I LOST HIM🥀

Chapter-Eight

We all were eating pancakes silently. It was an awkward silence, no one knew what to say.

Blake was confused about my 'sister'.
Everly was too little to even understand what was it all about.
Blake's mom or I should say Maika-as her name is was silent too.

And me....

Well I'm too stunned to even utter a single word let alone make a conversation.

One thing that I'm dying to know is how does Maika know Jenna!!!?

As far as I remember I've never met Maika.

The curosity was killing me so I decided to break the silence.

"Eh..so..how do you know Jenna?" I wispered not making eye contact with anyone on the table.

"I used to Babysit Jenna back in time, she was such a nice girl. I saw that news of her death a few years back. She was such a bright child. The light of the room. You look a lot like her." She said, tears threatening to come out.

"She was!!" I wispered, my own eyes full of tears.

She really was the light of room.
She can make a crying person Laugh in seconds. She was the best sister.

The day she died, a part of me died too. She was my sister, my best friend, my secret keeper. I love her.
I blame her for dying. She wasn't supposed to die. I was suppose to die.
She killed herself trying to save me.

"I..I think I should leave..it's getting late." I said.

I just want to go home and cry. Talking about Jenna bring backs all the bad memories. Memories I that I don't want to remember.

"I understand. Feel free to visit anytime you want, you are always Welcome here." Maika said.

"I'll drop you home." Blake said for the first time after so long.

I nodded.

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"Are you Okay?" Blake wispered.

We were in his car to the way back home.

I nodded.

I'm scared that if I speak, I'd end up crying.

He stopped the car. He turned his head towards me and cupped my cheeks.

"Ray We can talk about it if you want. I don't like seeing you in this state." He said, his eyes full of concern.

"I miss her." I admitted.

It's like those words were a green flag for the tears. The moment I said those words, my tears started falling in full force.

Blake hugged me amd rubbed my back.

"What happened exactly? If you don't mind me asking." Blake asked.

His question took me 7 years back in time.

That night...

"I was 10 years old when it happened. Dad, Jenna and I were coming back home after watching a movie...we had a lot of fun that day..Jenna was 16 back then...but then suddenly a truck hit our car. The impact was so strong that our car went all upside down..."

I took a breath...tears still running down my face.

"The truck hit the driver's seat directly so...Dad..died at the spot then.." I started sobbing hard.

"It's okay...you don't have to continue." Blake said.

"No..it's fine." I said.

"We smelled something burning and Jenna immidiately understood that it was the car. There was no way we could have lived it. But Jenna saved me..I don't know how she did it..but she did. She got me out of the car but she couldn't get herself out on time. She wasted time in saving me and she died. If I had used my brains then, she would've been here with me. It's my fault she isn't here Blake." I cried.

"Shh...It's not your fault it happened Ray, you were a kid that time. She saved you fully knowing what was the result of it but she still chose to save you first. She loved you Ray. She gave you a chance at life so don't waste it blaming yourself. You are the best person I know. The strongest too." He said.

His words were like a command. They hold so much truth, love and admiration.

And then...

Then he crashed his lips to mine making me forget every thought I had in mind.

The kiss was hungry, full of passion. It was as if he was trying to comfort me through that kiss. Like he is trying to say everything through that kiss instead of words.

And I kissed him back with the same passion.

I don't know what future holds in store for me but I want Blake to be with me.

Sitting there in the car, in the middle of nowhere, kissing Blake, I forgot all my worries.

I don't know if that's right or wrong.

But it felt right.

I shared my darkest fear with Blake today. We connected to a whole new level today.

And I wouldn't want it any other way.

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Heyyy guyss!!! Wassup?? I know I'm not updating as frequently as I used to and I'm sorry for that. Life is just getting in the way. Anyway did y'all like the chapetr?? Please do vote and comment. Much love❤