She Wants What She Hates ~ Ally/You (G!P)

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"Ally, what are you saying?" I say desperately, finally letting the dam loose. "You know what I'm saying," her voice was broken. "Don't do this. Please, I love you."

"You love Leigh-Anne, Y/N!" She practically yells. Her sudden volume catches me off guard, silencing me. She takes a few deep breaths before continuing in a calmer voice.

"Only until you make up your mind. We'll continue like we were supposed to in the very beginning," she says in a tired voice.

"Like a... PR?" She nods, "I love you, Y/N. I do. Probably more than anyone I've been with in the short amount of time we've been official. But you still carry the old you around."

I hang my head in defeat, sniffing back anymore emotion, "Please don't do this to us." I say more to myself. I look back up at Ally's wet, red, puffy face. Even with soaked cheeks, she's still beautiful. "Y/N, this isn't fair to either of us if we stay. I don't want you to break your own heart in the end."

My breath shutters at her words. As much as it pained me to admit that they were true. She's so compassionate and selfless. The fans are right, we are polar opposites and I don't deserve her.

I sigh, kicking lightly at the rug under my feet. I wipe my face somewhat aggressively since I hate crying. I then feel her gently take a hold of my chin and makes me look at her. "It's what's best for us, baby," she says, smiling through the sadness I gave her.

I nod, my gaze going to our feet, "I'm sorry." The words surprised me as they exited my mouth. The old Y/N "Pebbles" Johnson doesn't know what those words mean. She'd be caught dead if she ever uttered them.

But the old Y/N is dead.

I don't wanna be that Y/N anymore. I wanna be the Y/N that people actually wanna be around without rolling their eyes at my assholery. Someone Jasmine and Maui can honestly look up to. Someone that someone would wanna marry and have kids with.

She leans up and plants a soft, salty kiss on my lips. When she broke away, she gives me a sad smile. "Y'all gotta talk it out. Whatever happens, I'll always have love for you. No matter what."

I smile weakly, tears clouding my vision again, "You're too good. I didn't deserve you." Her eyebrows furrow and she shushes me, "Whatever God has in store for us, we will take it graciously. If it's meant to be, it'll be." I chuckle a bit.

"Isn't that a song lyric?" She smiles a bit, "Unintentional, but there's truth in it." Seeing that smile caused an eruption of butterflies go throughout my body. She caresses my cheek and I lean into her touch. "I didn't mean to hurt you, Ally," I say seriously as she smooths her thumb over my cheek.

She smiles again, but I can tell it wasn't real, "I'll be fine. As long as we're still friends regardless of the outcome." I reach up and mimic her action, wiping her tears with my thumb. Looking into those chocolate swirls, I can't help be be entranced.

God, she's perfect.

I really don't deserve somebody like her. No cap.

"We'll be in Manchester the beginning of October. You can schedule a meet up and talk," her hand lingers a bot before she takes it from my face and begins to walk out.

"Don't worry, the girls don't have to know until your heart is made up. I don't want Lauren or Mani to hurt you," she smiles at me and I return.

I watch as she exits, leaving me with my thoughts.

I do need to talk to Leigh-Anne face to face. There's nothing intimate about a phone call or text. Though, I do wanna reconnect with her since we were friends before.

Like I said before, I do want her back in my life.

I pick my phone up from the couch and unlocked it. Deciding on a text, because I do not trust my voice, I send her a quick message.

'Hey how you been? I know we haven't talked in a while but ngl i miss your head ass'

A very me thing to say.

I know because of time zones, she probably won't respond until tomorrow or anytime this week. I go into the bathroom to clean myself up. Looking at my reflection, I realize that I look a hot ass mess. My hair was all over the place and my face was red and puffy.

I tie my hair up into a ponytail and began to rinse my face with cold water. Afterwards, I dry my face with a paper towel and I hear my phone ringing. I go back into the dressing room. I pick it up, seeing it's a FaceTime call from Nick.

"Yo, kid," I greet, sitting down.

"Yo, why are you all red?"

I laugh, "Just got off stage, man. Crowd was crazy."

He smiles, "You missed that shit, huh?" I shrug, "I mean, I guess."

"Is that Pebs?" I hear a familiar voice in the background. Soon, the dreadhead shows his face. "'Sup, fam?" I say, nodding at him.

"Yoski," he then disappears and I shake my head in amusement. "Who else is there?" I ask.

"Oh, it's just me, Zion, and Edwin."

"Where's Brandon and Austin?"

He fixes his Yankees cap on his head, moving it backwards. "They went on a Cosco run with Austin's mom."

I nod, "That's what's up." My tone kinda disinterested. "Pebs, you okay, bro?"

"Yeah, I'm cool. Just tired, ya know?" He nods, "Yeah, but didn't you show for one song?" He laughs and I flip him off, "I've been up since like 4 this morning, running around with the girls."

"Speaking of, how's Ally? You treating her right?"

Internally, I felt like shit. Knowing that I broke us up after just like two months of dating because I'm emotionally undecided. Loving two people is complicated.

"Yeah, of course," I fake smile. Usually, I'd tell him exactly what's going down with us, but he's not in this relationship. And since Ally wouldn't tell the girls, I won't tell the guys.

He gives me an unapproved look then chuckles. For a second, I thought he really caught onto my bullshit. "Better be. We all know the girls would tear you a new one."

Oh, compa, you have no idea.

"True shit."

"So how you digging the tour?"

"It's cool. Their fans are sweet. One gave me a sketch of Ally and I. It was good too. I got it in my bunk," I say.

"You roomed with Ally yet?" I shake my head. "You know how I feel about sharing a bed or a sleeping space with another girl."

"Yeah, but you're dating so isn't it a pass?"

I shake my head, "We still young into our relationship."

"Respect. Anyway, I think they're back so I'll talk to you later, alright?"

"A'ight. Love you, man."

"Love you, too, Pebs."

With that, I hung up and put my phone on the charger while waiting until it was time to leave. It was almost 10 and I felt like I was gonna pass out on this couch. Which I was gonna do until my phone chimes.

I open my eyes and check my phone, heart racing.

*Okay, so I've been in this situation before where I was in love with one girl while dating my gf... who I also love... I'm still w my gf (she got that ring in her left hand 😏) but I won't guarantee you that Pebbles will 😈Hehe