June 2019
I'm done reminiscing and and writing our story. I chuckled. Damn, buti nalang I keep all our memories together. May pakinabang din pala yung kalokohang imessage ang sarili. As I go back from where and how we started? Maybe, for the others, our story is quite the same as them. Typical relationship.
But for me, ours is far different from them. No, not all relationship are the same. We have our own unique way on how we handle our relationship well. Maybe, in some circumstances, you may say that they're all the same. Yung sasaya ka, masasaktan, magagalit, mag-kakalabuan, mag-kakasawaan, tapos mag-kakaiwanan. Ganun lang lagi typical na maririnig mo sa isang relationship. Siguro, parehas nga in some way, but we all know na iba ibang tao ang involve. We don't know how other people deals with their own story. Iba ibang tao, iba ibang feelings, iba ibang pangyayari at iba ibang story. Meaning, iba yung story nila satin, at iba naman yung kwento natin sa kanila.
Love, you're so distracting
Am I overreacting, For feeling this way
And ever, since I met ya, I can't keep my attention
And you are to blame~
Until now, I really can't believe na magtatagal tayo. Knowing you and even me, we're not really compatible. Sobrang layo ng pagkakapareho ng ugali natin. Sobrang mainipin ka, ako naman pasensyoda. You're a sleepyhead and a morning person, while me mahilig sa puyatan, gising sa gabi and late gumising sa umaga. Sometimes you're as cold as ice, tipid mag-reply, samantalang ako i'm talkative as fuck. You keep your problem to yourself, while me sometimes vocal sa feelings ko, di kasi ako makatulog ng may iniisip. I really never thought that you'll be part of my life.
Una pa lang, I thought tatagal lang tayo ng weeks. Swerte na kung isang buwan. Because we both know that nowadays, sobrang rare na ng isang relationship na tatagal ng months especially that, what we have is a long distance relationship. But love requires no distance, no matter how far away you are from each other. When you love, you love.
You're love's a permanent distraction, a perfect interaction a feeling so extreme~
Loving you is the best decision i've ever made. You're forever carved on my system. Being with you, is like riding on a bumpy ride. Masaya, minsan masakit, malungkot, kilig, ecstatic. No one, as in walang ibang makakapantay sayo. Walang makakatalo sa memories na nabuo natin. Walang makakatalo sa pinaramdam mo sakin. Well, I don't want anyone else, I only want you. I want to make more memories with you. I really want us, to last forever.
I lost my appetite to eat, and I barely get to sleep
Cause you're even in my dreams
And I thought that I was strong but I knew that all along, this was out of my control~
Pain, sacrifices, patience. I never thought na matitiis ko yung sakit. How ironic to think, na dati I don't want any commitment, kasi alam ko naman ang hahantungan eh. Kasi tingnan mo, kapag mag-isa ako sa gabi, nababaliw ako kakaisip sayo. Before, hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ang daming nagiging tanga sa love. Now that i'm experiencing it? I thought I was strong. But damn, noong dumating ka? Never thought you'll be my weakness. Everything I feel for you is new to me. Hindi ko alam kung bakit sayo, ang hirap kontrolin. Pag ikaw na ang pinag-uusapan, nawawalan na ako sa katinuan. I can't even think straight when it comes to you, but there's one thing that i'm always sure about. It's my love for you.
So I fell into your hands, and i don't know where we'll land,
I'm just going with the flow~
You're not a perfect person, and so am I. Madami kang flaws. Katulad nung mga sinabi ko, minsan cold ka, madaling mainip, seloso, palaging late reply, mahilig ka sa negative thoughts, malihim ka, hindi ka ma-effort, selfless, madaling bumitaw, mabilis sumuko. Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit sayo ako nahulog eh hahaha. Kung iisipin, ang daming mas better sayo. Yung pwedeng gawin akong top priority. Pero balibaliktadin man ang mundo. Hindi naman perfect guy or better guy ang gusto ko. Hindi naman sila ang kailangan ko. Because what I need and want, is the only guy that is right for me. A guy who can make me smile when i'm not the mood to laugh. A guy who can make me blush when i'm irritated as fuck. A guy who will cheer me up when I feel so down. A guy who sees my worth, when I feel like there's nothing special about me. A guy who will make it up to me, when you're upset to him. A guy who will make time for me, even tho he's busy as fuck. A guy who says sorry when he knows that he made a mistake. A guy who can make my heart beats fast. And that guy, will always and only be you. I'll always thank God, that I fell in love with you.
Love, Love, Love, Love, Love~
Love should not have standard or setting conditions to the person you love. Sa pag-mamahal, matuto tayong makontento kung ano at sino yung taong mahal mo. Wag nating pilitin na, dapat ganito ka, dapat katulad ka neto, dapat ganyan ginagawa mo sakin. Because to love without no standards and condition, ay isang totoo o pure love na pwede mong ibigay sa isang tao. Some people may think that we're weak by staying with this kind of relationship. Maybe because iniisip nila na mahirap isugal ang ganitong klase, kasi hindi naman nag-wwork. Puro kasi negative thoughts agad. Kaya akala lang nila ganun talaga. Kung bakit ba naman kasi, iniisip nila yung future agad. And yung iniisip pa, na matatapos agad, advance mag-isip. Hindi ba pwedeng present muna, and go with the flow hanggang sa together nyong maabot ang future nyo?
Someday, I want to run away
This feels so perfect, it's breaking my heart
Yeah we could, we could stay here happy
Or after summer, be two worlds apart~
Long distance is not easy. Minsan, hindi na ibang tao ang kalaban mo. Yung oras at distansya ang kaagaw mo. Hindi maiiwasang mag-isip ng masama at masakit na bagay, kasi nga hindi mo naman nakikita ang ginagawa niya. Love hurts. Because if it doesnt hurt. Then, its not love. Pero kung mahal mo, hindi ka susuko. Distance? Ano bang laban nyan sa pagmamahalan nyo? Distance will never be a hindrance to your relationship, kung pipiliin nyong maging matatag despite sa kilometrong layo. Kung mahal mo, mahal mo! Hindi matutumabasan ng kahit anong layo ng lugar ang totoong pag-ibig. Doubts, yan ang kalimitang dahilan kung bakit nagkakalamat.
Kaya we need to remember, in order to have a healthy long distance relationship. We should learn how to be patient, trust our partner, respect them, don't do stupid mistakes that will hurt your partner's feeling, love them unconditionally, and of course, vice versa. Hindi pwede sayo lang applicable, dapat sa kanya din. That's how relationship works, it's between two people, fight for each other. And I assure you, you'll have your own happy ending, together.
Love, you're so distracting
Am I overreacting, For feeling this way
And ever, since I met ya, I can't keep my attention
And you are to blame~
Our story is quite unexpected. It's not an ideal story. All my life, I never thought that i'll be this happy. You changed my perspective in life, love and everything. You made me discover a part of me, na kahit ako hindi ko alam na nag-eexist. You're the only person na gugustuhin kong makilala uli in my second life. I'm not afraid of loving you too much, maging depende sayo ng sobra, at masanay sayo. But i'm afraid of losing you. You were alwaya the one that I loved the most. I can't think of anyone else to spend my life with. It's you and it's gonna be you, forever.
"In every girls life there's a boy she'll neber forget and a summer where it all began."
Every summer has a story. And ours?
It all started last summer.
