Sweet as Suga ( suga x reader)

Chapter 19

Yoongi's POV

            My grip grew tighter with every millisecond.  Soojin's eyes had begun to roll to the back of her head, her complexion turning a different color, her pulse getting weaker and weaker.  At this point, she'd be dead any minute now but I didn't see myself killing some poor girl in the hospital, I saw myself riding this world of a narcissistic, conniving, impudent, lying she-devil.  As I was taking life from Soojin, she entered my mind.  Her gleaming e/c eyes, her radiant smile, her perfect lips, her big heart that I adored so much, it all came rushing in my head.  My grasp had loosened which left Soojin gasping for air, I had imagined the look on Y/N's face if I'd actually killed this girl.  My thoughts had been interrupted by the sudden screeching from Soojin, her eyes were looking at me but filled with absolute terror.  She knew that I was going to kill her if I had kept going.  I slowly backed away towards the door with my hands up showing her my palms in defense.  When I got to the door I quickly made my escape and ran back to the ICU waiting area.  I plopped down on one of the chairs and suddenly realized a lady sitting only two seats down with her head in her hands, it sounded as if she was crying.  She took her hands away from her crying face and inhaled deeply letting the air out soon after.  She had red, puffy eyes it seemed like she had been crying a while, I started to feel bad for her.  The woman looked like she was in her early forties and looked tired, she glanced over and did a short bow with her head and I returned it.  As I looked at her I realized that she had a nose like Y/N, she also had the same colored eyes which baffled me quite a bit.   Then it clicked, Y/N was the only one in the ICU right now so it only made sense, "Excuse me, ma'am" she looked over at me.  "By any chance do you know this girl" I showed her picture on my phone of both her and me together.  "Yes, of course, that's my daughter but how do you-you! " she pointed and looked at me with big round eyes "You're the boy across the street!" she said with a complete change in attitude from absolute despair to utter excitement "You are the boy that my sweet Y/N's been talking to recently" I nodded in response seeing as how I was completely speechless at the sudden change in Y/N mom's attitude.  I chuckled at her mood swing then I lowered my head in shame when I remembered why she was here and that it was my fault that her daughter was here in the first place and now I could barely look at her in the eye anymore.  She noticed my somber attitude and questioned it, "What's wrong?" I looked up at her in sadness.  "Your daughter has been the best thing that has ever happened to me and the fact that she's in here because of me breaks my heart but the fact that you probably will look at me a different way after I tell you exactly how she ended up in here" I avoided her eyes that were now glued on to me in suspicion.  I told her the whole story from the very beginning when she first got hurt because of me, because of our relationship.  I told her about when I broke her heart for the first time and how I did it to protect her even though it killed me inside.  I told her about how once I got her back I would never let anything happen to her again and that she would never get hurt because of me.  Then finally I told how I failed to keep that promise and that I was so sorry.  By the time I finished, I had tears in my eyes and was on the verge of breaking down.  I was a failure, I failed Y/N, I failed myself, I failed us and there was nothing I could do except sit here and hope that the love of my life could survive this.  I was sobbing at this point, "What's your name, sweetheart?" she asked me "It's Yoongi Mrs. Y/L/N" I responded still sniffing from all the crying I had been doing.  "Well Yoongi, it sounds like you and my daughter have been through something and you seem to be blaming yourself for all of it," she said, she had a soft voice, a voice so soothing that I could fall asleep almost.  "And it also sounds like you love her very much and because of that love, all of this" she sighed and smiled at me "This is not your fault.  If there is someone to blame, it's me" I looked at her in surprise "No, no, there's no way you could've known" I protested.  "That's why it is my fault, I didn't know about it at first" I gave her a sympathetic look "I'm the mother, I should've known about this.  It's my fault, it's my fault".  We both sat in silence for a while until the opening of the ICU doors which brought both Mrs. Y/L/N and I to our feet, we waited with anticipation as a doctor walked through the sliding doors looking sternly at his clipboard.  "Well, I know you have been waiting quite a while now and the state of Y/N/L/N is that she has a few broken ribs along with a broken wrist and she hit her head after she made impact, so there was some internal bleeding.  But no worries, we solved the issue with haste.  However..." he paused which made me more anxious, more terrified that my Y/N wasn't okay "One of her broken ribs punctured one her organs, one of her lungs so for right now, she not able to breathe on her own," my heart dropped, Mrs. Y/L/N gripped my shoulder she must've been as shocked as I was.  She had this look in her eyes, a look that would've broken my heart if it had been directed towards me.  She looked petrified.  I was petrified.  The doctor continued to explain Y/N's condition "Other than those things she is in a stable condition and we've moved her into the recovery unit, she'll be moved into a room in a couple of hours.  We want to keep her here until she can breathe on her own then after that, you can discharge her" he said, I sighed in relief that she was stable but there was still doubt in the back of my mind, I could still hear those words for now.  I was worried.  We had moved to the waiting room near the recovery unit, we sat quietly until my phone rang.  It read "Hobi" on the caller ID, "What Hosoek" I answered sternly "Is that any way to talk to your best friend Yoongi," he said jokingly "Hosoek, seriously, what do you want?  I'm not in the mood to joke around" I was getting impatient.  "Is something wrong?" his joking tone had disappeared, he was serious now I sighed deeply and explained the whole situation to him.  "What!?  We're on our way" "Wait what do you mean we?  Hosoek.  Hosoek?" when I didn't hear anything, that's when I realized he had hung up already.  I waited in the main lobby for Hosoek and possibly the rest of the gang.  I paced back and forth in the lobby, I didn't want to be in this lobby I wanted to be as close to Y/N as possible and the closest I could get was in that waiting room.  After what had seemed like a lifetime Hosoek finally shows up with Soekjin, Namjoon, Jungkook, Jimin, and to make my day even better Taehyung was here.  "All of you guys are here, good, c' mon," I said then quickly made my way back to the waiting room ignoring Taehyung's attempt to talk to me.  I focused on only one person right now.  When we got back, Mrs. Y/L/N was gone so I asked if Y/N had been transported to a room already.  "Okay.  Miss Y/L/N has been moved to room 435" the lady at the desk told me, I thanked her and swiftly made my way to the nearest elevator with the rest treading behind me.  I stood in front of the door with the 435 on it for a good while before being weirdly disturbed by Jimin, "Any day now" he whispered into my hear.  I gave him a glare and knocked on the door, "Come in" I heard Y/N's mom from the other side and opened the door a little letting only my head peek through.  "Mrs. Y/L/N, the rest of me and Y/N's friends are here" I whisper, she simply nodded in response.  I opened the door and signaled for them to come in, they all entered, introduced themselves, after some quick chats and such it went silent.  "Mrs. Y/L/N, I'm so sorry for all of this" Taehyung spoke giving her a sad look, she simply smiled.  I was standing by Y/N's bedside looking at her, she didn't look like my Y/N, she was hooked up to an IV and had an oxygen tube.  My eyes started to water, my jaw clenched, I blamed myself.  Though Mrs. Y/L/N told me not to, there was no one else to blame but that wasn't until Taehyung opened his big mouth.  I blamed him.  It was his fault.  As I gazed upon my love's face, I blamed him for everything.  I stormed out the room dragging him with me by the arm.  After we exited the room with the door shutting behind us I took him by the collar and pinned him against the wall.  "You got some nerve coming here" I growled "Hyung--" he tried to speak "No, don't say a word.  You listen to me" I let go of his collar but I didn't increase the distance between us.  "I blame you for this, I blame you for all of this" I took a deep breath "You being here makes me want to hurt, I hate you and you know that" he nodded avoiding eye contact.  "But Y/N would want to see you even though you were involved in the Jae Eun incident, I know my girlfriend.  She misses you and she would want both you and me to get along or at least pretend to get along" I said finally but before I could go back inside, Taehyung grabbed my arm and spoke "Hyung, I know that you'll never forgive me for Soojin and that pursuing Y/N--and even ganging up on her like that with Jae Eun--I-I--" tears streamed from his eyes "I betrayed her, I betrayed you and I wish I didn't have to but there was something that I've been meaning to tell you" he paused looking at me in the eyes now "It's about Soojin"