Love Triangle | Taeyong/Jaehyun X Reader

Explain

Ten's mother turned around and vanished at the speed of light.

You made a few steps towards the other room just so you could see where she was going.

She went to Ten and he was surprised because of the tone she was using. She pulled him all the way to the balcony so no one hear what she has to say.

Fuck.

Fuck, fuck, fucking fuck!!!

I literally PROMISED Ten everything will be fine. And now, what if she says something rude and makes him sad?! It's all my fault, my stupid blabbering mouth!

Uh no, shit what do I do?? I can't just go there and act like a judge in a court. I should just  leave it to them, I'll wait and see how's everything going to turn out.

You sighed heavily and went to help Ten's sister.

Meanwhile, on the balcony:

"My son, is it true?!", Ten's mom glared at him.

Ten just stood in silence, confused.

She grabbed his hand, "Tell me! Aren't you listening?! What have you been doing to yourself, are you out of your mind??"

Ten quickly realised what was she talking about. His eyes widened and he still wasn't able to say a word.

"Ten! Can't you hear me? Answer me! Is that what your family has thaught you?"

He looked away, he didn't want his mom to notice the tears that were forming in his eyes, because he knew she was already in pain.

She pulled his chin so he would face her, "You have a lot of things to explain".

Ten was still silent, and his mom decided to not say anything, instead she wanted to just wait.

After a few seconds, Ten finally opened his mouth. He hesitated at first, but then his broken voice came out.

"I....I am truly sorry mother. I know d-drugs are not good for me. I chose the wrong path. I can't explain the blame I feel. It's constantly here, with me...it follows me everywhere, like a shadow. Like the w-worst feeling in the world that I can't get r...rid of..." he let out a deep, painfull sigh.

His mother was just staring at him in silence.

"You p-probably have a million questions. Trust me, I do too... Even I can't explain what I feel. It's this acheing mixture of s...sadness, misery...anxiety, regret...depression. It is like living with a glass wall between you and the world that you keep hitting but can't break through. Desperatly wanting to be good for the people you care about, but never feeling like you can live up to your own expectations of what is 'good enough'. It's so stupid and irritating...the only distance between me and the world is my own m-mind. I feel like I'm often wrong or selfish, it makes me think how I will be alone... and lost forever, and that there's no way out. I miss the feeling of  warmth of an emotional connection with another person".

A tear fell down his cheek but his mom quickly wiped it away and let him continue.

"All these feelings...burning up inside me. It feels like dark, pitch black. The biggest d-darkest pitch where you cannot see the bottom. You know you're falling but...don't know how to stop it or escape. You're just drowning in the dark... that's your own mind. You can hear the muffled sound of the world around you but it's d...dull and so far away. Depression is like a demonic force that saps the color and vibrance from life, and even from yourself. People t-told me it will get better. I was so sick of hearing that, because they just couldn't understand what I was going through-"

His low voice suddenly broke into a painful cry, he hugged  his mom as tight as he could.

She comforted him as he sobbed heavily in pain, tears streaming down his face.

"It's okay my son...I don't know what to say", his mother whispered, she sounded really sad and disappointed.

"I'm so sorry, I know I'm a failure. I am truly s-sorry mom. It's better now...my friend helped me, I almost got rid of drugs completely".

"It's fine, I forgive you. I wasn't even mad at you. I'm just glad that you're getting over it.  It's a huge achievement...I'm proud of you", she said as a tear escaped down her cheek and she tried to hide it.

"Is this girl that came with you...Is she the friend that helped you?", the mother pulled away from the hug and wiped away Ten's tears.

"Y-yes, she was always there for me...And still is".

"She seems kind of... special.
C'mon now, let's go eat with the others", mom went to the dining room and Ten followed.

He hesitated because he was afraid of  how will the rest of the family react.