NEVER MINE

THE KISS♾

I wake up naturally the next day and get ready for school , i couldnt find my backpack i looked around the house a bit but there was no sign of my backpack maybe i left it in my locker after drama club i did go there to keep my makeup stuff thinking to myself i stop looking and ask my mom to drop me off as i still didnt have my license, it was supposed to come this weekend. Ugh.
Mom drops me off at school and i run to my locker to find my backpack as during our ride here I realise how I mistakenly brought my personal diary instead of the dialogue book. I was super anxious and walked quicked.
As i got closer to my locker i saw someone leaning against my locker, god no not in the morning the day just started it was ken
" hey" he said , i couldnt gage any emotions on his face he was blank as usual.
" hey back at ya" i said in a low and tired tone.
" meet me in lunch" he said and walked away without even acknowledging my answer.
What does this mean? Does my will not matter at all? Oh god whatever
I am perplexed.
I stop thinking about what just happened and look through my locker for my backpack and now i know i am screwed cause it wasnt in there .
Shitttttttt did i leave it at jennas god no!
I am hit by all the worst places i wouldve left my backpack when my reflexes tell me to
Chase ken.
" ken! Wait up! He kenn!" I yell
" so desperate? I told ya lunch! See ya then" he said from a distance and disappeared .
Oh god what do i do now am so screwed! Why do you have to be so dumb ruth you cant even take care of your things seriously
I am drawn out of my thoughts when i feel a hand on my shoulder .
" WHAT!" I yell in frustration and turn around on my heels to see who it was.
" jeez calm down already its morning already" karen says and pats me on my stomach
" here take this ken gave it to me last night you left this at jennas" she said handing me my backpack
" oh lovely my dearest sweetest creature you are back i missed you" i say and hug my backpack.
" easy there juliet , romeo might runaway" karen teases me.
I roll my eyes and start looking int he backpack for my diary.
It's always in the first chain.
I think moving on to look into other compartments of my backpack as i fail to find it where I usual keep it. I look through the entire backpack , there was no sign of my diary.
God no this isn't happening i am so screwed of i dont find it soon.
I think and yell out " shitt! This is so careless"
" woah easy there , whats wrong" karen asks
I throw my backpack on the ground and answer her question in frustration telling her how i cant find my diary. She listens calmly and her eyes widen with every impression detail.
" well ruth , if we dont hurry we willbe late for first period , lets meet up in lumch amd figure something out okay? Don't worry i will look for it with you" she says and starts picking up my backpack and the stuff which had fallen out of it and puts it back in .
She hands me my backpack and smiles. " lets go"
" yeah" i say in a low tone , still worried about my diary.
I didn't pay attention in any of my classes it wasn't intentionally, i just couldn't . My first class was english and i was super glad that it wasnt calculus or algebra as i could drift off a little and it wont cause great problem.
After english i had to attend drama practice for both my 2-3 periods until lunchtime.
I payed attention in drama as if i wouldn't my teacher would be furious because of my behaviour yesterday.
" ruth is everything all right at home now?"
" yes miss" i reply and fake a smile.
" lets get started then i hope you wont dream around today" she says and lowers her glasses to look at me .
" no i wont" i say and smile again.
We get started and the practice lasts too long and i just couldn't wait to get out, in between we got a free hour during which i searched around the drama room for my diary but failed to find out.
As soon as drama practice got over i got out and ran to the canteen. I wait for karen to come . I was pacing around outside my lunchroom when i saw ken coming my way.
" lets get out of here" he said looking right at me.
" what? No . I am meeting karen" i say and lean against the wall with my hands folded and look in the other direction.
" you sure about that ruthzy?" He smirks pulling something out of his bag.
Ohmygod noooo this is a dreamm he didn't just do that what the hell i wanna kill myself i am so screwed.
My chain of thoughts stops and I finally say.
" where did you find that? Domt you know invading someone's privacy is a crime" i blurt out trying to grab the diary from him
" woah not yet, also there is nothing private between us . Right?" He says and I turn to mush again.
No ruth not the timeeee focusss!
" hahah super funny now give me my diary!" I say super loud and glare him still trying to fight him to get my diary.
I pull him , he pulls out i grab his hands he grabs mine and swirls me around and i land right in his chest.
Woah didn't see this coming
" let go let me gooo" i try to pull away from his captivating arms around me.
" what are you guys doing, ruthhh!" Karen says and comes our way.
" oh hey karen" ken says and smiles
" let her go ken you are hurting her" she says and try's to grab me and pull me out but fails
" LET ME GO" i say again
" shhh not yet we are going for a ride" he says and continues walking outside the campus to his leaving me and karen awestruck, i exchange confused looks with her as i am taken away , unwillingly by ken.
He pushes me in , in the passengers seat and locks the door and gets in quickly.
He drives off and i am super quiet as i take in all of what just happened.
" so you like me huh ?" Ken says out of nowhere. He keeps his eye on the road.
I don't respond to his questions and keep looking out of the window.
Shit what if he read my diary, i am super screwed then.
I think , keeping my eye still on the road outside the window.
" answer me would you?" He says
" what do you want to listen? Yes ken i am head over heels falling for you like every other girl(i was about to say these words) but my brain answers not my heart
"cause NO i am not you disgust me , you make me sick" i say still looking out side the window.
He looks at me and says " well that diary said something totally different"