worlds apart || j.jk + p.jm

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To: thecalicocat95@gmail.com
From: far_away_oceans0901@gmail.com
Subject: things have been good!
Sent: Monday, November 24th, 2018

I saw the pictures you sent me, and from what I can see, you're gonna have the best portfolio in the class. Hands down. Are those your friends? They're cute haha. Also MOONIE IS BEAUTIFUL. WHOA. WHATTA CAT.

I'm guessing you dyed your hair... blue? Maybe pink? Orange? I have no idea oh my god.

I'm sure any color would look amazing on you, though.

You need more than just two hours of sleep, love. You may feel good now, but you're gonna crash. And crash hard. I'm almost done with the playlist I made for you to help you sleep. I really hope it helps.

I remember the story you sent! I still have it saved on my laptop. I read three times since you sent it. It's really beautiful, Calico. I think you should publish a book someday... I'd buy every single copy.

I think Moonie knows something is wrong. You say you're okay, but I know you're not. And she does too. You're both just worried about one another.

I've only had one pet in my life and it's my dog that lives back at home with my mom in Korea, just like Minnie! His name is Raphael. I can't remember who named him haha. He's like my best friend, honestly. I think I miss him more than I miss my mom oops.

I've been studying and working on my English a lot! I already knew some before leaving Korea, but I've gotten so much better. I'm able to actually have a small conversation with people. I still have a lot to learn and work on, though.

Of course I have other classes, though I mostly talk about my English classes because they're the only classes I'm most worried about since English is my major. But I also have a math class and world history. I'm actually really good at math, but I like world history more because I get to understand different cultures and countries. It's really nice.

My mom has been calling in more and checking up on my grades. She hardly asks about how I'm doing, which hurts, but I'm used to it. It's been this way since elementary school. She's always been on me about my grades and work and my future. I know you know all of this... but, Calico, the more she pressures me, the more my anxiety heightens. Like, sure, I'm here in America studying abroad, but when I leave university... what am I gonna do?

I'm studying English because I want to move here for good. I don't know what career I want. I mean, I do. I want to be a director. But I feel like that's out of my reach and impossible when my mother hates the idea of me doing anything other than becoming a doctor or teacher.

I'm sorry. I'm complaining again.

You asked about what I've been up to and I just vented...

Chuseok - or Thanksgiving (is what it's called here) was two days ago! I didn't have any family to celebrate with obviously, so me and my friends went to a really nice restaurant and basically pigged out. And we all went around and said what we were grateful for.

I said I was grateful to have met them because they really are wonderful people. I also said I was grateful for them accepting me because my mother doesn't know that I like guys (and I wanna keep it that way for a little while because everything is going okay right now) and it's nice to be accepted, you know? 

And of course I said I was thankful for you.

I hope you don't mind that I told them about you? I didn't tell them your name or anything (or your online name), I just told them that there's someone that I'm talking to who also lives in Korea, specifically Busan.

I really am thankful for you.

I haven't been doing much... me and my roommate went to this AMAZING Korean restaurant! The food tasted just like the food back home! It was so comforting.

My roommate is also studying abroad, but they're from Australia. Their name is Holland and they're really cool. I could listen to them talk all day because I love their accent lol. They've never had Korean food, so that was their first time eating it. At first, they were skeptical and didn't know what to order, so I ordered for them. We had black bean noodles and kimchi and bulgogi and tteokbokki and a lot of other stuff.

I really wanted them to have a taste of Korea!

One of my friends invited me to go out to a bar with her tonight (a Monday night??) so I'm gonna start getting ready soon.

I'll try not to drink a lot! When I get drunk, apparently I eat a lot?? I'm also very giggly from what I've heard from my friends haha.

I hope we have fun tonight!

And I hope you're doing okay and having a nice day/night, love!

- Cooky