February 2019
It's been a long time since the day we've met. A lot of things changed, except my love for you.
Month of love.
Ihh I can't believe na may kasama na akong icelebrate yan. I'm so excited para ibigay sayo yung letters! Super inspire ako noong na valentines day, coz I know first time kong mageeffort at gagawa ng letters for that ocassion. Well, you'll always be the guy that'd get a love quotes and letters from me. Medyo late kang dumating, whole day kang wala, but it doesn't matter. Kasi ang mahalaga dumating ka noong gabi. We both celebrated that day together. I mean, parehas tayong online, then nag-countdown din tayo. Ih sayang nga, ang hirap ng malayo ka. I wanted to give you a long tight hug and kisses pa naman. But it's okay! Walang sinabi yung nakikita ko sa school na masaya coz they have flowers. Duh pinakamasaya ako coz pareho tayong present that day! I'm the happiest coz I celebrated it with the man I love the most. I'm so damn happy! The best Valentines day for me.
Days had passed, ganun parin tayo. We still in love with each other. I'm still in love with you. Habang tunatagal, mas minamahal lang kita lalo. Baby? Did I told you before that I admire you? I admired the things you've done perfectly. I admired how generous you are. How you see your life positively. The way you love me. The way you handle your life independently. Sobrang hanga ko sayo, minsan kasi mag-isa ka lang sa bahay nyo. Walang kasama. Kaya everytime na may sakit ka, hindi ako mapakali. I want to take care of you, but sadly, sobrang layo mo. Naiinis na lang ako sa sarili kasi I can't do anything, but to get stressed kasi hindi ko alam kung sinong mag-aalaga sayo. Damn, kung may powers lang ako na nag-teteleport, nandyan na ako sa tabi mo. I'd love to take care of you. So I admired you for being strong. And of course, I admired every details, inch, things about you. I admired you, your existence, your everything.
But of course, wala namang perfect relationship. Syempre, nagkakatampuhan parin tayo. Minsan nag-aaway tayo kahit maliit na bagay lang. Maybe we just miss eah other. Kaya pag konti yung time, hindi maiwasang magtampo talaga. Coz me? I love spending all my time with you.
Pero ang madalas talagang dahilan ng away ay ako.
I know, lagi kitang inaaway. Pag dadating ka and talk to me, nafefeel mo na ang cold ko. Hindi ko kasi maiwasan magtampo sayo, sorry. Namimiss ko lang yung everyday talk natin. Tas ang pinaka lame reason pa ng pag-aawy natin is late replies. Damn, i'm getting paranoid each and every day. Malate ka lang ng two minutes na reply, magiging cold agad ako. Aawayin agad kita. Kasi naman eh, ano bang ginawa mo sa one minute na hindi ka nagreply? Huhuhu ang oa at clingy ko, I know that. But I want you to know na kaya ako ganun, because I love you very much. Siguro naiisip mo na wala akong tiwala sayo. No, don't think that way. Kasi pag ganun ako, I overthink, feel ko unworthy ako for your time. So, I really hate late replies. And natatakot lang talaga ako na baka, mas sumaya ka sa iba.
Mag aaway pero hindi maghihiwalay. Yan ang naging motto nating dalawa.
Damn, know that you're the person i'm scared to lose.
It's been months, but I still get butterflies even tho I've talked to you a hundred times.
I'll never get tired on making our day special. I'll always put an effort, para maramdaman mo na ang pagmamahal ko sayo ay totoo. No matter how far away we are from each other. Even you're beyond my reach, tandaan mong sayo lang yung puso ko. No one can match the things we've done together, the memories we built, the feelings that you made me feel, the challenges that conquer together, the months we spend together. Damn, walang makakapantay at papalit sayo.
It's not about the place, situation and distance. It's about my genuinely love for you.
Kahit wala ka sa tabi ko, you're always on my mind and heart. Distance is not a hindrance for us. What matters the most is that we love each other. I remembered you send something for me.
Hi baby! I know this lsm came out of nowhere because I want you to know that you deserve every best in the world, you're the kind of a girlfriend na gagawin ang lahat maging maganda lang ang takbo ng relationship, you're the kind of a girlfriend na nahahandle ang shitty attitude ko, you're the kind of a girlfriend na dapat inaalagan at minamahal ng sobra, inshort my baby is the Ideal girlfriend, and I am so damn lucky to have her in my life.
Baby, I know this past few days madalas tayo mag away, and konti nalang ang time natin sa isa't isa, and i am so damn thankful na kahit ganon you stayed, you stayed kahit ganito ako, you stayed kahit madalas late replies and hindi tayo nakakapag usap. You know what baby? I wan na ako ng lahat wag lang ikaw, hindi ko alam kung anong mangyayari sakin kapag nangyari yun, you're my comfort zone, my shoulder to lean on, and my inspiration, my love. I dont know kung anong lagay ko kung wala ka sa tabi ko baby, you're the one who can make me calm, ikaw yung nagpapaaalala sakin ng worth ko, ikaw yung laging nandyan for me, and I love you so damn much.
And Baby? I think I am the luckiest man alive because I was given a chance to meet someone like you, hindi lang nakilala, naging akin pa. so I am happy that I met you, I want you to know that you're not just a girlfriend but also a best friend to me,a sister, a mother and definitely a grandmother. And kung bibigyan man ako ng pagkakataon mamili sa second life? I'll choose you over and over again without havings econd thoughts, like damn para akong nanalo ng isang Billion sayo, oh mali, you're priceless Damn you're the best baby, thank you for being a very understanding girlfriend, thank you for all the advices, thank your for comforting me, thank you for making me realize my worth, thank you for being always there and lastly thank you for being my girl, i am so damn proud to have you in my life, and kung bibigyan man ako ng pagkakataon na ipagsigawan sa buong mundo na girlfriend kita? Putangina paulit ulit akong sisigaw na girlfriend kita! You're mine.
Alam mo baby? Kumabaga sa cards you're my ace, ikaw ang alas ko, you're my jackpot! My very own treasure that no one can take away from me, tangina ba nila magkamatayan muna kami aba. Sorry for everything baby, babawi ako malapit na promise, I love you so much mahal ko, kapit lang baby, magkikita din tayo, take a good care of yourself while hindi pa tayo magkasama okay? Wag papabayaan ang sarili, always eat on time, wag papagutom, wag papatuyo ng pawis, and dont stress yourself too much, yan pa basic sa baby ko yan, gawin mong best friend ang calculus baby, wag mo kasi inaaway nahandle mo nga ako e, calculus pa ba haa??? My baby can Handle that course for sure, i love you ao much mahal ko, stay strong to the both of us, I love you so fucking much.
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Nasabi ko na bang mahal kita sobra? Hahaha. Damn, what did I do to deserve you? When I'm already done reading that, I feel like i'm about to cry. Paulit-ulit kong binabasa. Kasi bakit hindi? Message yan ng taong mahal ko. Damn you love, mas minamahal lang kita lalo. And don't worry, sabi nga ng motto natin, mag-aaway pero hindi maghihiwalay. Magtatampo ako, pero saglit lang. Mas mahal kita eh, di kita matitiis. I'm so in love with you.
You just don't give up with someone who you really love.
