It Wasn't Supposed To End This Way (A Starkid Fan Fiction)

Chapter 56-I'll Never Forget June 1st...

I suggest reading this chapter in one sitting...trust me.

Chapter 56

Lying to your boyfriend for one conversation is bad. Lying to him for the next four days about the same thing over and over again is worse. I can't eat, I can't sleep, nothing. Pills help me get through the depression, talking to Walker helps with the pain, Twisted helps me get through the betrayal I feel and holding Clark at night makes me feel less empty inside. But how do you tell someone that you no longer love them, when you truly did feel love for them at one time? I don't want to break Clark's heart, it's not who I am, it's not what I believe in. I snapped when I broke up with Jeff, but I refuse to let any relationship I ever have end like that again.

There was an interview today, where the guys who wrote the script invited me to help them talk about the show. No Clark or Dylan or even any of the usual people to fall back on. Just the Lang's, Holden and Eric, whom I got to talk to more finally. He's a really sweet guy, with such a drive and passion for writing that it might explode out of him. He wants to be in another Starkid show so badly, now that AVPSY is over. He's also in the process of writing a new book, "The Zoo at the Edge of the World". It sounds amazing and I offer to help him out if he needs it.

He thanks me with a smile.

After the interview, I feel a little bit better, and I hold my head a bit higher on my way home alone.

But I quickly lose all the confidence when I open the door and see that Clark has set the table, turned off the lights and lit two candles for a dinner. He says he'll be right out from my bedroom. I ignore this and barely make it to the bathroom to throw up and cry before putting on a brave face for him.

How am I going to tell him?

When the curtains fall on the final night, everyone attacks each other in uncontrollable hugs and sobs and smiles. I laugh and hold Lauren in my arms as the audience continues to cheer outside from behind the wall of cloth. I love everyone here, what we just accomplished. My role as Sherrezade is over, and it brings tears of happiness and sadness to my eyes.

Everyone starts filing out through the doors, and Robert stops me. "Alex," he says. "Thank you."

I smile in confusion. "What? What do you mean?"

"You were right, Alex. Accepting Nick and Matt's proposal wasn't easy, but meeting you made it all easier to give them the answer I wanted to give them. How quickly everyone accepted me and sucked me in like a tornado. And now, we just finished our first show? And everyone here just...I love it. And I want to thank you for that."

"Robert, you don't have to thank me for this. Thank yourself for allowing yourself the opportunity to be apart of the group."

"You sound like a helpful guide type of book," Robert laughs.

I shrug. "I can dish out the helpful advice, but I can't take it."

He smiles again. "Thank you though, Sherrezade."

I hug him. "No problem, Abdul. Don't choke on shit."

The cast party is full of fun and lively hood and old familiar faces. Lana and her boyfriend Kendall, Elias and his girlfriend Sara, Madison and her husband and baby girl, Darren and some of the Glee members and Miranda, Nicki and Joey, everyone is here tonight to celebrate our final show. There's music playing courtesy of Darren who brought us some free copies of the new Glee album that drops in September from Season 5, there's pizza, beer, soda, cupcakes, pretzels, chips, dip, punch, everything. Lights are strung up and a huge sign says "CONGRATS TWISTED CAST YOU ROCK!" on it. People are everywhere talking all at once while I stand in the middle of it all, just smiling.