Ashlynn POV
I got up this morning and took a shower. I put on white jeans with my All Time Low shirt with black converse. I curled my hair to where it looked like beach waves. I did my usual makeup, winged eyeliner, mascara, with a little foundation. I grabbed an apple and my car keys and left for my car.
I parked in my parking spot and before I got out I saw Taylor's red car park. I noticed someone in the passenger seat. She got out then the person next to her got out also. Luke.
He said he was getting a ride with Calum? Did her like her? Maybe Jake was right, Luke didn't like me.
I grabbed my backpack and opened my door and slammed it in anger. I wasn't gonna let Luke get the best of me today. Why do I always have to fake my emotions.
I walked past Luke faking my confidence. I turned back and he looked at me with saddness and lust in his eyes. He bit down on his lip but I turned away quickly. I can't like someone who doesn't like me. Right?
I get to first block in a rush, I don't know why though. Considering I have to sit next to him anyways. A couple minutes later I feel someone sit down next to me. I don't look at them I keep my eyes forward.
In the middle of class, I feel someone tap my shoulder. I turn towards them. "What's wrong?" Luke says looking worried. "Me? I don't have one babe" I say smirking. "Did you really just change up my words from what I said to you yesterday?" He said chuckling which he quickly stopped when he noticed I stopped smirking. "I believe so" I say blankley.
He rolled his eyes and turned away from me. He has no reason to be mad. The bell rings. I gather my things up quickly and walk away from Luke and out the door. He grabs my arm once I make it outside the door into the hallway.
"Hey, seriously what's wrong? Did I do something?" He says getting frustrated. "Oh my gosh, this is getting so annoying" I say. "What is our relationship?" He questions. "No, Luke. It's the fact that you do stupid shit and lie and then once I find out you act so fucking clueless when you know exactly what I'm getting mad about" I say in all one breath.
He lets go of my arm and takes a step back. He loks behind me and walks away. I turn around and see Taylor coming with the popular kids. Fuck. I try to make it out but to my luck they catch up to me. "Luke doesn't like you, leave him alone" One of them say. "Do you really think makeup helps?" Another says. "Just so you know, Luke told me I can fuck him better than you" Taylor says. Why is it that I can totally see Luke saying that right now. Before I know it I feel my cheeck burn. "Better watch out next time" Taylor says. I grab my cheeck with my left hand.
I roll my eyes and leave school early and go home. I hate everyone there.
'No you don't' The voice in my head says.
"Yes I do" I yell into my pillow.
'You know you love Luke, even though he'll never love you the same because your a suicidal girl'
"I'm sorry, but you deserve this" I say to myself. It's true, I mean they say everything happens for a reason. So I guess there's a reason I love Luke and he will never love me.
I lay on my back staring at the star decorations my dad hung up there for me when I was little. I keep them there because that's when life was so easy, almost perfect. That's when I was happy, and my parents were still together. I wish I could go back and it stay that way forever.
I look at the time and it read, 10:34 p.m. I decided to go for a walk on the beach. I grabbed my neon orange top and bottoms and threw a white cropped top with shorts and put them on with my white flip flops. The beach wasn't that far from my house so I decided to walk.
Once I get there, it was dark and the moonlight was shining on the ocean water so perfectly. I walked the beach until I noticed someone sitting in the sand. I walked a litle closer very quietly so they would'nt noitce. It was Luke.
FLASHBACK
Me and Luke were sitting in the sand on the beach. "You know, I only come to the beach when I screwed up something I wish I didn't and when I'm sad." He tells me. I laugh, "So does that mean your sad right now Mr. Hemmings?" I say. "No, because I'm with you, baby girl" He smiles and kisses my nose.
END OF FLASHBACK
I stood there for a minute and smiled at that moment. We were so happy, I was happy.
Was Luke sad? I wondered.. Should I go and comfort him? Or should I leave and pretend I never saw him here. I wanted to be with him so bad but I know I would fall back inlove wth him and he would just keep breaking my heart. Why does he do this to us? I love him so much and he just keeps hurting me. Either way it's gonna hurt so I might as well see him. You only live once right?
I make my way towards him and sit next to him. "Have you noticed how pretty the ocean is?/" I say randomly. The ocean always makes me forget what's happening in reality. It makes me so calm and happy. He looks up at me but I keep my eyes on the ocean, smiling. I hear him sniffle and I see him wipe his eyes with the back of his hands.
I hate seeing him like this. I wonder if he hates seeing me cry as much as it hurts to see him cry. "Have you noticed how pretty you are, and how stupid I am for fucking shit up all the time" He said. I turned to look him in the eyes. His blue eyes we even more beautiful than the ocean, you couldn't even compare them to the ocean if you tried.
"Accualy, yeah I have. But I also know people make mistakes, good or bad. It just happens." I say looking back into the ocean. He smiles and grabs my hands and locks his fingers with mine. I turn my whole body to face him. His grow big. "D-Did, What happened to your face?" He says and gently touches my bruise on my cheeck. I chuckle for some reason, "Oh yeah, Taylor punched me" I say chuckling again and I still don't even know why.
"I-I'm really sor- " "Don't be, you didn't do it" I cut him off and say. "Yeah I did. I was talking to you and she saw and that's why I had to ignore you. Trust me I wanted to talk to you but I had to protect you. Which I failed. I'm really sorry, Ash. And I'm so sorry for being mean I just had to make Taylor and the popular kids think I didn't like you so they would just leave you alone but I can see that didn't work" He says.
"Why? Why didn't you just tell them we were dating? What's the problem." "Ashlynn, I did and they flipped and said I wouldn't of been friends with them if I dated you so I had to act like I hated you" he said. "So you pick popularity over me?" i say hurt. "No I didn't say that Ash-" "No, Luke you did. You ovbiously care more about being popular so I'll just get out of your life because that's what you want" I say getting up with tears in my eyes.
Luke grabs my arm, "Wait, Ash" He pleads. "Did you ever even like me? Or was I just one of your toys and please tell me the truth" I say with a tear rolling down my cheeck. He looked at me with tears in his eyes. I doubt they were real. "Ash" He said with his voice cracking and tears streaming down his cheecks. I never knew something could hurt as much as that. I couldn't hold in my tears any longer, I just let them go. I looked away and wiped my tears constantly.
I felt him wrap me in his arms and I felt so safe in his arms and when I heard his heart beat. Why am I so inlove with him. Why does he make me feel like this. "I love you so much, Ashlynn" He says still hugging me. "I-I love you too, Luke" I say, and mean it. "C'mon let's go home" He says and we walk home with are hands in each other.
We get to my house and we're standing outside my door. He hugs me, tightly. "I love you, Ash" He says and pulls away and starts to walk away. "Wait" I say. He turns around quickly and walks to me. "Will you stay tonight?" I ask. He smiles wide, "Yeah" He grabs my hand and opens my door and I close it and we go upstairs to my room which he opens also but this time he closes it. I grab clothes to where to bed and throw him some that he left here from lest time. After we finish getting ready we crawl into bed and cuddle into each other.
"Do you think this is the last time we'll fight?" I ask. "I don't know, but I hope so much that it is" He says which makes me smile. I close my eyes and I feel a pair of lips on my cheeck. "Hemmings you can do better than that" I say and kiss his lips which he kisses back. I pull away. "God, I love you so much I think i'm gonna go insane one day" He says. "Good, we can go insane together" I say. "You know, I'd like that." "Me too." I smile. "Love you, Hemmings" I say. "I love you, Ash" Then we fall asleep in each other arms.
