Me and Sammy arrive at my house. I go into my room and grab a present I got for Cam. Before I could head out the door again Sammy got a phone call.
“Are you serious…. I’m kinda busy right now… Okay whatever but it better be important” Sammy said before hanging up
“Hey I can’t go with you to see Cam something came up but I can still drop you off,”
I give him an understanding smile and nod my head.
We both get back into the car and begin to drive to the hospital.
When we arrive Sam and I say our good byes while he tells me to tell Cam he said hi. I grab Cams present and begin to walk to the hospital entrance.
When I get inside I excitedly make my way to the front desk. I can’t wait to give Cam his present. The present contained souvenirs of us growing up together and each one symbols a special memory like our pink best friend bracelets I made us when we were 6 and he told me he didn’t want it because it was too girly so I cried and didn’t talk to him for 3 days, but he gave me a lolly pop so I decided to forgive him.
I walk to the front desk with a smile on my face.
“Hello I’m here to see Cameron Dallas.”
She gives me a nervous look. Before I can say anymore I’m interrupted by Cams doctor.
“Ms Connors may I speak with you” I give him a confused look and nod hesitantly.
He begins to walk down the corridor with me following behind him. We walk pass his room. As I look in I see it’s empty.
“Where’s Cameron?” I ask
He remains silent and continues walking.
“Where’s Cameron?” I ask again but like previously he ignores me. We walk into an office which I’m assuming is his.
We stay silent while I wait for him to explain but he remains silent.
“Where’s Cameron?!” I say impatiently
He lets out a sigh
“I’m sorry to tell you Ms Connor but Cameron passed away earlier today, we’re sorry for your loss. His family is already aware and is currently arranging funeral plans”
“No you’re lying he’s not dead” I say “You’re lying!”
“Ms please calm down”
“NO you’re lying, now tell me where Cameron is!”
“Ms I’m sorry but Cameron has passed”
“I don’t believe you, He promised me and he never breaks his promises” I say while my voice breaks and tear begin to fall from my eyes
“You’re lying” I whisper but I could tell by the way the Doctor was looking at me that he wasn’t.
I clasp to the floor while I cry, hoping that Cam would come behind me and hug me while telling me everything is alright and somehow this was a big misunderstanding and he was going to live but I knew that wasn’t going to happen no matter how much I hoped.
I finally find the strength to stand back up while walking out the door without another word said.
As I’m about to walk out the entrance I run into someone. Not bothering to look up I sit outside the hospital and lean against the wall of the entrance.
I burry my face into my knees while I cry.
I still had Cams present in my hand. I slowly unwrap it and open the box. All of the good memories these things resembled only made me cry more.
As I cry I feel someone’s presence. I look up to find Sammy looking down at me while tears escaped his eyes.
He picks me up in his arms as he walks to his car and puts me in the passenger seat.
The ride to my house was silent except of the sound of me crying.
“Are you going to be alright?” he asks as we stop in front of my house.
I nod and exit the car.
I quickly run upstairs and lock myself in my room and cry.
An hour later I slowly find the strength to get up. I go to my closet and pulled out a box. I open it and pull out the sharp object.
I knew I promise Cam I wouldn’t do this but I couldn’t help but feel betrayed at the fact that he didn’t keep his promise so why should I keep mine.
I knew I was being self-centred but at that moment I couldn’t help it.
I put the blade to my skin and pressed down hard before dragging it across my wrist. I repeated this action until both of my arms were filled with deep cuts.
I got up and went to the bathroom. I fill the bath up with water. I soon hop in as the water made my arms sting more. I rinse off the blood and blade which made the water into an orange-red colour.
At this moment I was numb with pain.
After lying in there for another couple of minutes I get out and wrap a towel around my body.
I get changed and sit on my bed. I get under the covers and try to get to sleep.
I keep on tossing and turning trying to find the right position but I knew that the reason I wasn’t sleeping had nothing to do with what position I was in so I decided to get up.
I walk downstairs to see my father was home.
He gives me a sympathetic look before coming up to me and hugging me. I returned the gesture.
He pulls away to look at me. I knew he was wondering why I wasn’t crying but I ignored his questioning stare and stayed emotionless.
I feel my phone buzz. I turn it on and see 3 missed calls and 6 unread texts from JJ. I ignore and turn my phone off.
My dad kisses me and tells me goodnight before going upstairs.
I stay on the couch and stare off into the distance.
I decide to watch TV until I finally fall asleep.
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ALONE j.g.
Fanfiction‘It's not like I want to be alone, it's just I don't want to get hurt. ’ (currently being edit)
