Love In The Lovely World

Netty's Sadness

Netty's POV ~

I felt something die inside of me.

My baby didn't survive.

I didn't want to live anymore it felt pointless. I looked forward to having my own child for such a long time. I never imagined a dream could be taken away so quickly.

I just laid on the hospital bed in silence. I didn't want to talk. Tom stayed with me trying to convince me that everything was going to be okay and that we could try again but I didn't want to. I didn't want to feel like I do now again. I noticed that Tom had a massive gash alone his forehead. I didn't ask what from though. I couldn't speak, not now.

I could hear stampy and sqaishey. She must of had her baby too. I felt happy for her but it just made me feel worse about the fact that I didn't have my little baby.

After 2 days in the hospital in complete silence the doctors said I could go home. Tom carried me the entire way back to our house. I know he was just as upset about it as I was but I didn't object to him carrying me because I was too weak to stand up.

He put me in my bed and laid down beside me. I hadn't felt this sad since the day my mother died and didn't respawn. I felt so terrible.

After 3 days the crying began to stop and I decided i had to start talking again. I hadn't said much at all from the moment I gave birth.

" Tom I'm sorry " I said. He turned and looked at me startled by the fact I had said something.

" It's not your fault Netty, you couldn't help what happened " he said " we can always try again later in life ok we have plenty of time we are only 24. "

" But what if it happens again?!" I asked " I can't experience that feeling again tom, I just can't. "

" It won't Netty " he said " I promise"

" How do you know?!" I said " it might and if it does ill die"

He locked lips with me. I hated when he did this because I forgot about everything even when I didn't want to. I felt by body relax and my eyes stoping crying. I began to feel happy.

He pulled away from me staring into my eyes.

" I won't let it" he said " trust me"

I believe him. I felt safe when he wrapped his arms around me. I just sat there with him.

" Well, we have a wedding to plan don't we?" he said. I instant smiled. i had completely forgotten about the wedding after everything that had happened to me in the last 3 days. I looked down at my ring, still on my finger and smiled.

I was going to get married.

"Now I want you to get dressed in some nice clothes we are going shopping." he said " no objections, you are!"

" I wasn't going to object..' I said

" I don't believe you but anyway, " he said laughing " get ready we leave in 10 minutes "

I hoped up and got ready. I still didn't feel that great. I felt depressed but that wasn't going to stop me from being with Tom.

We walked out the door 10 minutes later and walked down to a wedding store ( pretend there like a big massive city somewhere I dunno just imagine it ok! )

" What are we doing here?" I asked.

" Well I need a Suit to get married don't I? " he said as he walked inside. We looked around and eventually found a black suit with a nice tie and bought it. Tom told the counter people he'd pick it up tomorrow.

" What do you want to do now?" he asked me.

" Could we go see stampy, I haven't even seen his daughter yet..." i said.

" Are you sure you can handle it?" he asked as he put his arm around my shoulder.

" Well I have to face it I can't just avoid her for the rest of my life, she's my niece." I said " I'll try. "

We walked down to Stampy's house and went to find him inside. Eventually we found him in the kitchen mixing up a bottle. He looked sick. he had dark circles under his eyes and he looked white as a ghost.

" Hi Netty?" he asked " why are you here? feeling better?"

" I'm feeling a bit better now, and I came to see my niece." I replied

" Are you sure? " he asked. he was worried just like Tom.

" Yeah I have to face it." I said. He leaded me into a beautiful pink room and to her cradle. I looked down at her. She was a beautiful baby.

" Can I pick her up?" I asked

" Sure if you want." stampy replied.

I leant down and picked up the small child. she opened her eyes and looked up at me. Her eyes were emerald green just like Stampy's. Stampy passed me her bottle and I began feeding her.

" What's her name?" I asked

" Samantha Annette Garrett" he said. I looked up in surprise.

( you will get a shout out if you know why she's named Samantha)

" Annette?!" I said shocked " really?"

" Yes Netty!" he said happily. I had another child with a name me in the one world. I was shocked.

" Stampy you know I hate my real name that's why everyone calls me Netty " I said " she probably wont like it either you know."

" Well we won't call her Samantha Annette she'll be Samantha Netty" he said. I was really surprised. Looking at Samantha made me cry happy tears. Stampy was worried but I told him that I wasn't sad, that I was happy for him.

I loved Samantha even if she wasn't mine I will protect her just like I did for Natalia.