Our Untold Stories

July 16th pt 1

I saw my soon-to-be wife standing at the end of the aisle, and began crying. She looked beautiful. Completely entirely beautiful. Her, Tonya, and Kahli were all walking toward me, and I could see more and more of her beautiful face.

That's ALL MINE...

Icouldn't wait for her to reach the end of the aisle. And then... She stopped walking and my heart sunk.

What's wrong?

"WAIT... I... Zara... You know I love you... You know I do... But... I have something to tell you."

"Something to tel- TALK if you have something to say Dee. Speak now. Don't play no games babe... What's the problem?" I was dying inside trying to figure out what the hell she had to say.

"Zara. TELL ME YOU LOVE ME!" What was she even getting at?

"You KNOW I'm in love with you, Deena. Why are you acting like you don't?" My mind began racing.

"No... Zara I will not marry you... If you do not tell me you love me right now..."

"I fucking love you Deena what the fuck? What's the ISSUE?"

She whispered into Tonya's ear. Tonya's eyes went from the ground, up to me... And then she looked at me with sadness her eyes. My heart dropped once again. Tonya let go of Dee's arm and walked toward me. As she got closer, a tear fell out of her eye. "Zara. Can you come give me a hug please? You know I love you, and Deena loves you, and I'll forever be there for you, right?"

"Tonya, say what you have to say please, I'm sick of anticipating. SICK. AND. TIRED. So speak, please?" I so badly wanted to look strong but I couldn't help but cry.

"Zara. Deena LOVES you. She loves you with her whole heart. She wants to walk down the rest of that aisle right there, and come say she wants to marry you, and she wants you to kiss her and she wants to continue on to the future you both have in store. But... You have to promise me you LOVE her... With your ENT-" I cut her off.

"WHY WOULD I BE MARRYING HER TONYA? IF I DIDN'T LOVE HER MORE THAN I LOVE MYSELF. FUCK THE MONEY I'VE SPENT, LET'S TALK ABOUT JUST THE SIMPLE LOVE. I LOVE HER... SHE'S MY... Tonya she's my everything." I was breaking down at that very moment. Had Tonya and Dee been together? What the fuck was going on? "Tonya... She's my world, my life, my heart beat walking... What's going on?"

"I don't know how to say it... I don't want to h-" Dee cut her off from behind.

"I SLEPT WITH QUINTON! SHIT! I SLEPT WITH HIM AND KICKED HIM OUT BECAUSE IT WASN'T YOU. Because... I really fucking love you. I really want to be with you for longer than the rest of my life. I really want to start a new life with no mistakes, just you in it. And I made the biggest mistake of my fucking life Zara. THE BIGGEST. I CHEATED. Okay? I cheated and then I scrubbed and scrubbed and scrubbed until I couldn't anymore because I just..." She was sobbing at this point. "I JUST... Want you... Only you. Forever. Please. Forgive me Za."

I could feel my heart physically break, the pain in my chest came almost instantly.

"Yo." I was so choked up. I couldn't get much else out. "I'm gonna... I'm gonna go. Nice life, hope you have one. Because I'm finished." I started walking off and felt like I had the weight of the world on my shoulders. How could she do that to me? And then have the nerve to cry. Then I felt a hand grab my arm. Deep inside I was so hoping Deena grabbed me. I turned to see it was Tonya... I reached in my pocket for my Prada sunglasses and put them on.

"Why are you walking away from her?" I felt safe behind my shades, like I could cry all I wanted, because no one could see. "Answer me Zara. What's the problem? Why are you pretending you DON'T love her? You still love her. Just like I will forever love you, you will forever love her." She began to get closer to me, then said in my ear "She doesn't even know about what we did, does she? You always were good at keeping secrets. At least she told you what she did. At least she STOPPED. You made me fall in love with you over a drunken night asshole." I began to sob on Tonya's shoulder, because I knew she was right. "So turn the fuck around and forgive her."