Answers Of My Heart (completed)

Chapter nineteen

Chapter nineteen  : Faded smile

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updated: October 22,2014

"red lisp stick please"

"Red lip stick" said Natalie,handing me the red lip stick.

"Mascara" I said

"Mascara ?" asked Natalie, I looked at her. "Yes, our client need to look beautiful" I said giggling with her. as she gave it to me, I quickly applied it. "Do we have any more of that blush?" I asked

She looked at me with the creep face and searched her makeup bag. I applied the blush to our sleeping client. When I finish the master piece, I slowly backed away.

"We should totally take a picture and Instagram it" suggests Natalie. I pulled out my phone from my back pocket, and took pictures of our beautiful Jake. "He look so pretty" said Natalie, as she looks  at him as if he was a new born baby. I could not help but make a collage and post it.  "No way!" screamed Jason. He ran all the way up stairs. When he opened the door, he drop to the floor weak of laughter. "He is going to kill you two" he manage to say.

Suddenly he moved. We all speed out my room and into Natalie's room. "come on guys he won't hurt us" I said, knowingly that I don't even believe myself.

"We sat in Natalie room for about fifteen minutes. I checked the photo and we already got two hundred and twenty five likes. "Where is that music coming from?" asked Jason, who was currently holding a sleeping Natalie. The walls started vibrating, and the music got super loud. I got off the chair and walked to the door. When I opened it, I was completely shocked. Jake still has the makeup. That's not even the crazy part.

"I know it's pretty clear. I ain't no size two,but I can shake it shake it" sang Jake and be shakes his butt. I could  not breath. Jason woke Natalie up and they started recording him.

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Wow, it has been a while since I actually sat down to write in this diary. So much has been occupying my mind. I mean, honestly I have been in the hospital. We had a sleep over. Jake,Jason , Natalie,and I. since dad's death I have found that I can smile, a real one. No more melody. Thank the gods. All my life I have been trying to make others happy. When in reality the real person I should make happy is me. I should be putting myself first for once. I have not cried to sleep for a while.

Everyone Is currently asleep. Jason,and Natalie in her room. Then Jake is knocked out in my room. He chased me all over the house because I put make up on him. I laughed two hours straight. I really needed time with each of them. They are and were all I had beside dad. I sit and wonder what life would be if I did not have them. It scares me that I think this way, but I can't help that I do. I really want to tell Jake how I feel. I'm not sure how much I can keep this in. being alone with him tonight made me feel, I don't really know.

closed my Diary and laid back on the pillow. Never before have I been lost of word. I use to be able to explain feelings. I never felt so confused and scared in my life. I looked around the living room. slowing feeling more,and more in need of a hug. What if he does not love me back? what, or how will I feel then? A single tear slid down my cheek. a soft knock was placed on the door of the living room. "Come in" I said quickly, while whipping away the tear.

I looked up to meet his blue eyes. "Are you okay?" he asked, coming over to sit next to me. "yea" I lied. He smiled,then shook his head. "I know you to Well" he said pulling me into a hug. "What do you mean?" I asked, placing my head in his chest.