sweetie • Brendon Urie x Reader

thirty two

"You, i love you."

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When I woke up it was 3:30am, I sighed and sat up. Noticing that I was no longer in Brendon's room, but now on my temporary bed. I stood up and shuffled around the room to get changed into a hoodie I stole off Tyler. I pulled on some shorts and stumbled around the room. As I passed the door I heard crying and some voices, followed by a door shutting and footsteps just down the hall before a small yet loud thud on the floor.

I opened my door silently and walked out into the hallway. As I walked down the hall the crying became louder, I started rushing to the sound. I soon saw Ryan huddled up into himself on the floor. I rushed over to him, pulling him into a tight hug.

"Hey hey hey, Ry it's okay." I whispered.

I began rocking us slightly, Ryan gripped my arm and cried into the hoodie I was wearing. We stayed like that for a while until his crying turned into sniffles, I suggested we go into my room and so we did.

We both shuffled into my room, I closed the door behind us and sat Ryan down on the bed before sitting next to him. I wrapped my arms around him once more to which he did the same.

"Tell me what happened, Ry." I said softly. He pulled away.

"Brendon broke up with me." He muttered.

I stared at him in shock, my brother is crying because of Brendon? I pulled Ryan into a tight hug and whispered that it was gonna be okay. He eventually calmed down and fell asleep on my bed, I left him there. Deciding that I should talk to Brendon, I pulled the covers over Ryan and silently walked out the room, closing the door behind me.

I walked down the hall and to Brendon's room, I knocked on the door trying to be quiet. There was a heavy sigh behind the door and footsteps before the door opened, revealing a tired and stressed looking Brendon. He didn't say anything, all he did was move out the way to allow me to come into his room.

We sat on the edge of his bed, just staring at each other and thinking before I decided to talk.

"What happened?" I whispered.

"I broke up with him," he sighed. "I broke up with him because I don't feel feelings for him the way I used to."

"I did have feelings for him, don't get me wrong. I just lost those, I suppose. I can't see us actually being able to hold a good relationship. Sure, it was good while it lasted, but this whole thing started because we were fucking each other when we wanted to feel the pleasure of it,"

"I don't wanna keep doing that when I'm starting to gain feelings for someone else. It's bad, and I know it is. Though I can't help it, I thought I loved Ryan, but turns out I just liked him a lot. I love someone else." He admitted.

I stared at him in shock before standing up and pacing around him. I crossed my arms over my chest in frustration, he likes someone else? That's why he broke up with my brother? He loves someone else, who's not Ryan. Why did he get in a relationship with Ryan, then?

"I understand, but why get with Ryan in the first place if you knew you liked this other person?" I asked, stopping in my tracks.

"Because I wanted to get over them, okay? Do you know how wrong it is falling for someone so close to someone you know?!" He raises his voice slightly, making me flinch.

He sighed, "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to raise my voice at you." He looked down in shame.

I walked over to him and placed a hand on his shoulder, to which he looked at before looking up at me. I didn't know what to do in that moment, so I hugged him.

We hugged for a minute or two before pulling away and looking at each other.

"Who do you love, Brendon?" I asked quietly.

"Really wanna know?" He frowned, I nodded.

"You, I love you." He turned away from me.

"Oh my god..." I whispered before running out his room.

I ran back into my room, being careful not to wake Ryan and threw on some normal clothes and a hoodie. I grabbed my phone and ran down the stairs, what have I done?

As I reached the front door I heard footsteps behind me, I was about to turn the nob, "y/n don't leave, please." Brendon pleaded.

"I shouldn't have came here, I need to go." I said before running out the front door.

Brendon chased after me for a while until he gave up with a final shout of my name and "don't leave me".

I ran straight to Tyler's house and called him as soon as I was outside.

"Y/n? It's like 4:45am, what is it?" He groaned.

"Ty open your window, I'm coming up."

"Why?"

"Don't ask questions now, I'll tell you everything later."

I hung up and walked to the side of the house, I looked up to see Tyler opening his window. I climbed up the nearby tree and climbed into Tyler's room, shutting the window as soon as I got in.

"Y/n?"

"B-Brendon said he loves me, Ty. He broke up with Ryan and-" I paused. "He loves me." I said.

Tyler grabbed my hand and pulled me over to his bed, we both sat down. Tyler looked at me in disbelief.

"He loves you?" He asked, I nodded.

"Do you love him?"

I stared at my hands which we resting in my lap for a while, do I love Brendon? Do I still have a crush on him? He does make me happy, sometimes. He's funny, surprisingly helpful and just everything I love in a person. Sure, he can be an asshole but he makes me smile and- shit.

"Yeah," I nodded. "I do."

"Then tell him." Tyler said.

"I can't! I can't do that to Ryan!" I protested.

"Talk to Ryan about it all first, then tell Brendon how you feel. Wait for everything to get calm between them before getting into anything, though." Ty spoke softly.

"I.. fine," I sighed. "Thank you, ty."

"Of course," he smiled. "Now can I please sleep? You can stay here with me." He said.

"Sure," I giggled, climbing into bed next to him, our backs facing each other. "Goodnight."

"Goodnight, Star."