The Broken Pieces💔

Realization no. 6: Greatest cherishable dream

June 12, 2019- almost 1:47 in the morning.. I wake up due to the most heartbreaking, most cherishable and most Unforgettable moment and Greatest dream of my life.
I felt the Last Care, the Last Concern, and the Last 1st Kiss with you!😥😢

My eyes suddenly opens when i dreamed of you. There, I felt that we're truly finish and the lovestory that we both built was already destroyed and ended.

My heart felt numb. I feel unexplainable pain in my chest and in that sudden moment in my life, I wish that sana... hindi nalang agad dun lang natapos ang aking napakagandang panaginip. Sana, mas pinahaba pa ang ganong sandali sa buhay ko. Sana, kahit dun man lang, ma-feel kong mahal mo parin ako. Sana, hindi kaagad ako nagising para mas madama ko pa na may taong handang gumabay at magsabi sa'kin na, "wag papagutom ha?, uminom ka agad ng gamot!, hindi ka pwede sa ganyan...makakasama sa iyo yan, wag matutulog ng basa ang buhok at ang pinaka sweet sa lahat, kahit anong mangyari, hinding hindi ako magsasawang suyuin at mahalin ka dahil alam ko sa sarili ko na hinding hindi ako mapapagod na mahalin at alagaan ka!"

Pero, ang lahat ng iyon ay nauwi lang sa SANA!

*sana, ako parin diyan sa puso mo ha?
*sana, mahalin mo parin ako gaya ng pagmamahal na sayo ko lang talaga ilalaan
*sana, hinding-hindi mo makakalimutan ang simpleng babae na minsan ng naging parte ng buhay mo
*sana ako parin sana
*sana, nakagawa rin ako ng puwang at marka diyan sa puso mo
*sana, sana talaga... hindi mo ako iniwan!

Pero ba't ganun? Ang sakit sakit sakit sakit sakit! Ganun talaga pag sobra mong mahal. Iniisip mo na, "saan ba ako nagkulang? may nagawa ba kong mali? hindi ba ako worth ipagsabay sa pag-aaral?" oo it sounds selfish but ansakit eh. Pero kailanman, hindi ako naging selfish sayo! I gave the thing that could make you happy. For the last time, I made that decision just to make you happy even though I suffer a lot. For the last time, you are the reason why I easily agreed to the decision you made. Because, I want you to be happy. I want to support your decision and I want to push you to focus on your studies and only prioritize those things that may help you achieve your goals in life.
Eventhough I'm not part of your priorities anymore, I feel happy because I give up my love for you just to fulfill your wishes.

It may sound cliche but, "no matter what happened, the girl that ones loved you, will always be there at your back when you need backup and a person to talk problems with." It's not easy to befriend your ex. Everytime you chat and ask if how I was, I was in hesitation to answer that question of yours. All the pain I feel and the love I commit to you easily comes back. That's how I loved you.

I feel so much love when I recall the word that you said to me for the last time... "I love you so much!"

All the pain cross my mind and heart everytime I remember that last word of yours. Tears easily comes down and all the memories keep on flashing in my mind. Those time that we are together, The time that we can call US, the time that we are both happy, the time that we are both inlove and the time that we both didn't mind that this moment will arrive!