!!MATURE LANGUAGE IS USED!!
!!TRIGGER WARNING!!
Emma's pov:
Ethan and Bryant were gone somewhere doing...actually I haven't a clue. Gray and I were trying to decide what movie to watch. We had ordered a pizza and I was going to try eat at least a slice. I knew that Grayson really wanted me to aswell. I didn't feel like I needed to be skinnier anymore,I felt like I needed to be fatter...honestly,So much has happened these last few weeks..
We had decided to watch Aladdin...well I had decided,Gray just agreed. The pizza arrived and Gray paid for it at the door. He brought it back to the sitting room and put it on the coffee table.
I opened the box,took out a slice and took a bite. At first it was strange,my mouth had been so dry that it hurt swallowing. I finally swalled the small bite,Grayson watching me intently.
Em:Stop looking at me!It's weird!
He laughed.
G:Sorry
I giggled a bit and took a sip of water. I felt good to have water,yes that sounds dumb but It was true. I had deprived myself of it for weeks. The water helped with my dry throat. I took another bite of the pizza. This time it wasn't as bad,it still felt weird but not that bad.
I had had half of the slice of pizza,now I was enjoying it. I savoured each bite,loving the taste that I hadn't tasted in so long. The only food I had eaten was some small fruits like a few grapes or a small orange and some yogurt.
I could see Gray in the corner of my eye. He was smiling like an idiot. I could tell he was happy I was eating and to be honest...so was I.
I did ocasionally have thoughts about food,not good though..I'd think about how If I ate to much food,I'd have to do a lot of exercise,which was already hard enough with the lack of energy in my body.
By now,I had finished the slice. I reached out to take another one but I hesitated...Yet again,Stupid thoughts filled my mind,Your not skinny enough! Go throw it up,your getting fat. Ethan's gonna hate you!
I felt as though I was about to cry. I got up and walked to the bathroom,luckily Gray didn't suspect a thing.
I shut and locked the door. I turned around and slid down the door. I sobbed,knowing that I shouldn't have eaten. I've gained weight. Ethan's not going to like me. He's gonna find someone else skinnier,prettier and better. It wouldn't be hard,I thought.
A/N:I know this was a kind of sad part but I enjoyed writing it. I have a lot planned for this story and I can't wait for you guys to see it!Thank you so much for all the love and support💞
Sorry I didn't post yesterday,I was just busy💓
I love you all😊💕
Peace✌🏼
