Letters In My Head

Wont Delete The Kisses

My windows open, the rain is pouring heavily as my water falls from my eyes with the rhythm of the skies downfall, my toes can barely reach the grass unless I jump. If jumping could solve everything I would. The clouds seem to remind me of the look in your eyes when tears used to fill them, the tears you used to try to hide, those lonely tears you use to cry at midnight, when no one was around so you'd just wrap your arms around yourself.

I bet she doesn't think of you this much, it's been so long yet I still wont delete the kisses that I placed onto your melancholy face, and i'd count the days until I could see you again just to make you smile because I knew maybe that was all you needed. I've been told to get you off my mind but I don't want to loose the broken pieces left behind from a short period in heaven, when hell is something I face everyday.

Caught up, running with my demons cutting my legs on the thorns from loose branches, yet I feel nothing. I'm just trying to make it across this road without being hit although in myself i'm being torn to bits, and secretly i'm wishing to leave as I walk across this abandoned path, I wonder what i'll find.

I wish you all the love that you're searching for, i'll take these last few steps alone and maybe stumble upon a tree that's a little overgrown to shelter me from the thunderstorm that is about to strike because the leaves have lost their colours and so have I. 

I've wasted most of my time staring down yet another empty wine bottle and I have ran out of stories to tell. I'll draft a text or two knowing I wont send them because I don't want to bother you but now i'm drunk and i'm seeing double, and I know i'm not your problem anymore but now i'm questioning if iv'e ever been loved before.

Because we are strangers again.