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I feel so different as a person. My life has started to change. I don't know if it's for the best or worst, but ever since I started taking those pills, I'm not like I used to be.
I'm not always so angry or anxious about everything. I can control my feelings the most times.
And as I say most times, it's because it doesn't last too long.
Sometimes, I just forget to take them, and shit happens all over again. But thankfully, I have Ms Daria to remind me every now and then.
I'm also trying my best to ignore people's judgemental looks, but they still affect me. Even though I don't always show it.
I look myself at my bathroom's mirror. My bruise has mostly faded away and I have gotten rid of that bandage on my nose. But, I still have this fucking scar which will forever remind me of that jerk. And her.
My lips are not yet like they used to be, but at least they're not that disgusting. I still find myself a mess, but I'm trying to get over it.
I should not get those things fuck my life up. Not anymore. I just hope this feeling I have right now, will last. For the first time since I left the orphanage, I finally feel good. But, I don't know if it's because of the pills or, I'm just more mature than I was. Well, I doubt if it's the second one.
I take a quick shower and then, I just wear my black jeans and a white t-shirt.
The weather has already started being warmer. Isn't it fascinating that the seasons we have are completely opposite than the other countries? I mean, I've never been anywhere outside from Australia, and I would love to travel all around the world.
It's one of those random dreams I have sometimes. Like playing my own music at concerts, travelling, meeting new people. But that obviously would never happen. It's not anything like me.
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"Good morning Ashton." I hear Mr Roger's voice greeting me as soon as I enter the library.
"Morning," I reply lazily.
"Hey, look at you." he says giving me a genuine smile. "You look so much better."
"Thanks," I say quietly, as I rub the back of my neck.
"Hello Ash. How are you feeling today?" I can recognize Ms Daria's voice calling my name. She shows up from behind me. But, what is she doing here?
"I'm pretty fine. Thank you. Aren't you supposed to be in the o-orphanage?" I struggle to say that word.
"Yes. I'll be there in a few minutes. There are just some things I need to talk about with Roger."
I nod and then Mr Roger gives me a box, full of books that I have to arrange at the right selves.
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As I finally put the last book to its place, I feel someone's hand on my shoulder which gives me the goosebumps.
"Mike. You scared me." I say trying not to lose my temper.
"I'm sorry Ashton," he chuckles. I observe him for a second. This kid is literally changing his hair colour like I change my socks.
"Nice hair." I say and point to his brightly coloured red hair.
"Ah thank you very much. I decided to try something new this time." he says with a grin.
"You also look nice. How are you?" he asks.
