chitchat | todoroki x reader

xxvii | beneath the mask

hi if you get the reference of the title I love you

———

May 23, 20XX
11:57PM

- Shouto Todoroki -

「Where have you been?
Been searching all along.
Came facing twilight on and on.
Without a clue.」

It's been three days since the incident with (L/n)-san.

Three days since I've blocked her.
Three days since I've been feeling weird.
Three days since she's been to school.

Uraraka-San has been having a grudge on me too, keeps staring me down.

(L/n)-san hasn't been appearing to school. It's like she's become a complete ghost. No one even notices her absence, let alone the missing presence that the classroom once had.

It feels rather lonely.
Kinda weird.

Uraraka's tense self hasn't been helping with the feeling either, ever since her outbreak 2 days ago, things have been heated.

|| 2 Days Before - Memories ||
May 21, 20XX
7:54AM

Putting my phone away in my bag, Uraraka-san sleepily walks into the classroom, Midoriya filing behind her.

Usually she's always so bubbly and upbeat, it's rare to see her that tired.

"Ochako-Chan, are you okay?" I hear Asui-san ask.

Uraraka looks at her with a blank stare, and then smiles, "I'm fine, just slept a little late is all."

That's when she sees me. Her fatigued figure turning into a fit of rage as she makes her way towards me.

"You."

I raise an eyebrow in confusion, "What about me?"

"(Y/n)."

That's when it got to me, she's her best friend, and it looks like she wants to defend her.

"Did you even give her a chance to explain? Let you listen to why her actions were what they were?"

I look away from her.

"What else could she have said to me? She's lied to me already, what if she lied that time too?"

She slams her hands on the table, leaving one finger up so she doesn't accidentally float it.

"I know her very well, and she had a reason for not telling you who she was in the first place!"

I keep my composure.

"She just wanted a chance to explain, yet you never gave her one. All she wants is for someone who she can rely on again, and I guess you can't understand any of it."

|| Today ||

Maybe I was wrong about it.
Maybe I should've gave her a chance

It's weird that I feel really guilty.
Maybe I deserve it.

I look at my phone, going to the chat app. There's 3 new messages from (L/n)-san, however they're blocked.

In reality I feel guilty.

It's like I'm taking off a mask.

3:51PM
- (Y/N) (L/N) -

「Without a sign,
without grasping yet.
The real question to be asked:
Where have I been?」

It's been 3 days since he's left
3 days since I've stayed at my dorm.
3 days since I haven't felt anything.

I can't go to school again, I just can't face him. After all I've done, why would he want to see a face of a liar?

Too many times I've lied to him, but what for?

Because I loved him?
For my own sake?
Because I was scared?

It's stupid.
I'm stupid.

In the first place, I kept up the mask because I had faith that he wouldn't leave, that he would love the side of me that was real, covering up the facade I had put when I texted him.

The mask I had put up to keep up my hopes.

The mask that broke, to show who was really beneath it.

To show someone who didn't deserve any love, because she was too dumb enough to realize everything she's done.

It's the same as middle school, I was too naive to see that I could be loved for who I am. Like middle school, I was outcasted at that right moment.

Stupid.

"(Y/n)?"

Ochako is yet again, outside the door.

"Can you please just open the door? I'm really worried for you, and I don't want you to get sick."

I respond, "Just give me more time. I promise I'm fine."

Lies.

I hear Ochako sigh, and her soft footsteps are what tell me that she's gone away.

Lies are what keep me away.

I'm not okay, and it's like I'm never in the mood to eat anything.

Just sitting here is what I do, like I'm waiting for something to happen.

But it never does.
That's what it's like beneath the mask.

...

I pick up my phone.
But it slips again from my hands.

———

wooo
Looks like we're at the middle of the story!!

I hope I'm not making y'all too sad or anything ahAhah

but man I love joker from p5

-Ria