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hangang pt. 3 • choi yeonjun

> suicidal, dreams, idk what i'm thinking I am just getting fond of the plot and want to make it longer, perhaps make it a separate book but i'm too lazy to write and my mind is currently loaded rn bcoz of school.

You dress really pretty today. Today is your 100th day. You can't believe, all you need was a boyfriend for the people to stop bullying you. At first, they threw hate on you. Yeonjun is being bullied, too for being your boyfriend.

Yeonjun is too brave. He stood up for you. He even reported it to your school and brought it up to media. People stop minding you. It's like you're just a normal person. You have been so happy.

You heard a beep from outside. You quickly ran outside and you saw Yeonjun on a motorbike. He was using his Father's motorbike. You were glad his Father let him.

"Yow. Where are we going today?" You said while you did the brofist.

"close your eyes?" he commanded.

"Whhhhyyyyy?" You said and you tried to look cute to tease him.

"I'm gonna put this but hop on the bike first." He said and you did what he said. He put an eye mask on you and an helmet. You were so excited and at the same time you were nervous.

On the trip, you were questioning him where to go but he keeps saying that you need to wait. You just laughed and try to sway his mind so that he'll slip his tongue and tell where you two going.

You felt the motorbike slowing down. He lifts you down on the bike and start guiding you the way.

"Okay, 1.. 2... 3..." he took off your helmet and eye mask. You two were at the riverbank of Han River. You don't seem happy but you tried to smile.

You hugged him really tight. Your head was on his chest and it was beating loud right now.

"Happy 100th day! I love you, Yeonjun. Thanks for protecting me always. I just hope we'll understand each other in any way we could do." you said and tears formed from your eyes.

"Happy 100th day, y/n. You were so precious to me. I won't promise to stay with you forever but I'll try to make you happy. You already faced the worst part of life. I'll try to make happy memories with you." He said while rubbing your back and letting you cry on his chest. You stopped crying and you lift your head. His face was so close. You look onto his eyes and you don't want to look away. He moves his head closer to you.

"Can I kiss you?" He said. Your mind was currently in chaos right now. Your heart is beating like crazy. Many thoughts run in your head. Should you say yes? Should you say no? You were thinking of excuses to reject him but you also liked the idea of kissing him.

"Yes... but... only on my forehead. I don't want to go deeper in relationship. I'm sorry but I'm not yet ready for that stage." you said and he smiled brightly.

"You really make me fall for you harder. Thank you for being blunt." He said and pinch your nose. You whinced but you just laughed and pinch his nose too.

"I want to kiss you, though." He said and his eyes were like a puppy and he is pouting like a baby. You just laughed.

You spread the blanket on the grass. You brought a lot of foods. You made kimbap, egg rolls, fried tofu and brought 5 bottles of strawberry juice. You took a lot of pictures with him. Another happy memory was added.

One bottle of juice rolled down near the river. You stood up to get it. You bent down to get it and you saw your reflection on the water. You stopd up but your mind gets hazy.  Your sight was blurry. You tried to slap your cheeks and blink your eyes.

Seconds later, your vision turn back to normal. You sighed, maybe you were stressed or you stayed laying half an hour ago.

You turn back but Yeonjun wasn't there nor the blankets nor his motorbike. You panicked. You ran somewhere to find him. You  dialed his phone number but he isn't answering. You bombed him texts.

You were so tired. You drank the juice you picked up. You decided to go to Yeojun's home. His Father's motorbike was parked on the side. You were confused, how did he get home quick.

You push the doorbell button. Seconds later someone opened the door. It was Yeonjun's Father.

"Hello!" You said cheerily but Yeonjun's father was not in the mood. No. He was glaring at you like he was about to kill you.

"Why are you here? How dare you show your face in front of me? Go away. Go!!! I don't want to see your face." his father said, you took a step back because you were afraid of his father. You were close to him before. You were confused. He even said you can call him Father.

"But, I-I wa-ant to-o see Y-yeonjun-n." you said, you were so nervous.

"Hah!! You want to see Yeonjun, well, go to the cemetery. How dare you come here finding him when you killed him?" his father said, you took another step back. You suddenly remembered your dream. He was trying to save you and he got to jump on the water instead.

You tried to save him. Thoughts were jumbling in your head. You didn't know what was reality and what was not now. You don't know who you will trust.

You were just staring blankly trying to process the events. Yeonjun's mother came out calming his father. His mother make his father go inside.

"I know, it's not your intention to let go of Yeonjun. You even tried to save him but please let's move on. We missed him and you coming here was not a good help. Don't blame yourself. We know it's an accident but please don't show yourself to us again." His mother was crying but she tried to be calm. You were crying as well knowing that in this world you failed to saved him.

You walked slowly away. You were still crying. He said that he'll make happy memories with you but why? Why in this world he is dead? You don't know where to go. You were walking and you didn't know where you are heading.

Until you saw you were at the cemetery. You tried to find his name. 최 연준. He died 100 days ago. You cried a lot. You wish you just let him kiss you, so that his presence will remain in you but no. It was getting late, so you head out. You try to focus yourself on how to get back to your world. The real world. The world where you and Yeonjun were happily together.

The next day you go to school. They are back again with those gazes. It's been years with those gazes but you stil feel depressed about it. You head to your room. Your classmates throw crampled papers at you. You just ignored them. You picked one of the crampled papers.

Diieee BITCHHH .|.
OUTSIDE DAUGHTER
MURDERER...

You just rest your head on the table. They stopped throwing things at you, it means the professor was already there.

Maybe this is the reality. You were really a child of mistake, murderer and a loner. This is really the truth. Yeonjun? He was really your hallucinations. Your escape from reality. You never had a boyfriend. No one liked you. You killed your coworker and you need to die.

After school, your feet brought you to Han River Bridge. At first, you were hesitating. You were still finding hope. Maybe someone will call for you and tell you not to jump. You step on the barriers and sat on it.

Your life was already messed up. You were nothing but a waste of oxygen. You remove your nametag and put it on the floor of the bridge. You jump on the river.

You let your body sink. Your vision is slowly getting dark. You're dead.

"Breaking news, a girl named y/n from Korean University jumps on the Han River, 7 in the evening. The girl was also the one who tried  to save a boy also from Korean University but failed to saved him. According to Statistics, 7.8% of the youth are committing suicide nowadays."

The end.

> so that was it. tragic ik.