𝐃𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐌𝐄 | 𝐤.𝐤 ✓

°26- Hope...?°

{Y/n's POV}

I reached out to my mother and father, screaming and sobbing. Why does everyone I love have to leave me?
Did I do anything?
Yes, I am aware that I'm a monster, that sometimes goes out of control and kills useless humans or ghouls for her own pleasure; and yes, I know that I eat other ghouls kagunes to gain power, and yes, I know that...

I know that I don't deserve a place in this world. This world is beautiful, yet deadly.
Sometimes, in order to survive in the world, you have to be the bad person.
Was I just blind my whole life?
Was I just seeing the bad side of people, and judging them before getting to know them?

Yes, because I'm a monster.
But, what can a blood thirsty ghoul like me to go stop myself?
I can't do anything, because I'm weak and useless.
Kaneki and the others don't deserve me...

That's when it hits me.

Kaneki!

I tried so hard to open my eyes and stop seeing constant darkness surrounding me, but it wouldn't work.
It felt like I was being lured back into my childhood.
But only the bad memories played over in my head, never the good ones.

Probably because I don't deserve to remember any good times...
That's when I heard a voice say, "Her pulse is beating, and she's no longer pale... Nor are her lips blue."
Who are they talking about?
What is this voice?
Where am I?
Am I dead?
I can't recall dying...

What if I am dead?
Oh well, everyone's lives was better without me in it anyway.
Another familiar voice said, "Do you think she'll wake up?"
I smiled at the soft and beautiful voice.

That's when my eyes widened.

It was Kaneki's voice!!!
That's when it all hit me.
I fainted and went into a coma, because I was shocked about everyone talking about me in the streets!

How do I wake up? It was so hard, I couldn't do it.
I couldn't see the daylight, streaming through the glass window.
I could only see darkness, and bad memories, swirling around in my head.

I wish I was dead.
Why was this happening?
I understand that I deserve it, but-

But what? My whole life is ruined because of me.

Because of my existence.
Because of my heartless actions towards others, or just my actions in general.
Because I let my parents die.
Because I'm a bloodthirsty ghoul, always hunting for some sweet and tender flesh.
Because I kill ghouls and humans for my own pleasure.
Because of all of this!!

I don't deserve to be here. Just kill me, please.
No one would care.
Everyone would say, "No, don't do that... We care." But all I can think is they're trying to say it to make me feel better.

And it won't work.

Just kill me, please.

I don't want to wake up.

Leave me in this hell, please.

I deserve it.

Don't let my friends see my unwanted face ever again.

Make me die in pain, as a punishmet for those innocent people that I've killed.

Make me regret my actions more than I already do.

Please, this is what I'm asking for.

I don't deserve to be happy, so please!

Kill me...!!!!!

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Sorry for the short chapter.