Ownership

Chapter 10: Nervious Breakdown

If i had to give you some advice, it would be the following. When shit hits the fan,are you still a fan? Why don't you look to your left and right make sure you ask your friends. When shit hits the fan,are you still a fan?

I couldn't believe it, edgar knew my secret. I said to myself, while I laid in my bed. The time on my alarm clock read 9:30 am, thank god it's a damn saturday. The house, the house was quiet, so quiet that I can hear a pin drop. I look at my wine stained shirt in disappointment, i made a fool out of myself last night. However, i could care less about the public humiliation, the subject im dwelling on was mine and edgar's encounter in the woods. I got out of  bed and made my way over to the window. I drew back the curtains, my eyes were met with a gloomy morning sky. I never liked cloudy days but I guess todays is an acception. I didn't want to see any signs of happiness or joy at the moment, the reason being was simple, I felt angry and sad. I sighed, before walking over to my dresser to pick out my clothes for today. I chose the following, a black shirt,a pair of blue jeans, black socks and a pair of black and white striped arm sleeves. A smile appeared on my face,the arm sleeves reminded me of lucy. I missed my family, i miss lynn,luna,lori and even luan. Huh,it's weird, i kinda forgotten about luan up until this point. In retrospect, my older sister might actually be mental ill. Let's say she really is, the fact I yelled and screamed at her and disowned her, filled me with guilt.  I got out of my wine stained clothes into the clothes i picked out. I wanted to see how looked, so i went over to the mirror on the wall.  The only way i could describe my look was gothic. I started studying my white hair. My pure white hair, that wasn't stained with any other color but white. Haha most people think i'm an albino or that I dyed it, when I tell them neither of the two are not the case, they are shocked. I was proud of my hair at one point and yet, and yet im deeply ashamed of it now because of her. The names still haunt me day and night, faggot,loser,freak, albino vampire. I know nobody is here with me but i still can hear people saying them as if  they are right next to me. They got  loud to the point my brain was invaded by the insults. However when they came from her mouth, it was the worst. There is one  remark she said that i can't get out of my head. I remember what edgar said  like it was yesterday.

"Why you staring at me fuck up, oh wait, you have crush on me dont you? Ha that fucking priceless, like i every let you fuck me. Lane already marked his territory deep inside me. Unlike you he's a real man."

The fact knowing that ed would be that cold hearted to rub  the fact she lost her virginity to lane in my face, made me sick to my stomach. I suddenly felt the temperature of the room quickly drop. When I looked back at my reflection, my blood ran cold. I was now wearing a white hospital gown. I turned around only to discover I was no longer in my bedroom. I was now in a room that was the size of a prison cell, hell it's safe to say it was a prison cell. The walls were a forest green color. When i got a better look, it appears like they have been chipped away, from years of neglect. The room had a grey marble floor, it felt ice cold on my bare feet. My bed was old school, it looked  like it belonged in the 40s or 50s. The bed frame was metal and rusty. The bed sheets looked disgusting. It was covered in different stains, from red stains to brown stains . It didn't help that the sheets were white. The blanket was yellow, it wasn't covered in unknown blotches but instead bugs.  Maggots,flies,cockroaches and bedbugs caked  the bright yellow blanket. The only thing i could consider to be clean on that disgusting excuse for a bed, was the pillow. I look to where the window was to find a small barred window. Without warning I began to hear screaming and wailing of mad men. The noise, brutally assaulted my ear drums. As a Way not to lose my hearing but most importantly my sanity, I covered my ears. It was all in vain, I could still hear the hellish screams. I reached my breaking point, I fell to my knees praying for it to stop. Just as I thought it couldn't get more louder, everything went silent. I slowly opened my eyes and uncovered my ears. I got back up on my feet,I was thanking god for ending the torture. I heard heavy footsteps from outside my room. Just like the screaming, it gradually gets louder until it abruptly stopped. I was yet again confront by complete and utter silence. I heard the sound of a key being put in the lock. My heart once more beat like a piston, the huge steel door of my cell opened.  What I encountered was disturbing. I saw two men, no, men is an understatement. What I saw was two beings with limbs of a human, on the other hand, they had rabbit heads. They both smiled at me with, showing off their dirty crooked yellow teeth. The creatures had human looking eyes, that were the size of golf balls. The rabbit men wore white orderlies uniforms with black dress shoes. I stood there, frozen in fear. I witnessed them move closer towards me. I slowly began to back away.