I LOST HIM🥀

Chapter-Six

You know that feeling you get when you've been dying to read some book and then you finally read it.

Or the feeling you get when you see sunshine on a cold winter day.

Or that feeling children get on christmas.

Yes!?

Then you'd know how I'm feeling now!!

I get that feeling when I'm with Blake.

Happy. I'm Happy. My soul is Happy.

Sometimes I wonder how can someone be so good.

Currently we are at a small cafe "The retřo". It is a vintage style cafe with fairy light lighting the whole area.
After school Blake thought we should 'hangout'. So he brought me here.

"Hey, Are you Cindrealla???" Blake asked with a smirk.

Oh ya...I forgot to tell you this. Since school got over Blake is bombarding me with pickup lines... I've already heard around 37 pickup lines in past one hours.

"No Blake. I'm not Cindrealla." I said in a bored tone.

"Well won't you ask why am I asking that??" He said.

"You will tell me anyway. So shoot." I said.

"Because I can see that dress disappearing by mid-night" He winked.

"Ha ha...I'm dying out of laughter." I said in a flat tone.

Doesn't matter what I say, I can't stop myself from blushing.

"Come one..this one was really nice!!" I pouted.

"No Blake. It wasn't" I said focusing on my tasty fries.

Yumm...

"Okay, then listen to this one." He said.

"Blaaaake!!! Stop it." I groaned.

"Last one. I promise. You'll like this one." He said.

Oh How can I say no to those puppy dog eyes!!!

"Okay but last!!" I glared.

"Can I have your picture?" He asked.

"Why?" I said.

"I want to show Santa what I want for Christmas." He smiled proud of himself.

"Okay!! You got me here." I said laughing.

"I know..I'm fan-fucking-tstic!!!" He said with a smirk.

"Eh..Now don't flatter yourself Blakey." I smiled.

I can talk to Blake for forever and I'd never be bored of it.

Forever.

Silly how Forevers are not in real..they're just an illusion, an idea we people create to make ourself happy.

I don't thing anything like that is likely to exists. People say they'll be with eachother forever, but how long is forever?? They all leave at some point. After all we ARE humans and it's human nature...our likes and dislikes, our choices change with time. We all look for something new and more exciting. More. Either it be money, clothes or love.

Because we are greedy like that.

But maybe. Maybe that greed is what makes us humans.

So you see there's nothing like forever.

Just like some infinities are greater than others, People have a different time limits for their forever.

Some people live their forever in some months while to some it can take ages and it still won't be enough. Everyone wants a Happy ending but no one gets one.

No one ever will.

Because endings can never be happy. All we should wish for is a happy story.

"Ray!!!" Blake shouted shaking my shoulders.

"Uh..what?" I blinked.

"Are you okay??? You kind of zoned out." He asks with his eyes full of concern.

"Oh ya..just thinking." I said feeling a little embarrassed.

"About me??" He smirked.

"Don't get ahead of yourself!!" I smiled.

"Well then?" He asked.

"About stuff." I answered vaguely. I don't want Blake to know about how screwed up my head is.

"Um..okay..if you say so." He said clearly not convinced but leaving it for now.

"Yess Blakeyyy" I smiled.

"Oh ya!! I forgot.. My little sister wants to meet you. I mean ever since I told her about you she has been eaten my ears off." Blake said.

"You talk about me with your sister??" I smirked.

He blushed.

"I didn't knew you had a younger sister." I said pulling him out of his embarrassed State.

"Because you never asked. Do you have a brother or sister??" He asked.

Sister.

I whole body stiffened at the mention of my sister.

How do I tell you Blake if I have a sister or not???

Blake's question opened many unwanted doors of my memory.

Many doors that shouldn't have been opened. Doors that are better closed.

That night is still fresh in my mind.

That night when....

"Hey Ray..!! Are you okay?? You look a little pale??" He said concerned clear is his brown eyes.

Am I okay??

For real??

No...I haven't been really okay from a long time.

"Yeah..yeah I'm okay!! I...I need to go. Tell you sister I'll meet her tomorrow." I said not looking him in the eye.

"You sure You're okay??" He asked again.

"Yeah.. I'll... I'll see you tomorrow" I Said.

"Take care and call me if you need me!!" He said.

"Yeah..byeee" I kissed his cheeks and ran straight to home. Tears running down my cheeks.

I miss her.

Doesn't matter how much I say I don't...
I do...

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