Heartache on The Big Screen

~Fourteen~

The next morning the boys wanted to practice. They all played instruments and sang, and honest to god, it was beautiful they were amazing. Calum played bass, Ashton played the drums, Michael played guitar, Luke played guitar to, but none of us actually expected him to show up.

Ashton came over, and they started to play. When there was a knock on the door. My heart stopped, "Lilah go sit by Ash." Michael instructed and I did as I was told. Everything made us anxious now.

Michael walked to the door and opened it slowly. Luke walked in, drunk and belligerent. "Why the fuck does everyone look like they've seen a fucking ghost?" He asked, slurring nearly every word. "We didn't know who to expect. And we sure as hell didn't think you would show up." Calum snapped at Luke.

"Don't be pissed at me because I don't want to be around them when they're together." Luke growled, glaring at Ashton and I. "Why does it matter Luke? You told me to go for it and I am." I told him. Not trying to make him more upset. "You know I saved her right? I didn't save her for you." He said pointing at Calum. "I didn't save her for you." He said turning to Michael. "And I sure as hell didn't save her for you." He yelled at Ashton, causing him to jump.

"Then why'd you do it Luke? Why didn't you just let me die? If I'm causing you to go get wasted and hurting you all the time why didn't you just let me go?" I asked him. "Don't you see Lilah, I did a selfish thing and saved you, for myself. I thought maybe you finally fucking realize that I've been in love with you since first fucking grade and give me a chance. But instead you're with him. And I'm losing my damn mind." He broke down. And gave me an answer I never thought I'd hear.

I didn't know what to say, Luke took it as an immediate no. That I could never love him the way he loved me. That I could never be happy with him. But he was wrong.

"Ashton, treat her right. We all know I couldn't. Not with my alcohol problem. I love you guys. I'll be staying away for awhile. Or maybe forever. Who knows, your lives will be easier though." Luke said and walked out the door.

"Someone stop him! He shouldn't be driving! He's gonna get himself killed." I shrieked and Calum ran after him. "Lilah are you okay?" Ashton asked after some silence. "Just thinking I told him. "Do you love him?" He asked, his voice as small as a child's. "Honestly, I'm not sure." I said. Getting up and walking out of the room into my bedroom.

"Just let her go man, she's got a lot to think about." I over heard Michael tell Ashton. "We both know who she's gonna choose. And we both know it's not gonna be me." Ashton said defeated. How the hell did he know what I was going to choose? I didn't even know.