All Grown Up (COMPLETED)

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Brielle Grace Bishop:

"Yeah I-" I stopped in the middle of my sentence pulling the phone from my ear stopping outside of Zaria's old room. I heard the sniffle again, "I'mma call you back ZaZa." I said before hanging the phone up. I opened the room door seeing Joseph sitting on the edge of the bed crying. Mercy was asleep, I sighed walking in the room closing the door behind me.

I sat next to him and grabbed his hand intertwining our fingers. I didn't say anything, he just rested his forehead on my shoulder and cried. "It hurt so bad." His voice cracked as he cried harder, I wrapped my arms around him blinking my tears back.

"I know." I mumbled as I held him tightly. He sat up wiping his tears, he stood up running his hand over his hair.

"Do you.kknd watching Mercy while I go to the gym?" He asked turning to look at me his face was red and he had tear stains on his face.

"Go ahead boo I got her." I said and he nodded making his way out the room closing the door behind him. I climbed in the bed laying next to Mercy and within a few minutes i was sleeping.

"Brielle..." I jumped waking up to Zaria standing over me.

"B-bitch you died when the hell..." I mumbled looking around, I was laying on a cloud and she was floating in the air. "Uh uh I'm going back to sleep cause no.."

"I love you Bri....I was trying to tell you that but I couldn't open my mouth after I told my mom." She said making me turn to look at her. "I trust that you will be a great mother to Mercy, and a great friend to Joseph. I'm there but I'm not there you know?"

I nodded, "I need y'all to get out this sad slump y'all in, I hate the energy. Please stop being sad. Mercy don't understand what's going on and I need y'all to raise her in a happy environment before my baby be depressed so early in life, y'all had a year while i was in that coma to prepare for this get it together."

"Bitch cause it ain't that easy I wish I could fight you for saying that bjt you lucky I can't." I said as we both laughed.

"No it ain't easy, but it's do-able so do it."

Savin Love:

"Savin not right now." Bria said brushing me off yet again, for a while now she's been doing me like that like I don't exist and I'm trying to be here for her.

"Bria st-"

"You don't understand what the fuck I'm feeling and I need you to leave me the fuck alone!" She shouted about to slam the door. I put my foot in the door pushing it open.

"Don't tell me what I don't understand, my big sister died when I was 7. My dad beat her so bad she died, she was only trying to protect me. And she died doing that, I'm trying to be here for you so let me." I said sternly.

Her face softened, "We've been dating for a year and that's the first time you ever opened up about your childhood." She said

"I don't like remembering it, so I push it to the back of my mind." I replied as she stepped out onto the porch.

"When Zaria was born i was doing my third year of college over in Cali. I was mad because at first I was the only child and then auntie Bey had Zahir and I wasn't but at least I was the only girl and here come Zaria stealing the show being cute and what not. I was 21 years old jealous of a new born baby." She said laughing. "But when I got here and I held her I knew I loved her, that was my baby. I regret moving to London, I didn't spend all the time I could with her, I didn't cherish moments that I did spend with her because I was thinking like she was always going to be there but she ain't there no more. She would FaceTime me when she liked a lil boy and I would tease her, I was all the way in London when she needed me sometime. I would kiss some phone calls because I would be working so sometimes I wasn't there at all. It's eating at me and I deserve it." She explained as we took a seat on the porch.

"You can fix that though." I said

"I can't she's gone." She replied

"Mercy, I know it's not the same but it might as well be. Everything you would have done for Zaria if you had stayed do it for her, be here for Brielle, and Za. They all missed you, they all need you." I explained

"Yeah you right." She replied nodding her head. "Tell me more about you Savin." She said looking over at me.

"My favorite color is-"

"Boy don't play with me I know what your favorite color is." She said sternly and I chuckled.

"I know baby, when I was 5 my mom was arrested and sentenced to life for burning a woman alive. So we were left with my dad, he moved on fast a new woman in the house within a week. My dad became a drunk and he would hit either one of us whenever he had a reason to, and his new girlfriend? Sh-she..." I stopped and took a deep breath.

She grabbed my hand intertwining our fingers, "She started touching me, and making me do things to her, I told my sister and she fought her and beat her up real bad, and then she tried to tell my dad but he only tried to hit me saying I was lying but my sister pushed him back before he could hit me and he went in on her and he didn't let up, he realized what he had did and I think that drove him even more insane than what he already was. He cut her body up and cooked her and he made me eat her. Every night for a week he sat in front of me and watched me until I finished every bite and if I cried? He hit me, when he left for work? I was doing things that his girlfriend wanted me to do, and when he came home? I was a punching bag. My sister was only 16 when she died. When I got old enough and strong enough to defend myself my dad bought a gun and he kept it on him at all times. He didn't sleep at night, he was scared I was gonna kill him. I didn't get any help, I went right j to the military with the fucked up mindset that I had, and I didn't mind dying. Going into the military didn't do me any justice, we were called to Afghanistan and my whole crew was killed and I had hid and hid until I was caught and they gave me a voice to surrender or get killed and I surrendered. After they took me in i wished I would've chosen to die, I was turned into a sex slave all over again. I tried so hard to keep faith but I had lost it and I had lost my mind, I was found 3 years later and I was honorably discharged although I had a 4 year contract they let me go. I was never the me, I was scared of everything and everybody. I started seeing a therapist and it still took me years to even get the strength to talk to people and longer for me to talk to a woman. Everybody was scared of me, I felt like a monster but then there was you who didn't even flinch when I at stared you or got rude." I explained, she straddled my lap lifting my head wiping tears from my face I didn't even know was there.

I looked into her eyes, and I did that anytime I felt cold and heartless because she took those bad feelings away. "I was dead on the inside for years Bria, and you came along and you changed that." I said actually feeling the tears fall this time. "You are refreshing, you are like a breath of fresh air, the fresh air I never got in life."

"Because you are okay Savin, life is in your control now. You're okay baby." She mumbled wiping my tears away as they fell. "I'm here, and I don't ever wanna leave you, I'm not scared of you." She reassured me. I nodded, she pecked my lips softly.

"I've never appreciated someone so much." I said with a slight smile. "Maybe my sister for protecting me, but you picked up these pieces of my heart and took your time putting it back together. I know you're used to moving a lot faster than what we've moved when it comes to a relationship b-"

"I purposely slowed things down with us Savin. We can pick this up whenever you're ready, I think it's adorable how inexperienced you are, but when that time comes I wanna make sure it's the right time because you've never had consensual sex." She spoke softly, and I nodded. She wrapped her arms around my neck hugging me tightly. I wrapped my arms around her hugging her just as tight.

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