sweetie • Brendon Urie x Reader

eleven

'I've almost killed a man!"

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•flash back•
Sarah and I had been talking for a while, she recently told me she's developed feelings for me and asked if I would date her. At first I turned her down, I was friends with Ryan at this point and was slowly getting to know y/n. The first time I met y/n she was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen, I instantly wanted to get to know her. She's so smart, funny, all that sappy shit. To be completely honest, I started getting feelings for her. Y/n had planned to meet me at the park so we could get to know each other a little more, but Sarah had also asked me to go on a date with her. I was preparing to say no, that I had other plans, but Sarah had interrupted me.

"Hey b! Come out with me after school? I thought we could maybe go on a date?" Sarah's voice echoed through my ears, her face laced in a big smile.

"Um, actually Sarah I have plans, I Uh-"

"You're seeing Ryan's sister, right? The slutty girl? You know what, Brendon? No. You aren't seeing her today and you aren't ever going to talk to her again. If you try to be friends with her then I'll make sure the whole school knows about your past situation, k? Oh and I'll also hurt her." She had an evil smile as she spoke to me.

"What the fuck, Sarah? You can't control me like that!"

"Well, actually I can. I was told I can get anything that I want and love, and you're one of those things."

"I'm not an object, Sarah!"

"If you don't agree with me then I'll make sure y/n gets a special visit."

"I- fine."

Sarah once again smiled and wrapped her arms around me. I detached her from me and stormed away. I can't believe she just threatened me like that. But I can't let anyone find out that I've almost killed a man! That would ruin me for sure. I hate myself for this. I shouldn't let her have this power over me, but there's nothing I can do. I didn't want Sarah to hurt y/n because of me, I didn't want anyone to hurt y/n in general. I may not know y/n that well, but I can definitely tell that she has her own problems which she'd rather not talk about. Ryan seems to be the only person who knows about these things that she won't tell anyone. Wait,

Ryan!

I ran off into the field where Ryan was with Pete, Patrick and a few others, but he was also with y/n. I can't be seen near y/n, Sarah probably has her friends following me. Shit.

"What's up Bren?" Ryan asked.

"Oh uh, nothing. Never mind." I sighed.

"You sure?" He asked again.

"Yeah.. I think so." I nodded.

I looked at the other people with Ryan until my eyes met with y/n's. She smiled sweetly and waved at me, but I completely froze. I couldn't say hi or wave or anything. Her smile quickly turned into a frown and she looked down to the floor. I feel so, so bad. If only she knew about what Sarah had said. How am I supposed to tell y/n that I can't meet her later if I can't talk to her?

"Brendon, you sure you're alright?" Ryan placed a hand on my shoulder, a concerned look on his face.

I pushed his hand off me and looked into his eyes.

"No. Talk later." Was all I managed to say before running off.

Later that day I messaged Ryan saying that something came up and if he could tell y/n that I couldn't see her today, Ryan hesitated at first but eventually agreed to do it.

"Fuck!" I yelled, punching the wall of my bedroom.

I couldn't do this to y/n, it'll hurt her! But I can't let anyone find out about what happened. I almost killed a man, you can't just live that down and forget about it. My anger had gotten the best of me, not to mention that I was intoxicated. I was very drunk and high. this man was standing there, yelling at me about me selling drugs to his son. I got so angry that I ended up beating the man up to near death. I can't just forget that. Now it's being used against me.