I LOST HIM🥀

Chapter- Eleven

It sometimes happen that you don't know about your feelings, you don't understand them or maybe you do know them but you're simply in denial.

And then you finally realise them and when you finally accept your own feelings, that's when the shit gets real.

I've always known my feelings for Blake. Though I used to think it was just a crazy small crush which will go away with time. What I never realized was that the 'crazy-small-crush' was not so small after all.

I'm falling for Blake and Damn I'm falling hard.

And How can I not!!? Anyone can fall for Blake, he is just so sweet, cute, caring, hooot and extremly sexy and his smile....

Well I guess you get it. What I'm saying is that I finally know what I exactly feel for him.

I finally know that it isn't just some crush.

Now the problem here is if he feels the same for me, does my name brings a smile on his face too, do he miss me when I'm not with him.

And if he does then am I ready for this kind of attachment with him or with anyone!??

I was always against the idea of dating in high-school. I always found the idea some what stupid. There's no use of being in a realtionship which you know is bound to break. You already know that there are a very thin chances of high school relationships actually lasting forever. You don't meet a lot of high school sweet hearts, do you!?

You know you'll be in a relationship for a few months. Break up. Cry for a week or so. And then you'll be in another relationship. It is a never ending cycle.

And even if you don't get into another relationship then too the pain is too much to handle.

So what is making me dream about being with Blake?

Is it worth it??

I was lying on my bed wide awake with Alexa sound asleep next to me when I realized that I'm overthinking, that even if I feel for Blake there is no chance of him feeling the same way.

That there is no way we can be together and I have to supress my feeling for him before they grow.

The sound of my phone pulled me out of my 'la-la land' and there was a text from Blake.

Blake: I miss you❤

I smiled and replied to his message.

Me: Wish I could say the same about you😁.

He replied immediately.

Blake: I know you miss me princess. You're just in denial😉

I love how he added that winking emoji at last. I can picture him smiling too.

Me: Keep dreaming. Anyway why are you up so late?

I asked.

Blake: Why are you?

He fired back.

Me:I asked first.

Blake: and I asked second so?

I know he won't answer me first so there's no point in arguing.

Me:Couldn't sleep.

Blake: Same because I was missing you.

He answered. I felt my heart beating faster.

Me: Stop flirting with me Blakey.

Blake: Am not.

Now I don't know what to reply. Does he really mean what he said or is he just being his cheeky self. It's hard to tell.

Me: Whatever.

Blake: Chill Princess😂 Though I mean it.

Me: You should sleep Blakey. Good night.

Blake: Good night Princess.....xD❤

I slept with a goofy smile on my face that night.

Is it possible to fall for someone this fast?

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I woke up and saw Alexa was already up and was sitting on the chair with my phone in her hand.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"And You say you and Blake are not together." She said completely ignoring my question.

"Eh...what??" I asked confused.

"I miss you" she said in mocking tone with a smirk plastered on her face.

"What do--" That's when it hit me.

"Alexa you just can't go through my phone!!!" I whined.

"I can't!?" She asked clearly enjoying.

"I'm giving you a heads up. You're so going down." I said walking towards her.

Her eyes widened in realization and she ran down the stairs with me following her close.

"Whoa girls what's happening??" Mom asked.

"Your daughter is in looooove." Alexa said singing.

I'm so gonna kill her.

Mom looked at me.

"Really Ray?? And you haven't told me yet!! Who's he? Is he good? When will I get to meet him??" Mum asked.

"That's not true mom!! She's just messing around. Blake is just a friend." I said somewhat embarrassed.

"Ohh Blake!! Such a nice name." Mom said completely ignoring my previous statement.

"Mom he's just a FRIEND." I said glaring at Alexa.

"Either ways I want to meet him. Invite him for dinner tomorrow." Mom said.

I sighed.

There's no way she'll listen to me now.

I glared at Alexa.

"By the mom, do you know Duke?" I said with a smirk.

Now it was Alexa's turn to glare at me.

"Duke!!? As in the one who is in your school?" Mom asked.

"Exactly!!" I said.

By this time Alexa had started running towards me.

"I'll kill you!!!" She said.

"You called for it." I shrugged.

The only thing I'm thinking right now is about the dinner tomorrow.

I can just hope it goes well without any embarrassing talks.

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