Attack on Titan One Shots

Banish My Self-Hate (Armin x Reader)

Hiya ^^,

Just a couple of things before you read this incredibly overdue one-shot:

It's dedicated to destinycopley13

and

TRIGGER WARNING:

Contains VIOLENCE, BULLYING, DEPRESSION, and SEX, so please read on with caution.

I will not leave another warning during the story because it could ruin your immersion, so please be careful.

Enjoy.

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The size of my thighs is abnormal and I'm sure everyone else hates them too.

My voice is incredibly annoying and I know everyone wishes I'd shut up.

The shape of my stomach, which I'm positive everyone has noticed.

My eyes are horribly boring.

The eye bags that make me look like half a raccoon, surely.

Literally everything; My hand would cramp before I even reached 100 things.

It was just a small list, hidden underneath her pillow, that had seen better days. The piece of paper had dry spots from her tears and wrinkles from many restless nights, and it served absolutely no purpose. (Y/N) never planned to cross the items out in triumph.

Her mind had been a bit more relentless than most days and demanded she look at the practically faded pencil markings on the paper. It mocked her. Hissed that she should have added her wretched handwriting to the list. Her head meekly nodded to the snarky whispers until her knees were pressed against her chest as she rocked to the rhythm of her tears. (Y/N)'s wails vibrated against the walls despite trying to remain silent, so the girls slipped in unnoticed.

"What've you got there, huh?" Annie snatched the note out of her cold fingertips without much resistance. Her eyes flickered back and forth through the supposedly sloppy handwriting and a twinkle shone brightly through her eyes.

"I bet it's another rejection note." Ymir chuckled malignantly before impatiently grasping the material and portraying the same look like her friend. Their eyes landed on the girl below them who mumbled insanely to herself as she continued to frantically teeter back and forth- physically and mentally. The frail girl barely felt her assailants roughly drag her out of the room, but she heard a heart beating very loudly above the dog-like whistle of silence. Bruises would most likely cover her from head to toe after this encounter.

The girls harshly threw her across the vacant lady's room floor. The impact awoke her from paralysis in time to register the kick to her stomach. She clutched it with a grimace, wheezing loudly as her diaphragm temporarily froze. Annie took this as the perfect opportunity to punch her straight in the cheek. Blood oozed from (Y/N)'s mouth due to her teeth clamping down on her tongue. She cried out, influencing Ymir to punch her in the stomach again as an attempt to shut her up. It didn't work as another whimper left her busted lips when Annie yanked her across the floor by her hair. The girls continued their assault until they were both out of breath. Ymir placed her hands on her thighs as she stared at their victim. Blood puddled all around them.

"There's something missing." Ymir glanced toward Annie who held a wicked glint in her eyes. She slowly pulled out a wooden knife from her pocket and summarily tore through (Y/N)'s fluid stained uniform. Now everyone would see her ugly scars.

Tremors rippled through the injured girl whilst her (e/c) colored eyes screwed shut missing their slender bodies slink out of the bathroom. Their horrid activities were nothing new, but they had never gone this far. She cursed herself for being so damn hideous.