I remember way back ago, I studied for an exam that got 50 items. Out of it, I got perfect. I missed no item but I didn't feel good. I was congratulated but I didn't felt my achievement. I shrug it off and studying had been one of my hobby.
A few more years ago, I have to leave school for almost a week because I was sick. I am fragile. I get easily break. I remember when I have to separate myself when bawling into tears because I couldn't breathe. I was literally gasping for air and at the same time comforting and calming myself.
"It's alright. You could live pass this. You are strong. You've got me. Yourself. Breathe. Tomorrow will be okay."
I did live...till now.
Then a little more years ago, I got drown. I couldn't get to lift myself up. I got lost. SHE got lost. I was left devastated. Or HER. I got so confused. I decided to let go. I stopped. I left my life. I had gone deeper and deeper to the ocean of darkness. A chain labeled 'loneliness' to comfort, sunken with me. I got embraced with it and to my surprise, a stranger seep out of me.
When I was, little by little, got swallowed by the abyss, she rose up and took the left part and played the role well. No one noticed. She's great.
And then now, I found HER telling me goodbyes. Saying, "Don't worry you'll be fine. You got Her remember? She's better." With that little by little SHE disappeared into nothing. I got so depressed. I told Her that She can take a rest and so She did. I took over and got attacked so bad. It shattered me so bad it need recuperation. So I asked for Her help.
She gladly accepts then I gone back to my new home. Leaving Her to fix everything back up again while I heal myself that would take a very long while.
"I think I have written much. Mail this for me and I will take my leave."
It was written at the very left corner of the letter with the initials "R H G C". With a sealed wax tampered above with the symbol of an eagle with a laurel wreath holding the initial of the Gui... family.
