Our Untold Stories

April 25th

"ZARAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!" I screamed as I felt the sharp pains in my lower abdomen. "ZARAAAAA... WHERE THE FUCK IS ZARA?!" I grabbed Leo's hand with my left and Tonya's hand with my right. "WHERE IS SHE?!" I was crying, trying to figure out how to stop this pain, and trying to figure out where my WIFE was while I was in fucking labor.

"AH! FUCK. My hand! Shit, Deena... I never knew you was so strong." Tonya yelled at me. She better had watch her tone, I only called the bitch because I couldn't get Leo on the line and ZARA was missing in fucking action!

"Breathe now Dee!... Lord save her, damn it girl, you damn strong!!! This mus be a big head baby cuz you damn sho is squeezing the blood feeling from my hand man!" He shook his curly Afro from side to side in pain and I felt so bad, BUT I WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN.

"SOMEONE... pleaseeeee!!! FIND MY WIFE." I sat in the hospital bed, contractions getting closer and closer to each other, and it was scary. I knew Tonya and Leo were there with me, but I felt SO alone because the woman I'd come through this whole pregnancy with wasn't here with me. "FIND ZARA!!!" I cried out through sobs. "Fi- FIND her!" I winced in pain, and squeezed tight on Tonya and Leo's hands and they winced right along with me. "WHERE ARE THE DRUGS?! I NEED DRUGS! I NEED SOME FUCKIG DRUGS AND I NEED THIS BABY OUT!!!!" I was dying to know what sex the baby was, because we decided to keep it a secret until the birth, and I also just wanted to be relieved of the pain I was feeling.

"Find... HER." I heard Leo say to the nurse coming into the room. "FIND THIS ZARA. She got me STRESSIN man, this ain't even my BABY!"

"Leo... LEOOOOO!" I grabbed his hand extra tight, and tears rolled down my face. "GET THE DOCTOR!" He looked at Tonya, and she ran off to get the doctor, then he looked back at me. "IT'S TIME LEE! IT'S FUCKING TIME. THIS BABY IS COMING OUT OF ME RIGHT THE FUCK NOW!"

"Deena... What about Zara? How you finna have this baby and she ain't even here?..."

"Leo..." I took a deep breath. "It's not my intention, but- AHH! WHERE THE FUCK... Doctor Leo... Get... Him."

"Tonya's coming back wit em.. DAMN DEE, LOOSEN UP ON DIS HEA GRIP MAN!"

Just then, Tonya came in, and a doctor followed behind her. "Mrs. Lovell it's time for this baby, you ready for it!?"

"TAKE IT OUT PLEASEEEE!"

"Would you like epidural Mrs. Lovell? And if you don't mind me asking... Where is your significant other?"

"I... I don't KNOW..." I began to break down sobbing, the pain too much for me to handle, and the question asking where Zara was hurt my heart.

"The... The epidural, Nurse, please... Bring it... I can see she's in MUCH pain." Seconds later I saw a giant needle coming my way.

"WHERE IS SHE PUTTING THAT? IN WHO? YOU DOC? YOU NEED A NEEDLE TO DELIVER A BABY?!" I began to panic, the needle scared the shit out of me... "THAT... cannot...... BE FOR MEEEEEE !!!!"

"It... It's to stop the pain." The nurse stuttered out.

HELL NOOOO, this bitch was stuttering with her words, imagine how unsteady her damn HANDS were. "DON'T TOUCH ME WITH THAT."

Leo gave the nurse a sharp eye. "Ma'am.. I highly advise you back yourself up away from her with that needle because she is hurting ME and MY damn hand... Can she have this baby without it?"

"Ye- yes she can... B-but she's going to feel everything..."

"FUCK THE FEELINGS AND SHIT LET THE BABY OUT NOW." I screamed at them both.

The doctor put on gloves and before I knew it I was pushing for my life. I was screaming and crying and squeezing Leo's hand like my life depended on it... And then I heard a cry, and the pain was over after what felt like HOURS of pushing...

"A BABY BOY! Congrats to you Deena... I kn- DEENA..."

"Ahh... AHHHHHH FUCKKKK..." I felt the pain start up again.

What the fuck, WHY WASN'T THIS FEELING GOING AWAY?