy says grabbing me.
What the actual fuck this wasnt supposed to go like this omg what did we get into. I think silently when suddenly theres a voice from the back, yet again I don't fail to recognise it

"YOU TOUCH HER ONCE AGAIN & YOU ARE DEAD LANNY!" Ken yells as loud as he can!

Lanny the idiot quickly takes his hand away & starts walking towards ken

" Chill bro , we can share!" He states , his statements makes me wanna puke . But I know i got a saviour , so i just keep my head down.

Ken doesn't say a word this time , but just hits him, he hits lanny so hard , that at some moment I thought he was dead, lanny wakes up with his bleeding nose, i yet don't know how to react .

Lanny goes near ken & says " you ll pay for this you sick!" & he turns away & leaves with the other guy,
I guess he got scared maybe¿
I turn away & walk towards ken , as soon as i reach him , he yet again takes my arm & starts pulling me

" jeez ken , i ll come you dont need to pull the F outta me everytime!"

He just ignores my comments straight away & drags me through the house , he suddenly stops near a empty room & opens it,

" inside now!" He yells
"Oh okay" i obey his orders
As soon as we both are inside he shuts the door & starts looking at me right into my eyes with pain?!

Ken hemsworth & his puppy dog sorry eyes , ugh too much for my hormones
" DID HE TOUCH YOU?" He asks finally breaking the silence
"NO KEN HE DIDNT, he was about to , but you came!"

"YOU SURE ?" He again asks this time examining me from top to bottom finding any signs of distress
"Yes i am sure!"

But something this time hits me, I suddenly have flashes of him telling me how much less he cared about me! & practically calling me a slut for my clothes come across my mind!

"WAIT UP KEN, why the fuck do you suddenly care? Like literally i can handle myself, i dont need you! , one time you tell me you hate me , the other day you call me "your girl" , one time you tell me you dont care about me & today you act like you give a fuck about what happens to me? What are you doing to me? Ken i need answers, i am done with whatever games your playing!!!

I spit out these words & i hope it to hit him right in his cerebellum.

" You want the truth?
Here take it!

" ruth jacobs you were the one who probably made me into believing what it is to care for a person, what it is to be there for a person, what it is to Lo...

he was about to say  the L words omg but he stops & continues
"you made me into a whole different person, you made me feel who i was & yet I regretted the fact that my bestfriend had a woman like you in his life & not me! I was happy for you guys, but you weren't happy with him, you told me you'r shit ass problems & i told you mine, I thought there was something & again he stops, but you left , you fucking left, when my mom died i had nobody , literally nobody you promised to be there for the worst but you weren't, you are so selfish ruth!

I was about to tell him why i left but he didn't let me speak a word "ken i need to

." He cuts me again

"From that day onwards I realised you just used me , you used me to get over Adrian you used me to get over your shit problems & my feelings meant nothing but shit to you! & YES I FUCKING HATE YOU ! He yells

Tears run through my eyes as I didn't realise what i did was so wrong, I couldn't stop crying thinking about how can i tell this boy how much i love him!

" STOP ACTING LIKE YOU CARE!" He yells again how the fuck can he tell me i am acting? Like literally? How tf can he?

" get the fuck outa my sight, !" He yells again , and i shiver up , looking at him one last time I run , i make my way through the hall and get out of jennas house as fast as possible i reach the outskirts of jennas house realising I didn't have a ride back home .
Should i call mason? No ruth karen will tag along its not like you are in the mood to explain shit to her. My thoughts contemplate.
If i start walking it wont take long to reach home . Thinking this i start walking.
It was a one hour forty five minutes walk and i reached home huffing and puffing.
Things you do whenyou are in love .. aha ruth no your not that guys treats you like shit how could you have a soft corner for him , hell no , but i kinda do like him more like love him.
While all this is going on in my head i enter my house trying to stay as quiet as possible i run upstairs in the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror, i wash off all the makeup and change into my night clothes and go to bed i fall asleep soon today , maybe it was because of the hectic day but today wasn't a sleepless night .