ALONE j.g.

Chapter 1

Rhiannas P.O.V

I wake up with tears running down my checks as I breath heavily.

I try to calm myself down as I look at the clock which read 2am.

I've been having these nightmares since the day he died.

The thought of him not being here haunts me and all I could wish was for him to be by my side again.

His name was Shawn and he was the most amazing person I knew.

I don't know what triggered it, maybe I could have been a better girlfriend or maybe the kids at school pushed him too far but he committed suicide 3 months ago.

I couldn't take the sympathy people were giving my when half of them were horrible to him in the first place so I moved to Nebraska.

He was new at the school when we met and was the only person to stick up for me and with that people started to bully him too.

It wasn't just at school where he was treated like this.

His parents were abusive and treated him like he was nothing.

I learned to hate them but not as much as I hated myself.

Maybe if I arrived at his house early he would still be here but I didn't and I couldn't change that no matter how much I wanted to.

My name's Rhianna Connors and today is my first day at Westside High School.

I don't know anyone here beside my dad and my best friend Cameron, but he's home schooled.

He's been my best friend for as long as I can remember but he moved here 3 years ago which left me alone for a year with no one until Shawn came.

I'm snapped out my thoughts with the sound of my alarm.

I sigh as I stand up and make my way to the bathroom to start getting ready for the first day.

I get in the shower and wash my hair and shave my legs.

I hop out and start to brush my long, brown naturally-curly hair that comes up to my waist, once I'm finish I look at my lifeless face.

I have bags under my eyes from lack of sleep so I decide to put a bit of make up on... mascara.... Eyeliner and some concealer.

I brush my teeth and get dressed.

I decide to wear black tights and a black, obey, over-size jumper that use to be Shawn's.

Once I'm finish I head down stairs and look at the clock.

The time was 7.00 and I needed to be at school starts at 7.45 so I'll leave at 7.15. I decide to text Cameron while I wait.

(C = Cameron         R = Rhianna)

R : Hey

C: Heya, dude you excited for your first day of school.

R: what do you think?

C: don't worry about it I know most of the people who go there and they're really nice and I'll drop you off if you want.

R: Of course you do and yes please that'll be great.

C: okay be there in a few

* five minutes later*

I hear a beep from outside and instantly know that it's cam.

 I give my dad a kiss and tell him goodbye before I grab my stuff and head out to Cams car.

As I walk out the front door I see Cam beginning to walk up to see me.

I drop my bag and run into his arms.

He soon loses balance resulting in both of us falling over while we burst out in laughter.

 We stay there for a while just laughing.

I never realised how much I missed him, he's the only one who I let in since Shawn...

He knows everything about me, and I know everything about him.

Cam gets up and starts to head to his car while I go back to get my bag and jog to the passenger's seat.

 He starts the car and drives off.

We both sit there in silent for a while when Cam speaks "You have no idea how much I missed you."

I just laugh and say "Don't worry I missed you to."

I suddenly have a urge to smoke so I decide to pull out a cigarette from my front pocket of my bag which instantly earns me a glare from Cam.

 He hates that I smoke.

In all honesty I don't even like smoking that much, I just find it relaxing.

I begin to light it as he takes it out of my mouth and chucks it out the window. I give him a 'death-glare' but he doesn't seem fazed by it as he continues to drive.

 "When was the last time you ate?" Cam randomly confronts me

I had problems with eating when I was at home which he obviously knew about unfortunately.

"Today before you picked me up." I lie

The thing is since Cam knows everything about me he instantly could tell I was lying.

 He lets out a sigh and opens his mouth to say something but is cut off when we arrive at the gate of the school.

I instantly hop out of the car and mutter a quick bye before walking towards the school in hope I wouldn't have to be confronted.

Unfortunately Cam calls out my name and motions for me to come back.

For a moment I think to just continue walking but I don't.

I walk up to the car and stick my head through the window.

"I'll text you in class and pick you up at lunch or I'll just sneak in to see you if anything happens don't be afraid to ring me Okay? Okay bye love you be safe, I'll pick you up after school." He says pecking my cheek

I laugh at how protective he is before say "Bye love you to." and with that I walk into my new school.

(A/N Sorry Jack isn't in this chapter but he's in the next  and I want to warn everyone before reading this book that it in NEED of editing. I will get to it but please don't be rude about any mistakes or shitting scenarios because I'll get around to it  thank you!)