Silenced by the Night

Tell me a Lie

A long weekend for all of us; ‘why?’ you ask. We have no idea but we have a week of vacation. Nathan and Jessica were with us. So that’s me, Paige, Caylah, Melody, Jessica and Nathan; we were all in my room playing another game of Truth. It was Caylah’s turn to ask someone and it is Melody.

“Mel, what’s your biggest insecurity?”

She remained quiet for a minute. My eyes were fixed on Nathan. He had been worrying so much. I could hear him breathing from the silence he was making.

“Everything on my body, that’s my insecurity. Nathan, what lie did you tell Ellie? Even if it was a small lie”

Silence, he was staring at me for a long time. Paige had worry in her eyes. I thought he was also telling me lies.

“Pass”

“OK this leaves only the four of us. Nathan’s out the game”

Does he keep telling me lies? Did he tell me a lie that he was out the group of boys? Nathan was sitting on the bed texting someone and laughing when his phone would ring.

“Paige, I’m going out the game. I don’t feel like playing anymore

It’s always half but never whole. My trust for him was growing weak. Still, he’s my best friend or was my best friend. He was only telling me lies and I believed them. We were walking down the hall avoiding the laughs and murmurs about the four of us. The boys walked by, but one member was missing. Nathan. But without him, no one was pushing me to be the best.

There was a hand on my shoulder whilst I was walking to my locker. Melody turned around and there was a shocked look pasted on her face.

“El, its Nathan”

I turned around and saw Nathan standing there. There was a normal look on his eyes, and the warm smile on his face.

“What do you want? Aren’t you supposed to be with the group right now?”

“I already told you I was out of it. If you think I’m lying I’ll prove it”

“Fine, prove it”

He pressed his lips on mine whilst I heard gasp and murmurs around me. I pulled away and slapped him across the face. Hardly the hardest slap I’ve done in years.

“Ouch, El, why did you do that?”

“It suits you. For everything you have done to us, everything you told me! I shouldn’t have trusted you. I made a fool out of myself, trusting someone that will let go for somebody else”

Caylah pulled my arm and ran out the school. We followed her and didn’t even care where we already were. All I wanted was to be away from him, away from the trouble in school. We were all friends that met in one day at the same time. Caylah and I talked to each other and cut the fight just for him.

Hanna was right; people do change as they grow through age. Especially boys, they start ditching you and everything you hate what your best friend does to you. He wanted to fight off the feeling whilst he was even the first one kissing me. I didn’t have anything to do about him kissing me. All I do is think through my thoughts whilst he was standing there.

We arrived at the beach, my face was wet from all the tears he has let me all out. I would do anything just to see him, I would be puzzled with everything he was telling me but I just kept on thinking about it. Even when the both of us had a fight, well this is our first fight; his face would still be paste on my mind.

My skin smelled like salt from all the thinking I’ve done on the cove watching the sun produce higher heat every minute. Paige was sitting beside me, Caylah was on my left and Melody was sitting beside Caylah. We might have the same point of views; the same thing we were all thinking about was Nathan ditching us. My palms were sweaty and my hand continued trembling. Melody was crying harder in her hands every minute, Caylah was already comforting her. My eyes were tearing up, I couldn’t help but cry. 

“Forget about him Ellie, he’s not worth the tears”

My head was aching for the fourth time. Hanna was sitting beside me on the bed by their guesthouse with her friend Cheyenne. Things were getting more complicated with me and Nathan. So she convinced me not to talk to him anymore. But I don’t know if I could even do that. Even for a day without seeing him I felt like I was nothing.

Hanna was talking to someone on the phone. It was awkward how my heart was beating normally. She put the phone down and walked towards me smiling.

“Han, who were you talking to?”

“Just stay calm and don’t slap him anymore”

“Him, you called Nathan”

“El, it’s already time for you to talk to him; what will you do without him? Of course, before you felt so depressed when he was away from you, until now. Look at yourself in the mirror, you look so haggard from not eating or sleeping and it’s because of him”

She was right. I was still in love with Nathan. It was really hard for me to let go; we met two years ago. 

“El, he’s at the front door so be nice”

“No. don’t you dare let him in, Hanna!”

I heard footsteps from out the guesthouse.

“Where is she? Which room?”

“Master’s bedroom in the guesthouse”

I stood up and locked the door. OK, I know this has gone a bit too far but I’m also thinking it’s time to talk to him. The pounding became louder from the other side of the door, what was I gonna do? I couldn’t let him pound his way through the door.

“El, please just let me explain”

“Explain what? The fact that you lied to me about everything, now you want me to forgive you”

“We’ll talk through it I promise”

I opened the door and let him go inside. There was a calm look on his eyes; the allegory of disbelief was coming back to me. From the agony he left me, I’m already forgiving him. It’s not gonna do this but I have to. I wanted to but I just can’t.

Well, he said we’ll talk through it so let me trust him for one last time.

“Look I’m sorry OK; I know I made too many apologies. But I won’t stop until you forgive me”

“You’re asking for forgiveness again! Wouldn’t you just let go and move on. Nate, we’re in a different world now. You have tons of friends you have trusted. There are so many people in Abbeydale why did you have to pick me? I trusted you Nate and I couldn’t believe what a huge fool I am. This is our Happy Ending; this is where it all ends? You were everything I wanted, all of the memory so close to me, just faded away. All this time you were pretending? You’ve got your friends; I know what they already say. They tell you I’m difficult but look at you”

There was silence in the room after I just yelled at him. I couldn’t believe how mad I was with him. I sat down beside him and embraced him in a hug. What was wrong with me? Have I forgiven him? He let me cried on his shoulder and laid down on the bed.

“I forgive you”

I felt him smile and rub my arms softly. 

“I promise not to lie to you anymore”

When my friend swears that he is made of truth, I do believe him, though is he telling me the truth?