I have a disorder
A mental one
No one bothered
Just to ask.
I stayed cope
Away from everyone
Looking, listening, observing
As if I am a no one.
But then I come to wonder,
Why I am being locked up with my own thoughts.
Restraining myself to meddle,
To go outside and have fun.
I didn't know the feeling
To get outside of my mental prison
That's why I get anxious and choke
For the first time I got freedom.
Being played, fooled and taken for granted
They are cruel but I endure it
Since they told me it is normal
So I trusted those words and continue
But then someone came and taught me,
Not to endure it anymore
I ask him why is he doing this
He just shrug and leave me alone.
I got up and walk
Away from people who played---
Me and every pieces of myself
Leavin' myself crack and broken.
Now I have realized what it feels like
To be outside of my mental chambers
I will not bother to go or even to step out
Coz it is much worser than living alone with my solitude and shout.
