Ashlynn POV
I ran over to Luke and held his hand with tears streaming down my face. This is all my fault. I should of believed him. Why do I do this? Why do I fuck up everything.
'You did this'
'He's gonna die because of you'
'That shoud be you instead of him'
"Leave me alone" I shouted clutching the sides of my head and sitting into a chair with my legs curled into me.
'Hunny, I'll never leave you alone'
I shook my head and scooted my chair beside Luke and held his hand. I placed my head on our connected hands. Why do bad things happen to good people? Luke was larger than life, so gentle, he understood me he was so perfectly flawed... He wasn't like everyone else, he was different.
I got up and kissed Luke on his forehead, "I love you, I'm sorry" I turned the knob to the hospital door and walked past Liz wiping my tears and went outside to get some fresh air. I sat on the white bench right outside the hospital.
I put my head in my hands. This is real. I felt so out of breath just thinking about it. Then all of a sudden I heard a little girl speak. "Are you okay?" She asked.
She had her blonde hair in piggy tails and her bright blue eyes staring into my eyes. I wiped my tears with my thumbs. "Uh, to be honest.. Not really" I chuckled. She smiled which I weakly returned.
"You're too pretty to cry. So why are you?" She smiled big. She was so sweet but so wrong. I wasn't even pretty. "Thank you. A-And I'm here... Well because my boyfriend tried to commit suicide" I spoke.
She furrowed her eyebrows together in confusion, "He didn't die... So why are you crying?" She said. "B-Because it's my fault" I said with tears filling my eyes. "Nonsense, it's no ones fault. He chose to do it, not you." She said smiling still.
I always wondered whose smiles were real and whose were not. It kind of facinated me really.
All I could do was weakly smile. I put my head back into my hands for a ouple of seconds. When I moved my hands from my face she was gone. I furrowed my eyebrows.
"Ashlynn, is that you?" I heard someone call. I spun around and stood up to see Liz. "Uh, yeah it's me. I was just getting some fresh air. "Why were you talking to yourself?" She asked. "What?" I said confused.
"You were saying somethings about how it's your fault." "Oh, right. I was talking to a little girl. You didn't see her?" I said. "A little girl? Nobody was there." What? She was there I swore.
"Nevermind, has Luke awoke yet?" I said changing the subject. "Sorry sweetie, not yet." We both sighed. "Do you mind if you stay the night? I have work tomorrow and I couldn't get the day off. And I really don't want Luke to be by himself." She pleaded.
"No, I don't mind. I'll stay with him." I smiled. "Thank you, Ashlynn." She hugged me and we went our own ways after.
I opened the door and grabbed an extra blanket from the closet in the room. I layed down next to Luke counting every cut and bruise he had.
I can't do this. I have to stay strong for him. "I love you so much, Luke" I whispered, and I fell asleep within minutes later.
A.N
SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG DON'T KILL ME!!! It was my birthday January 5th and ive just been really buSY IM SO SORRY! And I'm sorry this is so short :((((((((((((
