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七 : WOOZI

To my second love

—

Though I didn't realize, I've gone far off

I am flying way too close from the sun

If only you haven't save me then

I would've stayed blinded by the light—

I regained my consciousness that day

that I was singing a melody

played out by someone else, and not me.

❄

Jihoon,

To be honest, with you I am lost for words. As much that I am expressing in writing, I always get tongue-tied when it comes to you. But then I heard a song you used to always play years back, and I am able to be moved by its melody to write this down. This is the longest—ironically—but I'll still try to get everything down.

It's always been you and your music that have that kind of effect on me. Those two as inseparable, whenever you hear 'Lee Jihoon', it's always accompanied with Music. I have always envied that haha

But it can't be blamed, as I, too, have grown to love it. I first fell in love with music, even when I was very young. Singing karaoke with my grandma when I was just three, me getting giddy whenever my dad would pick up a guitar and sing for me, and the rest was history. Then years later at my teens, I was given the chance to hear a voice like no other, before I got to know whose voice it belonged to, it happened to be yours. And then that music I love now has a name.

Oppa, as much that I have been in love with you, yeah... There are many reasons if you're curious, it was from the littlest things to the grand scheme of things as to why I fell in love with you. I did love you but I just chose to stay at a safe distance and not get in your way. Because I knew how passionate you are with your dream. So you became my inspiration for mine.

That one night of exhaustion and tears. You told me I shouldn't be limiting myself from what I should and could be. I was so burned out and was overworking myself for weeks since I was so pressured in debuting. While you... You were so close in reaching your dream in reality, while I was still stuck in my own two feet. I remembered I didn't get to see you much then since you were composing most of the time for the debut project.

As lost as I was. You helped me come back down, that there is more beneath my feet. There was something else inside of me that the eyes wouldn't be able to reach. I learned that from you. So thank you, you opened my eyes that all this time, I was feeling stuck because I'm aiming too high for a dream not meant for me. Did Mingyu tell you when we parted? By this time I am sure you already know the reason of my departure.

But still I want to thank you, and tell you I'm doing better. I realized that the moment I walked away, it started. It opened new chapters for me. And of course I knew this was part of it. I have to accept that we are now in opposite paths. We now live in different worlds, we were once ordinary people but still the same as we are both human with dreams.

You still are my inspiration. And I will love your music, Jihoon. Always. As you have been my second love.

Much love,

Lumi