I'm pathetic. I really let some boy I don't know mess with my emotions so much that I went and did this bullshit. When did I become such a wimp? When did my walls come down? I messaged with this guy like, 10 times maybe and I'm so willing to end my life over him not talking to me? Is that really how shitty my brain is? What the fuck.
I need to fucking grow up. I've trapped myself into this hole of pity and sorrow since I was ten. I'm 18 now. I dropped out of highschool, I have no job, I don't know how to drive, and I haven't got a dollar to my name since I've been too depressed to do anything lately. Its time to fucking get shit done.
Seeing my only two family members devastated over my selfishness, that shit changed me. My hearts strong now. My walls are back up. I'm confident in myself now. I may still be short as fuck but I know I can be bold and big when I do what I love. So that's what I'm gonna do.
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The train has arrived at the stop closest to the airport. Like I said, I wish there was one closer to where I lived, but this is the only one, and it took me 4 days to get to it. Ridiculous. But whatever, I'm here now. It's time to start my life. No going back now.
"One plane ticket to Oakland, California, please."
hi! I know, it's been months. I have no idea whos read this recently or whos still invested in it, but I'm determined to finish this story. I was reading on here when I remembered this. Its late, so I can only do a short update right now, but this story WILL be finished. thank you all for reading.
dont forget to vote, comment and share! it encourages me to actually write
-dj
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falling from the stars
Fanfictionhighest rank- #1 trillie billie is a 16 year old loner who has only one friend at school, mike. when he recieves a laptop from mike for christmas, he discovers an online chat room where he can talk to other people. billie finds someone who will chan...
