worlds apart || j.jk + p.jm

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To: far_away_oceans_0901@gmail.com
From: thecalicocat95@gmail.com
Subject: i miss you
Sent: Wednesday, November 11th, 2018

i was just listening to the playlist you made me because i was starting my mid-term project for my photography class. it really helps a lot when i need to calm down or focus on something. i'm glad to finally get a message notification from you, i miss you a lot.

i'm doing okay, i've just been keeping myself busy lately. you're not the only one who's been having a booked schedule. i've been keeping myself awake with cups of coffee and Red Bull (even though you told me that they're not good for me and i'm sorry). i just haven't been able to sleep. at all.

if i can't sleep, i just walk around the apartment building. for some reason, it's the one thing that makes me feel tired enough to actually rest for at least three hours.
and i can never sleep in my bed, i find the floor more comfortable, which is really fucking weird.

but besides my fucked up sleeping habits, i've been fine. okay.

just school and work, that's all.

holiday break is coming up soon, so you'll be able to rest and not worry too much about school. i know how hard it is and how much it means to you, but i also know that grades and school doesn't determine your worth.
your mom keeps putting so much pressure on you, cooky... it's something i'm always thinking about.

you're already so hard on yourself and she's not helping at all. i just wish i could do something about it... i'm sorry.

you're amazing, okay? you always have been and always will be.

this is getting too long, i'm sorry for writing so much.

get some rest, please.

- calico