worlds apart || j.jk + p.jm

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To: thecalicocat95@gmail.com
From: far_away_oceans0901@gmail.com
Subject: hello?
Sent: Wednesday , January 13th, 2019

Hello? I hope you're still here. I won't blame you if you aren't. But if you are...

I want to let you know that there's so much that I haven't told you. I want to. But I don't know you are, Calico. Why are you hiding?

There's nothing scary about me or even threatening. I'm the least scary person. I just want to be here for you and I feel as if I'm being kept outside. Why won't you let me in?

I want to always make you smile and take you out of your darkness on bad days and be someone you can just call when you need to talk. I want to be comfortable with you. I want you to be comfortable with me.

We need to trust each other. I just need you to really and honestly trust me.

I've done so much thinking. About a lot of things. Everything. You.

I lied when I said that there wasn't anything there between us. I lied when I said I don't have feelings for you. I'm sorry. And I know you hate me sayin sorry but I'm so sorry for keeping things from you.

You've become so important to me and my daily life and I just want you to always be apart of it. But as you and not Calico.

I want to live in New York and I'm going to switch my major for next year.

As for my label... I don't think I need one. I don't really want one. Is it really necessary? To just put yourself in a little check box? I just don't think it's for me. I'm not saying it's a bad thing or that no one else should do it, but I don't think I can.

All I know is that I'm not straight lol.

I haven't spoken to my mother in weeks. I don't know how I feel about it, honestly. Should I be upset or relieved? I don't know.

I don't know a lot of things, but I guess that's okay for now. All I know is that I want to direct films and live in New York and have you in my life.

Are you okay with this?

- Jungkook