Listen

Unsteady

They told me to go home and rest, take a break from school.

"This is why I've been mad at you. Because you never told me anything." Zippy said to me giving Alex a glare before walking out of the sanitorium.

I was confused, told her about what? I have not hidden anything from her, but maybe she thinks I am in a relationship with Alex given the glare she sent his way.

I was walking into class, the class I started talking to Alex in. I had no interest being there and I felt tired. It was just one of those days where I did not feel like getting out of bed to live, I just wanted to stay in bed and exist. I forced myself out anyway, did my morning excercise and all. Had breakfast and shook the sleepiness out of my eyes with a very tall, dark mug of coffee. The sleep stayed out of my eyes long enough for me to walk into the classroom and that's where my memory ends.

When I woke up, I registered Alex's cologne in the room. Unlike what people say, no bright light met my eyes. The lights were off and the only light was from a window somwhere. Natural lighting is the best.

I heard Zippys voice in the room too, I thought she did not want to be around me.

I sat up in bed but I must have been too fast because my head went all woozy.

The nurses words and I quote before turning away, "Go home and rest. Take a break from school if anything until then."

I did not ask any questions about when is then or why, I just got off the bed and went home because I wanted to sleep so bad. Sleep I did, the moment I fastened my seatbelt in Alex's car.

I woke up all sweaty, not wet but reeking. That nap was the best, the types of naps where you wake up sweaty and feeling so refreshed. So I took a shower although the thought of soaking in a tub of warm water seemed alluring.

"I was about to leave but you're awake." Zippy said as I got down the stairs.

"Why are you mad at me?" I asked not going any further down the staircase.

"How could you hide this from me? I always had a feeling about it but wanted you to tell me yet you never!" She shouted at me giving Alex an ugly glare when he walked into the living room.

"Wait, tell you what?" I ask confused

"You..Alex..." She started pointing at me then just walked out of the room and house at that.

I did not run after her, I was too lazy and proud. I would not beg her to tell me what I had done wrong. Whatever secret she thought I had been keeping from her must be more than a tiny figment of her imagination, probably an exaggeration of it because I had no secret.

"You need to take your results to your doctor," Alex said.

"I'll come with you if you want." He added.

"Why?" I asked.

"Do you by any chance maybe have bipolar disorder or any mood issues?" He asked me from across the room.

"Attitude issues maybe,why? You think I'm unstable? Is that why you are standing over there?" I asked taking a step back up the stairs.

Just what did the nurse tell them? Just when I thought Zippy thought I was having a relationship with Alex and keeping her in the dark people start questioning my sanity.

"No! That's not it...I'm just trying to figure something out." He said taking several steps closer to me.

"Figure what out?" I asked.

"I really don't know much about you but..." He said looking away.

"But what?" this time I'm the one who took several steps down the stairs.

"You're..." He said taking a step back.

"I am..?" I asked walking towards him like a cat stalking it's prey.

"You're going to have to see your doctor about that." He said.

"And...Get a therapist too." He added moving so that a couch was between us

There. He thinks I am unstable, that's not far from the truth anyway.

"Why?" I ask and almost cry when I hear how my voice broke

"Because I think you are..." He started, but I did not let him finish his sentence with his lips pressed to my fingers.

Then I walked away.