I LOST HIM🥀

Chapter-Nine

I lost someone I never expected to loose. Actually I lost two people I loved more than my life. And maybe I lost myself that day too.

I've had some bad days that just won't let up. Days I've spent blaming myself for their death. Days I felt like the walls are closing on me.

I wanted someone who could tell me that it wasn't my fault. And that it will be fine. But I never had someone.

But now I do.

I have Blake.

He made me believe that I'm not damaged. That I'm not the opinion of someone who doesn't know me.

That I'm wiser because I went something so terrible. And he told me that I'm a person who survived a bunch of rainstorms and kept walking.

And I now believe that pain makes me stronger....

And now I believe that walking through some bunch of rainstorms makes me clean.

And all of this is because Blake.

I don't know where we stand just yet and I'm content with it. As long as things are good between us. As long as we have eachother, I don't mind it.

We've kissed twice since we've met now. Not only that we always cuddle while watching movies and almost all the times we are together. I like it.

Though I wonder how long it will be like that.

Since I told Blake about my sister, about the accident and about my fears we've become more close.

He doesn't judge me.

And I've never been this Happy in a long time.

I don't want this feeling to go away.

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"I'm sooo happy you told Blake about the accident and I'm angry that you didn't tell me that you already were on talking terms with him. I was about to talk to him myself!!!" Alexa said.

"Yeah..about that I'm sorry. I just forgot to tell you. It happened so suddenly, I mean he pulled me in a classroom---"

"He whaaaaat!!?? OMG OMG!! Did he pulled you in and then kissed you!!?? Holly Molly did you guys make out!!? I mean I'm proud of you that you did but don't you think making out in the classroom is a bit overrated, not that I judge you or anything." Alexa screamed catching everyone's attention.

"Noo Geezz..Alexa.. Calm down. Nothing like that happened. Keep your voice down please." I explained.

"Soo...you guys didn't kiss then?" She said a bit disappointed.

"No. We didn't. Not in the classroom at least." I said.

"Oh I'm---- wait!! What do you mean by not-in-the-classroom-at-least!?? Rayy!! What are you not telling me!??" She asked narrowing her eyes.

"Eh... nothing..no.. nothing at all." I laughed nervously.

"Tell me or else I'll tell Blake that you love him." She said narrowing her eyes even more.

"You wouldn't dare." I said.

"Try me." She said with her eyes full of mischief.

"Okay fine... I'll tell you." I said.

"I'm listening." She said. Happy with herself.

"Wekissedinthecaryesterdayafteritoldhimaboutmysister." I said in one go.

"Ray!! Tell me. Slowly." She said.

" We kissed in the car yesterday after I told him about my sister." I wispered.

There was silence after that. No voice. Nothing. Nada.

For a second I thought Alexa left but then...

"Ohhhh eeemm geeeeee!!!! YOU BITCH!!! YOU KISSED BLAKE!!" She screamed.

"Alexa Clam down!!!" I said.

"I want details!!!!" She said.

"Okay..let's have a girl's night. My house. Bring some snacks!!" I said.

It's been quite a long since we last had a girl's night.

Earlier we used to have it almost daily.

I think life's getting in the way.

"You got me girl." She winked.

I smiled.

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I was standing by my locker when I felt a pair of arms wrapped around my waist.

"Blake!!" I giggled and turned around to look at his face.

He smiled. "Hello to you too Princess."

"Stop sneaking up on me!!" I said playfully slapping his hand.

"You love it!" He said smiling.

I smiled and nodded.

"So, you free today??" He asked.

"Eh naaah...me and Alex have plans today..kinda girl's night stuff, you know." I said.

"Oh...look at you being the typical girly girl and having a girl's night." He said dramatically wiping his invisible tears.

I glared at him and he laughed.

"Anyway what do you girls even do at these ' girl's night' ???" He asked.

"Um.. nothing much..we watch sappy chick flicks, eat a lot of junk, talk about everything and nothing, dance etcetera.. nothing special." I said.

" You call it NOTHING!!" He said looking at me weirdly.

I laughed.

"You won't get it Blakey!!" I said pinching his cheeks.

"Hey.. don't do that again. EVER." He scoffed.

"Geez...chill Mr. Hulk." I laughed.

"Whatever. Let's go I'm dropping you off." He said wrapping his hand around my shoulder.

"Yeah let's go." I said.

Girl's night...here I cooomeee..!!!

        

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Don't hate me.!!! I know I'm not doing a very good job at updating and I'm soooooooo sorryyy!!!! And I know this chapter is very short and not soo special and I'm sorry again. Much love❤️