For now I will fail to say that I am happier without you, for now I will fail to say goodbye without shedding a tear, for now I will live in hope, hoping to be in your arms again, for now I am lost without you, for now you have turned my world upside down, for now the pain will toy with my heart and tickle every spot in my body that can jump to you, for now I love you endlessly, for now I feel as though I can’t live without you, I don’t hope that its only for now but only time will tell, but for now without you I am falling apart and for now I want to tell you that I am not alright, that I am hurting, that I am crying and wilding out, and for now I feel like this pain will never end. Right now, I want to be with you and right now I love you more than ever before, I just hope somehow you understand, and whichever way this ends I will always be there just not now, so right now I miss and I love you. I hope someday it becomes crystal clear if it was all worth it for you, because somehow with time it might fade, I hope it doesn’t return to the desired when its undesired because it really is, for now, and probably this love never will be once more.
