She Wants What She Hates ~ Ally/You (G!P)

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Ally

Her question hardly caught me off guard, but I was still surprised that she asked. She waits patiently for my answer, expression stoic, but her eyes screamed sadness, anger, guilt, and pain.

"Yes, I do," I finally answer. She nods, looking away. "Do you forgive me? Wait, don't answer that," she dismisses, sounding a bit mad. "I mean-," I start. "Ally, you don't gotta say anything about it. I fucked up and I'm being punished for. I just wanna know how much longer?"

I run a hand through my hair, sighing. "I'm sorry, Y/N, but I'm seeing a familiar pattern that I told myself I wouldn't go through again. I'm just keeping my heart safe, I guess," I mumble the last part. She stays silent, staring in front of her.

The silence was thick, and had wisps of rage in the air.

"Y'know," she starts, turning to look at me. "I did almost sleep with her," her tone indifferent. The confession all but ripped my heart out of my chest. "Almost...," she looks back in front of her.

"That's when I realized that I've confused love and lust. I lusted after her, but I love you. I've said it many times that I haven't loved this hard since Madison," her voice now gentle. She doesn't say anything else, looking down at her lap, face void of emotion.

"What happened?" I ask. She looks at me dead in my eyes. Her hard demeanor softens a bit as our eyes speak a language only we know. "She broke me," she whispers.

"Wait, really? I thought-," I stop. She messes with the rings on her finger and I took the time to see she's wearing her necklace that matches mine. That alone made my aching heart feel a bit better.

"Truth is, I was the loyal one. My reputation of being the designated fuckboy is why no one believed that she broke my heart," she pauses. "I was on the road a lot; I mean, I was a wrestler, I traveled all around the world. The distance was a bit of a strain, but I tried making it work since I loved her so much."

She chuckles bitterly, "At that time, she was talking to this guy named Nathaniel. I knew of him. She said he was just a friend of hers... and of course I believed her. Then WWE went to the UK and that's when I met the girls. Jade said her nephew was a fan so I spend the day with him and later went clubbing and I got drunk."

She runs a hand through her hair, eyes fixated on her floor. "Leigh and I were the closest since we had the weirdest things in common like how we both sleep on our stomachs or we can't eat a sandwich without lettuce. Shit like that."

"That same year, Carnival was happening in Dominican Republic and I asked them if they wanted to go. But only Leigh came, so we went and had a great time," her expression changing to a slightly happier one before going back somber.

"Paps took pictures of us there, grinding on each other and took more of me going into her hotel room that night. Only because I lost my key and was too drunk to form proper sentences. Madison saw and immediately broke up with me. She didn't even let me explain or nothing," I notice a tear fall down her cheek.

"No matter how many times I begged for her to hear me out, she was stubborn and believed what she saw on social media instead of believing me," she sniffs and wipes her face with her sleeve. "Then, not two weeks later, she's posting pictures of her and Nathaniel, smiling and shit."

"I was so crushed that I started dating and hooking up with anyone. Including Kehlani, Halsey, Zendaya, a few others that were just drunken one night stands," she looks at me, face reddened. "So, you lived into the name you were given over one misunderstanding?"

She nods.

Lauren was right.

"I fucked around until I became numb and the asshole that nobody wanted to be around and I thought 'Good. At least I can't get my heart broken again.'" I subconsciously rub her back as she continued to speak.

"In the mist of all of that, Leigh and I set up an arrangement to be friends with benefits, and as fucked up as it may sound, it helped with my heartache in a way. I dunno, it's hard to explain," she shakes her head.

"So, yeah, that's what happened," she shrugs.

"I-I'm so sorry, Y/N. I had no idea," I say, and she gives me a sad smile. "Now, you do, so it's okay, love," her smile gets a little bigger. She then turns her body towards me and grabs hold of my hands.

"I'm still gonna fight for you, though. You mean the world to me and I can't live with myself if I didn't try to win you back," she proposes. "But, you don't have to fight so hard, baby," I say, reaching up to caress her caramel skin.

She smiles again, leaning into my touch. "I, now, understand why you were how you were and what's been going on with you. So, you don't have to strain yourself just for me to take you back," I smile back.

"But I wanna give you a gift first," she says and I furrow my eyebrows. "What is it?" She stands up, "Wait here." Her demeanor much happier now. She goes to her closet and takes out a guitar.

"I didn't know you played?" She shrugs, hooking the strap over her shoulder and taking a seat back beside me. "There's plenty of things you don't know about me, baby," she says, smiling.

She tunes the instrument a little before playing a beautiful melody. She closes her eyes then began to sing in a soft voice.

I realized, I belong to you
I feel the darkness, went away from you

Hey, don't stop your lovin', walk out on me
Don't stop for nothin', you're what I bleed
I learned to love you, the way you need
'Cause I know what's pain, this is not the same

I feel my eyes flood at her words. I could hear the sincerity and honesty in her tone and now knowing what I know, I know she's being genuine.

I'd be nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing without you
I'd be nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing without you
I was too busy tryna find you with someone else
The one I couldn't stand, to be with was myself
Cause I'd be nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing without you

Pick up your phone, I got a question, oh
If I die tonight, would you regret it?

Don't stop your lovin', it's all I have
'Cause I can't function, no I won't last
I swear I'll love you just like the past
'Cause I know what's pain, this is not the same

Memories of before our break enters my mind. The sweet kisses, the tight embraces, the goofiness, and the smallest moments that didn't seem important at the time that holds the same amount of value today.

She loved me, I felt it in every moment together, even if she didn't say it.

I'd be nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing without you
Oh, I'd be nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing without you
I was too busy tryna find you with someone else
The one I couldn't stand, to be with was myself
Cause I'd be nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing without you

Oh, I'd be nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing without...you

She finishes, opening her eyes finally to look at me. By this time, the dam gave away and tears soaked my face. She removes the guitar and sets it beside her before opening her arms to me.

Instead of hugging her, I place my hand on the back of her neck and pulled her into me, closing the gap.

Her lips never failed to make me weak; I could never get tired of them. They were so soft and smooth and gentle. Back when we first kissed on this very bed, I felt a spark inside of me, but I didn't know if she felt it too.

The fact that she stopped before we went too far instead of give in like most of my exes tried to do, just made me feel more love for her. She places her hands on my hips cautiously. I break away briefly, "It's okay." I reassure before going back to her lips.

The passion between us was thicker than anything and that's when I knew that we were made for one another.

This time, she breaks from me, much to my dismay. We were both panting slightly at the intensity that occurred. "What does this mean for us?" She whispers, eyes going from my eyes then to my lips then back to my eyes.

I smile at her, kissing her lips once again.

"I wanna be yours again."

*Happy?