She Wants What She Hates ~ Ally/You (G!P)

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Ally

I already know what's coming. 'Ally, I'm sorry, baby, but I realize that I love Leigh and she loves me back. She's breaking up with Andre and we're gonna be together.'

I swallow, "What is it?" She runs a hand through her hair. "I love you, Ally," she says. I internally roll my eyes because she's already beating around the bush. "I know, just tell me what is it you really need to tell me. I'm tired of waiting, Y/N!" I snap.

She flinches a bit, sighing under her breath.

"A'ight," she looks down at the ground and I snap my fingers her her face. "I'm up here, not on the floor," I say, getting increasingly annoyed with the Samoan.

She looks up, a puppy dog type look in her eyes. God, she's so beautiful. No, Ally! You're mad at her! Don't let those eyes trick you.

"So, last night, I had almost stayed over Jesy's because we all got drunk," she starts off then she curses under her break. "Fuck it. Leigh and I almost had sex and I realized that I wasn't in love with her, it was purely lust that I mistook for love."

I could feel the tears slowly prick my eyes as she spoke. She and Leigh-Anne almost did it? "H-How close did y'all come to doing it?" My voice a shaky whisper.

"We still had all of our clothes on, if that's what you mean," she says. I didn't know how to feel. I was happy that she knows for sure that it's me she wants, but I hate the fact that she nearly did it with another woman. One that she's done it with before.

Not knowing how to express my feelings, I whip my hand across her face, hard. She keeps her face turned while my hand stung something fierce. "I deserve that," she says, voice broken.

"You deserve more than that for the crap you've put me through these last few weeks," I say through my teeth. Her cheek starts to turn red and she slowly looks back up at me. Her eyes flooded and nose flaring.

"I'm sorry, Ally. I know that ain't enough, but God, I'm so fucking sorry. I'm stupid. So damn stupid and I do deserve a lot of things, but I damn sure don't deserve you," she says, her voice cracking occasionally between words.

She blinks and a single flood smooths over her bruising skin. "I'll do anything to get you back, Ally. Anything, I-," she pauses and sniffs before speaking again.

"I'm out on a limb here. I just want my baby back, please? I never realized how much I needed you until now," she's starting to sound desperate. I cross my arms over my chest, leg shaking as I try to hold back tears.

I cried over her too many times and she does not deserve them.

"Please, Ally," she says, standing up from her seat. "I fucked up. I've made you cry so many times because of my indecisiveness. I went too far. Honestly, you were on my mind the whole time; that's why I stopped and came back. She told me to come home. That you were my home and that right there struck me because, Allyson Brooke, you are my home and I'm lost without you. You're always on my mind constantly and it hurts me that I hurt you. I broke your heart and I don't deserve you as much as I did deserve you hitting me and I-," I hold my hand up to stop her rambling.

"Stop. Just stop," I say, but it barely came out as a whisper. I wipe my eyes clear of the undeniable waterfall before I continue to speak. "I love you, Y/N. More than anything. Heck, I love you so much that it's taking me every fiber of my being not to kiss you and take you back."

Her nose flares again and she hangs her head a bit, "So, we're not getting back together?" I run my fingers through my hair and let out a deep breath. "I need time to think, Y/N." She nods, "I understand." She wipes her face with her hands and sniffs again.

"I'ma fight for you," she says, stepping a bit closer before descending onto her knees. "I'll do whatever it takes. I'll yell your name to the world from the rooftops. I just... I wanna be yours again."

Out of instinct, I caress the cheek I didn't harm. She leans into my touch, holding my hand. "I've missed you so much," this time, she broke down.

I wrap my arms around her and she cries like a child into my stomach. I feel her warm tears seep through my thin shirt and her heartbreaking whimpers echo around the room. Her hold on me tightens and mine on her does as well.

Witnessing her cry so bitterly causes my mixed emotions to reach my eyes and I allow them to. I want to forgive her, I do, but the pain she put me through needs to heal before I could give into her again.

As much as I miss her tender kisses, her warm hugs, her sweet words when she holds me, her soft voice when she sings me to sleep; I miss my Y/N. So darn much.

She cries harder, sobbing while holding me for dear life. I hug her head, bending down awkwardly to kiss the top of it before taking her wet, swollen face in my hands.

Her cries reduce to whimpers, eyes red and bottom lip trembling. "I know you probably hate me," she shudders. I shake my head, leaning down so that our foreheads touched. "I've got nothing, but love for you, Pebs," I say. I unwrap her arms from me and helped her up.

"I don't only love you, I-I need you," she says, wiping her eyes. I lift her chin up a bit so that I could see into those dark, gorgeous eyes. "I know, and I feel the same way, but this break is necessary. I need this," she nods. "Yeah, and I'm willing to wait for you. No matter how long it takes me," she says, determination in her tone.

I wrap my arms around her again, this time I just inhale her clean scent. I loved that she didn't really wear cologne unless it were a special occasion. She had this natural scent to her that's a mix of her laundry detergent and a hint of coconut.

It's my favorite smell and I could breathe her in forever.

"You were always good to me, Ally and I took you for granted. I'll figure out a way to make it up to you, I promise. Though, I know no matter what I say or do, it'll never be enough. I could say 'I'm sorry' a million times and it wouldn't be enough. Nothing would be, but I'll try. I'm gonna fight for you," her words sounding so sincere.

I look up at her, my chin on her chest. She looks down at me and my eyes lingers on her lips. She gives me a soft smile before looking into my eyes. "Can I kiss you?" She asks.

I say nothing, just nod. She captures my lips in a kiss that I have been waiting for. I felt as if I were on cloud nine and I'd float away at any second. The kiss ends far too soon and I chew on my bottom lip briefly.

Already missing the taste of her lips.

"Kiss me again?" My voice timid. She smiles again and kisses me. The kiss goes on a little longer and my legs nearly give out. My mind started to get a little fuzzy, and I couldn't think of anything but her lips.

It's amazing what she does to me. Just to think, a few months ago, I despised her. Now, I can't stop the pounding in my chest as she holds me close and treat my lips as if they're fragile.

One thing she always did was care for me as if I were made of glass. Another reason why I loved her.

I reluctantly pull away, our chests slowly heaving. She caresses my cheek, smoothing her thumb over the drying tear tracks. "I love you," she says, eyes seeing into my soul. "I love you, too," I say back, the words not being enough to express myself.

I loved her way more than words. Loved her more than I can explain. It was crazy because I've never in my 25 years on this earth, have ever felt so deeply for someone.

We stay in each other's arms until I realized we've been gone too long and it's almost time to go back up on stage to finish rehearsal.

I honestly felt way better after talking to her. It's like a weight has been lifted off my chest and now, I could breathe. I still needed time, though. I need to fill the girls in on it because I know they think something's up.

I mean, Camren constantly checks up on me; not that I don't appreciate it, I do. My friends are more like the sisters I never had and I thank God for them.

I just pray they don't go ballistic on Y/N when her and I tell them because they need to hear her side as well.

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