I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock. I rolled out of bed, took a shower and got ready. I felt like I should be girly today to impress my mom so I wore and navy skater dress with navy keds. I straightend my hair and didn't put on makeup like Luke said. I grabbed my backpack and went downstairs. I didn't see my mom, not so suprising. She's probably at work. I went into the kichen and saw a note on the counter it read,
Gonna be late. Won't be home till a little over midnight.
Love, Mom
I rolled my eyes and grabbed my car keys. I walked outside to see a beautiful Luke Hemmings. "Goodmorning beautiful" He said smiling. "Hey" I smiled back, he kissed me. I pulled away and said "I'm driving" I said winking. I loved driving it was always so peaceful. "Not a problem with me" He chuckled get into the passenger seat of my car. "Since I'm driving, I pick the music" I said smirking. I turned on Can You Feel My Heart - Bring Me Horizon, I looked over at Luke to see him smiling at me. "What?" I laughed. "I really like this song, that's all." He said, "And you" He said over his breath. I smiled. We pulled up to our school and before I parked "Well, Mr. Hemmings where should I park?" I said. "I'm really sorry, you know that right?" He said looking really upset. "Sure" I said simply. "You can park in OUR spot" He said emphasizing the word 'our'. I rolled my eyes smiling as I parked my car. "Do you wanna get out first? I'm pretty sure you don't wanna be seen with me, I mean who would? I definitly wouln't." I said sighing. He got out of the car, I knew it he didn't wanna be with me. Before I went to open my door someone already opened my door, Luke. "Wow, for a second I acually thought you didn't wanna be seen with me" I said. "Of course I wanna be seen with you, now c'mon lets go he said holding my hand. Is he really doing this? Were not even dating, why is he holding my hand? I pulled my hand back "Luke we're not even dating, you can't just hold my hand and kiss me, you have to ask me out first to do any of that." I said. "Fine" He said grabbing my hand again and pulling me into the school. We got so many strange looks, I was scared. He dragged me into the caferteria infront of everyone. I was so nervous. "Ashlynn" He said, now all eyes were on us. "Ashlynn Marie Brooks, will you be my girlfriend?" He said, everyone was looking at us and I felt so insecure, I hated having all the attention. I only really liked it when I was singing, but otherwise not at all. I felt so many eyes on me, the popular girls looked so mad, they were giving me death stares. I looked over at Calum and he saw that I was looking at thosse girls and mouthed the words 'They're just jealous' like that really helped. I looked back at Luke into his beautiful pleading eyes and I smiled, "Yes!" He pulled me into the biggest hug ever and I heard cheers all over the lunch room. I was honestly so happy. For once, I felt so happy like nothing could ruin it. Not even those mean girls. Nothing. He let go and kissed me with so much passion. We pulled away when we heard and camera noise. "That's going on twitter" Ashton said, we both laughed. Luke grabbed my hand and we walked to our first block together. On our way there a girl came up to me and pulled me away from Luke, "He's just gonna cheat on you, he does it to everyone he dates. You're not special, everything he says and does to you, trust me he's done it to every other girl. He doesn't even like you, I mean look at you. Ugly, and worthless." She said smiling. I felt like crying or punching her, there's no in between. I looked away from her to look at Luke, he was standing there talking to a girl. Was she right? I looked down and back at her. She's still smiling at me, "By the way, I'm Taylor" She said flipping her hair. Then she walked away. I looked at Luke and saw him giving her his phone. That's all it took for me to be extremly pissed. I had to take my anger out on someone. "Hey, Taylor" I said turning to her direction, she turned around and I punched her so hard in her face that my knuckles started to hurt afterward. She fell to the ground and Luke came running towards me. "Wha-what are you doing?" He said. "What am I doing? Seriously?" I said raising my voice, a crowd started to form. I looked away from him to the ground and mumbled "Whatever" I rolled my eyes and walked away from him, he grabbed my arm. "What are you talking about? What do you mean what am I doing, I was waiting for you." He raised his voice. "Waiting for me, or giving a girl your number?" I said squinting my eyes. He said nothing, Taylor was probably right. I'm just one of his girls. I walked away into the parking lot and looked back at Luke, he looked really sad. Why should he be feeling sad? He doesn't get made fun of. I opened my car door and started my car. 'Ugly, and worthless' kept replaying in my head. I don't know why I punched her, she was right about everything.
I came home and took a shower and put on sweatpants and a tanktop and I put my hair up. I went into my room and turned on my tv, I turned on Chasing Mavericks. I wish I had a life like his, where he knew why he was put on this earth. I honestly have no clue. Maybe it was to be tortured. That's it. I went to my bathroom and cut my wrists. After I finished I cleaned up and went into my room and laid on my bed and checked my phone to see I got a text it read,
(4587541258)
Can we talk, please? I'm really sorry, it's Luke by the way.
-How did you get my number??
(4587541258)
Cal gave it to me, but we need to talk. I'm outside you house.
I heard a knock at my door, should I open it? No, you shouldn't. Your just one of his girls. I told myself. I really wish I never met him. "Ashlynn, please open up. I know your in there." I saw his body outline threw my door. I didn't say anything, I just sat down on the top of my staircase. Then my phone started ringing, shit I forgot to put it on viabrate. "I heard your phone, I know your in there. Please Ashlynn I'm sorry, can we please talk?" He pleaded. I stayed silent, I watched as he slid down my door with his back. "I'll sit here for forever, just please can we talk about this? I need to explain what happened." His head in his hans as he sat by my front door. A couple minutes went by. "Ashlynn if you don't open this door, we're over." He said getting up. Was he serious? "Fine." He said walking away. I didn't know what to do so I ran down my stairs and opened my front door and an outside to where Luke is, his eyes puffy and red. Was he crying? "Explain to me what happened and I swear to god you better not lie to me" I hissed. "I wo-promise, I won't. I'll tell you everything." He stuttered. I looked at him with raised eyebrows. "Promise is a big word, you really think you can keep it?" I chuckled rolling my eyes. "I promise." He said looking into my eyes. "Then tell me" I tiredly said. "She asked for my number because we have this project for science, I swear that's the only reason I got her number. She doesn't mean anything to me, you do. And only you." He said. I smiled, "I'm sorry, I really am. I'm so stupid, I should of just listened to you. This is my fault." I said, he grabbed my hands and saw my cuts. His eyes wided, "What's this?" I felt bad, why do I do this to him? "I-Uh" I started to cry. "I-I'm s-sorry *sob* I'f I were you I-I'd just leave *sob* I'm just gonna hurt you beause that's what I do, one d-day I'm gonna leave and I'm gonna hurt y-you." I started crying really hard, I wiped my tears off with my hands. Luke moved closer to me and grabbed my hands from my face. "Ash, please don't say that. You're absoulutly stunning and I'm not just saying that I mean it. I really really do. All I want is for you to feel beautiful. You'd be suprised about how many people call you pretty.." I cut him off, "People say I'm pretty?" I asked suprised. He smiled, "Yeah, they do." I smiled. "Can I ask you something?" He asked curious. "Yeah, I guess." He looked down and scatched the back of his neck, "Do you forgive me? I 'm really sorr-" I cut him off with my lips. "I love you, I mean I love you shirt" I heasitaded. God he knows I love him now. "I love you, more." He smiled.
((Authors Note))
HEY I HOPE YOU GUYS LIKED THIS CHAPTER!! (:
Love you. <3
~Alexis
