She Will Be Loved

She Will Be Loved (Chapter 16)

Hannah's POV

I firmly grasped the needle in my hand, itching to have it in my arm. The longer I look at it, the longer I want it. Need it. A wave of nausea washed over me as I began to roll my sleeve up. I didn't need the rubber band, I already knew where my vein was. The tip of the needle pressed against my skin, all I had to do was push it in. So why was I hesitating? My hands began to shake. Just push it in Hannah, you will feel better soon. My mind was telling me what it needed to do, but my body wouldn't comply. I shut my eyes tight and a tear slid down my cheek. Suddenly I felt hands on mine. Before I knew it I was out of the car and on my feet. I heard the needle hit the ground as he smushed me to his chest. The warmth of his embrace was enough to bring me back to reality. "Baby please don't do this, come back to me. You don't want that. Please. Look at me. Open your eyes." Slowly I opened my eyes, finding myself face to face with the most amazing hazel orbs I have ever had the pleasure of seeing. His lips crashed to mine before I had time to say anything. I kissed him back with just as much passion. Pulling myself as close to him as humanly possible. He pulled away and looked at me, "Don't leave me." I fought back tears as I smashed my foot down on the needle, breaking the vile and watching a the posion inside of it spill into the concrete. "There's a box in there, get it out. Now." Without hesitation Adam called over the security at the front gate, not taking his eyes off me the whole time. "Call the police." The man curtly nodded before walking back to his post calling 911. Frankie jumped out through the front seat and ran around the yard. Adam held me right to him until the police came. I explained how I knew it was Bobby. They began dusting my car for fingerprints and removed the box for evidence. Adam held my hand the whole time, letting me know I wasn't alone. The feeling of him next to me was enough for me to be brave. Once the police left as well as the band Adam took me inside where I cried into his chest while he stroked my hair. He kept whispering how he was proud of me. I soon fell asleep on the couch, holding on to him for dear life.

*2 months later*

The police update us on their search for Bobby, but they still had not found him. I am too paranoid to leave the house alone now and barely sleep at night for fear of him getting into the house. It's 9 a.m. and I can't go back to sleep so I decide to get up and make breakfast. Frankie gets out of bed with me and follows me downstairs. I open the back door and let her outside to use the bathroom. Soon she runs back in and I lock the door back. "Good morning Miss. Rose." I jump and clutch my chest. "Jeeze Reese! You scared the shit out of me!" He laughs and continues to sip his coffee and read the paper. After everything happened Adam insisted that Reese be with me 24/7. He had moved into the guest room and was my personal body guard. Walking over to the coffee maker I pour myself a cup and lean against the counter. "Reese, can I ask you something?" He nods his head without tearing his eyes off the paper. "Why do you call me Miss. Rose? I have known you almost 5 years, I thought we were closer than that now." He looks up at me for the first time, "Its respect Miss. Rose." I hop up into the counter, swinging my feet in front of me. "Well, from now on I don't want to be on a formal basis. You are one of my best friends, actually you are like my second dad. Please, call me Hannah." He stares at me for a long minute before nodding his head, "As you wish Miss-" I shoot him a look, "Hannah." His lips form a smile as he returns to his paper. I begin to make breakfast singing to myself. Soon I had a plate of bacon, sausage, hash browns, and pancakes for the boys. A bowl of oatmeal and fruit for myself. I set up a plate for Reese and place it in front of him, kissing his cheek as I do. He chuckles as I walk up the stairs to wake up Adam. To my surprise he was already out of bed and getting dressed. I can tell by his hair he had showered. "Good morning princess, happy birthday." He plants a kiss on my lips as he buttons the last button on his shirt. I smile and tell him thank you and breakfast is ready and walk back down stairs. Sitting back on the bar I begin to eat my oatmeal. Just as I raise the spoon to my mouth there is a loud knock on the door, followed by footsteps. James soon appears in front of me with a tray of Starbucks and a box wrapped in shiny glittery pink paper, a balloon tied to the top. He kisses my forehead and places it in front of me. "Happy birthday Tinker Bell." I smile at his fond nickname of me and hug him, "You remembered?" He hugs me back tight, lifting me off my feet. "Of course!" Adam walks down with a box in his hand, wrapped in the same paper and a white ribbon tied to the top. "Hey, no fair I was supposed to be the first one to give her presents." James laughs and takes a bite of bacon, "You snooze you loose buddy boy." Adam fake pouts and kisses me again, "Happy birthday baby." I smile even bigger and take the present from his hand, shaking it trying to find out what it was. His laugh fills my heart, "Just open it Doll." I sit back on the counter and open Adams present first, careful to not tear the paper. "Just open it already!" James says laughing from across the bar. I giggle and tear the paper open, revealing a photo album. I open the front cover and there was a note from Adam, "To the girl who opened my eyes to the world, and my heart to love." My eyes brim with tears as I flip through the pages. There were pictures of me and Adam from our trip to Disney Land, my first time on a airplane, and pictures from Christmas. There were also pictures of me and the guys. I laugh as I come across a picture of me, Frankie, James, and Mickey. We were sitting on the couch and James had my feet in his lap, Mickey had my head in his, and Frankie was snuggled next to my chest. My heart skips a beat as I turn to the next page. It was a picture of m an my parents on my 11th birthday. I was sitting in my dad's lap and my mom was knelt down beside us. All three of us were blowing out the candles on my birthday cake. The rest of the pictures were of my parents as my older brother. He had went MIA the day after my parents accident and I hadn't seen him since. The last page was a picture of me and Adam on New Years. We were standing on the balcony as fireworks were shooting off in the background, his arm was around my waist and his other was in my hair. I was practically off my feet as my arms were around his neck and he kissed me deeply. I smile and wipe the tears from my eyes. Looking up at him I see his eyes are also glossy. I grab him and kiss him with so much passion it makes the room spin. James soon clears his throat, "Well how the hell am I supposed to top that?" I laugh and pull away from Adam, handing him his breakfast as I grab James present. I tear off the paper, revealing a pink case. Opening the case I see a set of new paint brushes and sketch pens, also a hand drawn picture of a bunch of stick figures labled with the guys named and mine. The words above it say "one big happy family" I laugh at James artistic skills. "Thank you Sasquatch." I kiss his cheek and go back to eating my oatmeal. Reese comes over to me with a thin box wrapped in newspaper, "It's not much.." I opened the box and find a charm bracelet with little music notes with all the guys initials, a gun with Reese's initials, a paw print with Frankie's name, and a rose with my initials on it. I slip it on and make it jingle, "I love it Reese, thank you." I kiss him on the cheek as well and give him a big hug. Adam soon puts his plate in the sink and begins doing dishes. "Hey Reese, you can take the day off if you would like, I'm going to be with her all day so she will be fine." Reese puts his hand on my shoulder, "Thank you Mr. Levine." Soon he is pulling out of the driveway followed by James. Adam spins me around and gives me a sweet kiss, "Go upstairs and get ready." I smile and turn to walk away, Adam smacking my butt as I do. I giggle and make my way up stairs, finding a beautiful white and red '50s halter dress with cherries and a frilly skirt. There is a pair of pearl earrings in a box next to it. I hop in the shower quickly then blow dry my hair. I decide to do my hair up in a classic pin up style with victory rolls. My make up consists of a cherry red lipstick and cat eye eyeliner with a thin coat of mascara, keeping with the pin up style. Putting on the earrings I then put on the pearl necklace that Adams mom gave me for Christmas. I slip on a pair or red high heels and dab on a little perfume. Satisfied with my look I grab my red handbag and walk down stairs. Adam stands up from the couch and turns around to look at me. "You look...wow!" I blush as my foot hits the bottom step. I spin around so he can get the full effect of the dress. "You like it?" He nods with his mouth still wide ipen. "It looks even better on you then it did on the rack." I blush again and take a look at him. He has on a white button down shirt with dark jeans and nice sneakers. "You look handsome yourself." He does a little twirl, mimicking me. I wolf whistle and laugh. "Come on." He tugs my hand towards the door. "Where are we going?" He mischievously smiles, "Its a surprise!" I roll my eyes and follow him out to the car, Frankie in tow as always. I doze off in the car for about 20 minutes and wake up to Adam lightly shaking me, "Wake up baby girl, we are here." I open my eyes sleepily and see we are at Adams moms house. I smile pat his hand, undoing my seatbelt. "Are you ok baby?" His concern fills his eyes. "Yes I just didn't sleep good last night and it's hitting me now." He unbuckles his seatbelt and gets out, coming over to my side and opening my door. Taking my hand he helps me out of the car and we walk into the house. "SURPRISE!!" A whole bunch of people jump out of nowhere and scream. It scares me so and that my first thought was to go for the gun in my purse. Adams hand on mine stopped me though. I swear that man knew what I was thinking 30 seconds before I even think it. I relaxed after a second and my heart returned to it's normal pace. I was greeted by a bunch of hugs and kisses on the cheek and "happy birthdays." Patsy comes up to me puts a sash that says "Birthday Princess" with a big 21 on it, and a little crown that flashed colors and had a 21 on it and a bunch I plastic necklaces on me. I smile and hug her giving her a kiss on the cheek. She tries to hand me a alcoholic drink, "Oh, um, I can't drink with this new medication I am on." I give her a sweet smile and she gives me a questioning look. Looking over at Adam he is talking amongst people, not invested in our conversation. Pulling me into her bathroom she tells me to sit on the toilet. I sit on top of the white cushioned cover looking at her like she's a crazy person. She begins rummaging under the cabnit talking to herself. A few minutes she hands me a little box. My eyes widen when I see it's a pregnancy test. "Pee, I'll stand watch, come into my room when you're done." I shakily nodded. I had thought of the possibility but I didn't entertain it much. The thought of being pregnant excited me yet made me scared. What would Adam think?? I quickly do my business and hurry to Patsy's room. I lay the test on her dresser and sit on the bed with her. My nerves begin to take over and I soon begin shaking. She notices and begins rubbing my back, soothing me gently. "Mommy I'm scared." She pulls my head to her chest and let's me lay there while she continues to rub my back. "Don't be scared baby girl, everything's gonna be fine. You know mama is always gonna be here for you no matter what. I love you ok?" I nod my head as a tear slips from my eye. A minute passes and she looks at her watch. "Well, you want to look or you want me to?" I bite my lip and stare at the dresser, "Will you do it?" She nods and stands up walking to the dresser. She picks it up and instantly her eyes gloss over. A smile plays on her lips and she looks to me, "I'm gonna be a grandma." I smile but then instantly panic. "Adam..." Almost if on que he walks in. Patsy shoves the test into the drawer and shuts it. "Hey what are y'all doin in here? The party is out here." I smile and Patsy turned around smiling at him too, "I was just telling her happy birthday one on one and how proud I was of the woman she has become." She winks at me and I smile a little more, feeling a little better about this situation. Adam takes my hand and tells me to hurry up there was someone he wanted me to see. As he walks out the room I sigh, "what are we gonna do mama?" She pats my head, "We keep it a secret until you go to the dr and find out for sure. Then you sit him down and talk about it." I nod my head and wipe a tear from my eye. My hand goes to my belly absent mindedly. She smiles and places her hand on mine, "It's all gonna be ok." We get up and walk back to the party. Adam is talking to a tall man who has his back turned to me. "Ah there she is, Hannah I would like you to meet-" as soon as he turned around my heart stops. "Michael." Adam gives me a strange look as me and Michael stare wide eyed at each other. "How do you know him?" My eyes brim with tears as I slap him and storm off, all eyes on me. As I walk away I hear him mumble to Adam, "I'm her brother."